( *:・゚✦ ) xx❝xx𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐧 𝐠𝐨𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐧 !! x─────ix ♔
x──────i ii zeus. iii eighteen. iiii tags: auggie, felix. ivi outside - cabin seven.
x──────i ii zeus. iii eighteen. iiii tags: auggie, felix. ivi outside - cabin seven.
- he didn't quite remember how to make the rasputini. he knew he'd said something about it, that there was something in it that made it - no. gone. something about his friend, whose name came to his head, the wrong name, but his name, and a weight landed on his chest. he hadn't even thought about his family. they would be back from the funeral by now. they would be weeping over his grandmother, who felt so far away and yet closer than ever, and they would be faced with the news of his death.
he wasn't supposed to be thinking about his perishment in absolutes, but it felt certain, a wave over his mind. this was something that was happening, whether he liked it or not, so best to get on with it. auggie's presence made that difficult. he didn't want to leave her yet.
watching the blur of yellow drift across the cabin, talking in chattered syllables - there was something beneath it all. orin could feel it. felt like he was watching a television show, one that he desperately wanted to turn off, because it was too bright, too loud, and the acting was too forced, but it was on every channel. no matter how many times he flicked through the listings, felix was still there, crinkling wrappers, pouring water, pulling teeth for a saviour.
this hadn't been what he had wanted.
he had been trying to change the programme when auggie spoke, face impeding on the rest of the smeared landscape in front of him. "i hate this show," he grumbled, then caught himself, reality returning for just a moment. "just a catnap. a little one. i'm alright. s'alright." she kept saying things, while the room rattled and churned, and every time it felt worse. "i don't want to." didn't want to leave, didn't really want to stay, not like this, for it would always loop back to moments like these, where everything felt like a television set, a bad comedy where the jokes were invisible and the actors were stuck with plastered, false smiles - like if they showed enough teeth, no-one would notice the tears in their eyes.
he couldn't promise anything. knew how the story was going to end - so a different tact, then. "i was gonna ask you -" seemed stupid to say, now. "if you'd want to come back with me. to... to -" he shut his eyes, thought hard. she hadn't been there when he'd forgotten. if she had, he would've been embarrassed. it was nearly there, dancing on the tip of his tongue, mocking him for all that was not quite right. felix moved, held a glass to his mouth and he drank from it as he thought. bitter. disgusting, if he was being completely honest with himself. could have at least put a spoonful of sugar in it, made it so that it didn't taste like he had licked a corpse.
it was finished, and when he looked up at felix, a moment of clarity - vision returned to him, no longer doubled or tripled, defined in all the right places, but it wasn't what he wanted to see. that morose stare came back, caught, and then replaced by something different. one that was hopeful. "ireland." orin said, unaware he'd even spoken. he'd remembered. that was nice. "i thought you could meet them. minty'd like you, i -" his friend considered again, brow furrowing. "he texted me earlier. i didn't reply." he should have. "left my phone in my drawer. i didn't even think. i should have..." eyes narrowed, world liquidising again. "i need to answer him."
"do you think you could get it, auggie?" something in felix's voice. orin thought they both knew what was going on, deep down, the scheme beneath the scheme, and it hurt, and he was glad that he couldn't quite see her right, because he wouldn't have been able to look her in the eye. he needed his phone. he'd remembered, at least. a chance beneath the chance.
( *:・゚✦ ) xx❝xx 𝐥𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐝𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐞𝐳 !! x─────ix ♘
x──────i ii ares. iii eighteen. iiii tags: kathryn, riley, lucy ivi mess hall.
x──────i ii ares. iii eighteen. iiii tags: kathryn, riley, lucy ivi mess hall.
- she doubted herself. and that was a win. even though the words that followed denied it, the hesitation said it all. she didn't know, and she was fighting a war that wasn't her own. she wanted to believe that orin was better than he evidently was because - "do you actually care about him, or is it the fact that it reflects badly on you if brother dearest is a colluder?" he asked, the little smile on his face. "just a stupid son of ares. that's me. just war. but this is war, and he's a defector. is he not?" he knew what he was doing, pushing the right buttons, seeing where she ticked. it was a skill. it was a power, sometimes. perhaps in more intense contexts it was more useful, but riling her up was something that he wanted. if it made lucy look better, then it was all that he could do. a apology, of sorts, for not stopping the fist as it soared through the air.
"this isn't battle. this is vermicide," he replied. leo had received his father's attention for far more than just verbal slatherings. he knew his proficiency, his skills. they were shrouded in secrecy, in some sort of shame, but they were facts nevertheless. this girl had no idea, and that put him on the higher ground. so when he punched her, it wasn't really to prove his point, but to punctuate it. it was already proven. he didn't doubt that his dad had faith in him. he didn't doubt that his dad had seen the things he'd done, the people he'd been, and acknowledged them.
he didn't get what he wanted, because at the moment he thought that the assault would be returned, mr. d arrived, followed by chiron, and he let out a somewhat exasperated sigh. was he losing his touch? a shame. what exactly happened here? "veritas," he settled for answering, taking a step back and scrunching his nose up. "think zeus has got more problems to deal with than this. his son's a side-hopper."