TheComfortCorner | V.9

[pandaa]

I just want a hug or to just go to bed or something I don’t know right now, I’m not okay :,)

[stellulite]

Maybe it’s stupid to be upset but over seven years and you forgot my birthday, ouch. ):

[viles]

• idk i'm just. i found a linked in profile for someone i used to know and it's just making me feel Weird. idk my life is just,,, not at all where i'd like it to be and i was getting excited about transitioning but idk if that's even a real possibility at this point and i just,, idk skhfkjhf i'm so much Lesser than everyone else my age. it feels like my life is nothing compared to theirs and i just,, idk it's just frustrating and overwhelming and sad and i just,,, idk. life is just so weird right now and i haven't felt like i'm progressing in at least a year and i just i have no plan for my future or anything and idk if i even need one like i just,,, im so clueless about what to do and where to go and who to be and i need to know bc im supposed to know and idk im just gonna stop typing bc this isnt helping lmao

[67Phlox]

The struggle of wanting to be social but fearing being social
uhh, yeah... too scaredy to begin an interaction hahah
meybe 2morrow

[LittleMaple]

Headache, I saw an old friend who sprained her ankle. I hate her and hate that she left me in my time of need, but I dont wany her to be in pain. Makes me think about humans

[rena.]

being off work and home alone can be such a bummer sometimes. i miss living near my friends and family, and its so hard to make new friends that live here :/

[stellulite]

This year has definitely made me hate my birthday. I already knew today would be a hard day because I am constantly upset with myself over how little I have seemed to progress in life compared to others, but I didn't anticipate it being as bad as it has been. Growing up I never had many friends and would get sad about my birthday for that reason, but I really thought at this point in my life I had more people that cared, even if it's just a few. Of course, I appreciate those who reach out to me, but they are my parents and close family members. What's most upsetting is that my partner of over seven years didn't tell me happy birthday on his own accord, when it was brought up at my parent's house just a few hours prior. That really hurt. It also hurts that only one of my friends told me happy birthday, while the others did not. It does hurt that my close friends don't remember, but on social media, it reminds others of others' birthdays as well. I don't know, it just really hurts. I don't want gifts or anything extravagant, it would just be nice to be remembered. I remember all of my close friends' birthdays and I remember my partner's birthday, of course. I am the type of person to message somebody at midnight wishing them a happy birthday, not that I expect others to do that. It would just be nice to be remembered and interacted with. I have spent the day crying to myself wondering why I will never receive the thought, care, and love that I pour out into other people who I consider important. It just really hurts.

[alleyway]

I am going to be alone for the rest of my life (:

[viles]

• i watched a video and it's sent me down a certain track of thinking and now im all like,, questioning my relationships and like,, idk even just how i go about talking to people at all? and like,, idk i'm trying to distract myself but it's not working and i just. idk. this is one of the few times i am grateful for my poor memory because the fewer of my past social experiences that my brain can recall right now the better,, idk there's specific things i want to talk about but i shouldn't discuss them here so i guess thats all i have to say

[clues]

i feel like such a burden. all i do is get in the way. no one loves me and i understand that because i dont deserve to be loved. no matter what i do, everything just always feels like i'm damned if i do and damned if i don't. it's so hard to take care of myself because all i see is greed. i don't deserve anything and it's disgusting of me to act like i do. i don't belong anywhere. i'm a fraud.