TheComfortCorner | V.8

[Purgatory K9]

I have no friends and it really has taken a toll on me

[autumnsoundtrack]

My boyfriend was helping me move out, got stressed, and took it out on me, acting like it was my fault that we were taking so long in clearing out my apartment. I've just generally tried my best to take the burden off of him, and have been grateful for his help, but once he gets stressed it always lands on me. It sucks, and it makes me feel like a burden and a lousy girlfriend.

To make it up to me he said he'd get me a slushie, because that's always been our 'thing', but once we got home and unloaded the stuff he just... forgot. And I didn't want to mention it to him because I didn't want him to groan about having to drive again, and I know it's just a stupid slushie but it makes it feel like him apology wasn't as true because he didn't remember.

And now he's just downstairs having a great time with his friends, forgetting all about it. While I'm upstairs still feeling awful. Great.

[Chihiro Fujisaki]

i know this isnt a major problem compared to others but
im most likely going to be alone at lunch in school next year
none of my friends so far have my lunch period

it gives me so much anxiety and ugh
im not some popular kid with a lot of friends and i have zero damn social skills
yeah, sure, i can try to make friends
but its so freaking difficult for me to
i hate talking with new people
i just hate it

I get how you feel, I've been in that situation but trust me you will make new friends. It might seem tough at first but making the first step to talk to people will make things so much better, maybe get to know some people in your classes who you can sit with at lunch? Friends come naturally if you make the first steps, unfortunately you can't expect people to come to you but fortunately so many people are happy to make new friends a get to know new people, so im sure you'll make more friends easily

[Arlecchino ♡]

i'm so tired of fighting these battles that i know she won't let me win. it's endless, she's relentless. i can't even get a full night of sleep because she has to call and scream at me for whatever i may have done, or what she thinks i might do to wrong her.
no matter how many times i try to, i feel too guilty to leave. she's the only one who takes the time to even recognize that i exist anymore, i'd be alone without her.
but maybe being alone would be better at this point.

[cece.]

i’m so irritated.
stop telling me “we’re all going on a diet” and then you turn around and buy junk food the next day.
i want to start eating healthier and even went out of my way to buy groceries and meal prep which didn’t really matter since you threw it away because it was “taking up shelf space” and proceeded to make fun of me for making mashed cauliflower,,,,
and then for dinner tonight, you guys buy freaking pizza, knowing damn well i can’t eat it. i can’t afford to go to the grocery right now and buy more stuff and i defiantly can’t afford to go to a fast food place and try to eat the “healthiest” thing on their need menu.
i just can’t win. i eat like crap, you belittle me. then i turn around and eat healthy and you still belittle me.
like what do you want me to do??

[symbols]

I have come to the conclusion that I am very whiny.

[gaymer]

i hate myself for being so vulnerable to being hurt all the time i'm too gentle and ugh

[sinensys]

choosing names is so hard. and a lot of trans peeps just say things like "you'll know which is right" and like,,,,, ig you right? but how many times am i going to have tell people, "oh i actually go by ____" ? last semester, i went by saf, and now this semester, i've just told everyone to call me sebastian, and now i think connor might be a good name?? i hate second guessing myself. i like the name sebastian, but ig it sounds pretentious a bit, considering my birthname is a pretty common name. it makes me so anxious to ask to be called something else. i don't mind people knowing i'm a transboy - i don't pass very well for masculine when i don't speak, i'm really only andogynous looking here. when i speak politely to people my voice pitches upwards, but when i'm casual, i let it drop an octave and let it be gritty sounding. i get to see a specialist who will redirect me to hrt soon, but by the time i get t and by the time i start experiencing any actual changes, the whole semester will fly by.

i know i should be glad that i have the opportunity to use these social name changes, but dear g o d they stress me out, even if the community is supportive and asks no questions as to why someone with a super feminine name is asking to be called sebastian, a super masculine name. i still have one more class to introduce myself in on monday. maybe i should go by connor there, and then if people from other classes are in there and ask questions, i just say i'm trying out names. but god that feels so extra and i hate it. i didn't want to have multiple names during a single semester, but i feel like i made a mistake with sebastian?? like, the day before, i went and got a haircut, and i felt really good being called sebastian, but now i wonder if it's really from just being referred to as 'sir' instead of 'miss' for once?? idk and i hate it

[Purgatory K9]

I wish I was enough. I wish I was enough. I WISH I WAS ENOUGH FOR ONCE IN MY DAMN LIFE

[cribunni]

my past seems so bright to me now. i'm looking back on last year, and these memories are yellow and bright, like the sunlight won't ever stop shining down upon them. i wasn't very happy last year. i just wasn't. if anything, i'm less depressed now than i've ever been. so why does it feel like i'm falling apart?

i need help