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[actmissing999]

i don’t understand why i’m like this.
every time i make friends i feel out of place like they don’t want me.
i joined a server with my best friend and a couple of their friends in it but
i just feel out of place like i don’t belong and they all hate me or think i’m a nuisance because i don’t even do the same thing they do!
it’s my fault i have two friends out of seven billion people on this earth. i convince myself they hate me and then distance myself from them.
i have a lot of discord servers but i don’t talk in any of them in fear of being hated or annoying
i could be a popular boy, but i’m ugly and annoying, so i’m not. it’s all my fault i’m not someone i like.
my parents are terrible at being parents. do they always have to mock me and discriminate against me?
school is a disaster too and that just adds to their ammo. i wish i had parents who cared about my mental health and well-being.
if i was in a world where i was perfect and my friends liked me and i just had a perfect life, that’d be so great. i’d be so happy. but the knowledge that will never ever ever happen hurts too.
also, i’ve been thinking- do i fawn over fictional characters because i know i’ll never be loved?
i distract myself with fiction because i can’t come to terms with cold hard reality.
i shouldn’t be like this. why am i such a terrible person? deceive, unlovable, disgusting. they say to love yourself and be comfortable with who you are, but i just can’t.
also, there’s ladybugs everywhere. i hate bugs! ahh so icky
someone send help ;_;

[i·dée fixe]

im so mad and frustrated at myself

i took an important 3 question quiz and i knew all of the material on it but i managed to mess up one large part of a question
i dont understand why i'm like this
im so hurt and mad
i know the material
why do i still mess it up so badly??
i worked so hard to make sure i understood everything, yet one careless mistake messed it all up
that's going to add up to so many points..
i was going to do better this semester
i just want to cry and quit it all

i got an 81 on another test too. i know, 81 is a satisfactory grade, but not when you literally thought you knew everything about the unit. i was so ready and i thought i was prepared
where did i mess up?
why do i keep doing this?
i tried and i worked so hard, why does this keep happening to me? i was so sure i'd at least get a 95
i sacrificed so much
how much more do i have to give to stop feeling like this

[slushy puppy]

My grandmother is in bad condition and in the hospital. We went there and I think she's feeling a bit better, I hope things come out to be alright.

[Spearow]

i hurt so much, i’ve been worried about my friend. and he just told me a bunch of stuff i wish he wouldn’t have. he makes me so upset, sometimes i don’t know if i should just cut ties, i love him but it might be better not to know when something bad happens to him. i’m so scared, i hate caring about people they only cause pain

[jellybutter]

my inbox is always open if u need it :)

[MOVED !!!]

i screwed up again, now i don't have any friends,

[crabodile]

i'm afraid to loose my most caring friend because i'm a burden and have no self-confidence

[EresTheRat]

So I'm probably going to drop out of college.
Not because I'm stupid. I know I'm not. As weak and pathetic as this sounds, I'm just not emotionally able to handle it right now.
I made a mistake in pushing myself to go when I had been diagnosed with depression in the first place. It was just hard to imagine doing anything else, and I'm still not quite sure what I'm going to do in my life without a college degree.

The hardest thing is breaking this to my parents. They expect so much of me and to have wasted their money this first semester and disappointed them like this is probably the worst part of all of this. I texted my mom that I wanted to talk to her about school jut a few minutes ago. I'm just scared because my relationship with my parents has already gone very downhill this last year to the point where my mother has threatened to kick me out of the house a few months ago. I don't do drugs or have bad friends or anything (actually I have no friends), but emotionally I've been very unstable and it's been hard on everyone. It doesn't help that I never talk about any of this with my family, and they don't understand the extent of how bad it is and that my meds don't help very much.

It's just hard. All my life, ever since I was 10 or something, I was so sure I'd graduate highschool with good grades (which I did), and then go to college and knock it out of the park. Nope. That dream is destroyed now. It's not what I thought it'd be, and I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do with my life now. Clearly, I have a lot of growing up and changing left to do.

I'm scared and confused and sad. If someone could please respond that would be nice. I probably won't respond to you, but I could use to kind words right now and know that my lack of reaction to any possible responses doesn't mean I don't appreciate what everyone else says.

[momincharge]

so i have a plan to run away on march break
i have a couple friends who will help
im just really scared

i have a lot of reasoning behind this.
i want to be known as a boy but i'm female so i'm gonna cut my hair to look like a guy and then get guy clothes and always keep my face hidden
there is an abandoned apartment which im gonna stay in.
my friends will deliver food and stuff and-
i just want to be me.
i just don't want to be known as a female.
i don't want to be known as the idiot i am.
i know i'm going really far and risking a lot to be 'me' with running away but my parents would disown me if they found out that i don't want to be known as a girl or that i identify as a guy but biologically a girl or that im biologically a girl and i date girls
like
i'd rather run away than be disowned and i just want to be me
im going to lie about my name and everything
im going
to just
be me

[fika.]

due to a hectic day of college and visiting my nan in hospital and a busy evening, i will post what i can now. later on i will edit this post if no one posts after me. regularly check if you are awaiting a response! ♡

I thought when I was an adult everything would make sense and I would have structure and be able to put my life together but it's not true. None of it is true. I'm most lost than ever, I'm depressed, I don't know where my life is headed. I find myself wanting to give up more than I ever did. I feel like I'm running out of time. I feel like I wasted my childhood and my teen years worrying so much. I don't know anymore.

it's okay nothing is making sense. people go through life either knowing what they want out of it or not. life is a mystery and i can bet the majority of your people had planned their life to go one way, and it turns out the opposite, and that is okay! and life isn't wasted through worrying because it shapes you to be who youare today, and you are not running out of time. a lot of people don't even truly get what they want out of life until they are well in or above their 50's and that is okay and normal. don't stress, life will sort its path out for you and it will all fall into place. good luck ♡

i love it when u have a crush on ur friend n u dont know if the feelings mutual so u overthink everything they say and do n feel like a freak bc u like them so much n they might not even know and u worry ur making it way too obvious
hell

they're also coming over next monday to work on a group project we're doing
itll be the first time we spend any time together outside of school
i swear to god im gonna mess something up or be awkward
i like her lots
fffff

omg if it's too obvious it is FIIINE. honestly my dude someones got to make the first move eventually, and they are obvious moves. if it's awkward it's fine, just focus on the project and then throughout it just ask little questions to get to know them like "hey, what do you think about ____" and i really hope things work out for you !! good luck ♡

oh look my first post of many on the new thread

!warning! childish roblox issues ahead!
yesterday I found a new game on roblox and I really like it
it's by the same people who made I game I'm not allowed to play anymore so of course I was anxious
it was really fun
I couldn't and still can't get enough of it
but a song came on in-game that sounded like it said a bad word multiple times
I'm not even sure if it said that or if the developers know
but I can't tell them or anything because I'm not allowed to chat or send messages or anything on roblox
I just feel so upset again because I already had to stop playing that other game that I'd played practically since I started roblox
and explode1, aka the person I've looked up to for so long, the one who got me into actually drawing robloxians and stuff, inspired me to try and make adventure games etc is still missing and I don't know what happened
his twitter link and everything are still gone
it's been like that for around a month and I get really worried every time I look at his profile or play one of his games
I really don't want my favorite game developer to be gone forever
I'm not supposed to look at twitter posts so I can't see if there's a post about what's going on
end of roblox talk
I start getting really upset if nobody talks to me for over half an hour
and that's a huge problem cause nobody is gonna talk to me unless I talk back which I'm really bad at
I feel really worried that I'm not gonna win stuff that had actual tears put into
it's really stupid
I need a hug

hmm i'm a bit confused with the whole roblox thing ?? i'm sure your fav is fine! he may just be taking a hiatus which many people do.

as for getting upset, that's okay. it's hard if you feel like people don't talk but try and distract yourself, e.g. if you're on about cs go on the forum games where there's a lot of friendly people that are always up for a chat, even if it's outside pms (i'm usually over there !). plus it's fun :b. as for not winning stuff, agh, i know how you feel but it's okay so don't stop putting effort in! you're doing so well. stay strong ♡

i miss my boyfriend

he's all the way in britain

hello from britain !! is it a long distance relationship or is he just visiting? either way, ask him to send you post cards and if he lives there, send him things from home! it's cute and it's like having a pen pal. i can't help much with missing people because i went away over christmas break and i was in tears every night because i couldn't see my boyfriend. my friend, britneyrox,
is in a long distance relationship and she's super nice to talk to if you want to talk to her about ldr's! good luck ♡

There was a point in my life where I was so happy. I got good grades, I had a good relationship with my family, I was social, I wasn't afraid. I was extroverted and never cared about what people thought of me. I had loving friends and supportive teachers. But somehow, I ruined it. What the hell happened. I just want my life back, I want control again. I want to make changes, but I always get in my own way. I'm finding it harder and harder to breathe everyday, and am waiting for the point where I just give up and let everything go. I want to feel safe in my own skin again, fearless, and I just want to be okay. But something makes me think that will never happen. I'm helpless, there's nothing I can do. I can change my friends, I can try harder, I can do better, but it will never be good enough. I'm living up to no one's expectations except my own, and somehow, those expectations are always an inch away, but I can never reach them. Everytime I try, I mess up. Everytime I want to be okay, I'm the only one telling myself that I won't.

I can do everything in my power to do better, but it will never be good enough. And I've learned to accept that, because something tells me I can't exactly run from my own mind.

i know what you mean in terms of your own expectations. it's hard, but you'll have to lower them! there will always be someone or something better and that is okay because no one is perfect. do not push yourself to the point you are hurting your own mental health. praise yourself for everything you do and you will gain confidence in it. expect the worst so you can be happy with the outcome if it's better. good luck ♡

I'm so...frustrated right now.
You've been here for 3 months and I know you're on vacation but...really?
I go to class, I have a lot of homework to do and I'm the sole person doing any sort of cleaning at the moment...and you're getting angry at me for not getting you food? I love you so much but you make me so frustrated. You've done nothing. You played games all day today. I've been stressing through homework, I did the dishes and cleaned up today. You did nothing. So I guess it makes sense I have to get you your food so you can continue laying in bed.

Ugh.

oh we all know someone like this. my guy my best advise is to protest. seriously. protest nicely :> "hey, i'm kinda busy, do you think you can get your own food?" and then if they say fine say "oh, and please wash the dish afterwards! i'm really caught up with school and stress". boom. if that doesn't work, well just don't do anything. seriously, they need to learn independence. they can't live off of someone forever. i hope it works out for you !! good luck ♡

haha all your rats died.. All I hear all dang day. I hate siblings.

well they're just rude and ignorant. seriously tell someone in 'higher power' (sorry to involve capitalism but idk how else to explain it) to make them stop ?? there isn't one person that doesn't care about you, surely that one person can tell them to stop and they will listen. mourn over your rattos, they lived a happy life with you :> good luck ♡

i jst felt like crying all day
i'm needy & i hate this?
sttoppp
why am i getting so anxious
this isnt like me i feel annoying & awful rn
can i just stop worrying please
like
everything is going to be ok
but my brain says otherwise
shut up
i'll be fine
let me believe that please
let me go one day w/o being so damn anxious
i feel lonely & stuck
i feel like im making people hate me
theyre not but i just
just feel like that you know
& i hate the tightness in my throat & my stupid thoughts
god
sorry
illbeokayillbeokayillbeokay i promise
im not usually like this
let me be myself again

oh you do sound like you're struggling boo :<<< but you're right! you will be okay!! it will take a long time i know and don't give up because there definitely are bumpy paths and roads and dark days but ahhh it's so worth it !! and even when you feel recovered there is a bad day that makes you want to crawl back in bed and cry all day and that is okay !!!!! cry if you need to, it is your bodies way of expressing yourself. it's not a crime and you're not a robot, and you will be okay. good luck ♡

i'm struggling a lot with myself and sometimes i wish i had an unbiased person to talk to.

i am very very unbiased if you ever need a rant x