by Shoe. » Fri Feb 09, 2018 6:19 am
i’m so tired and annoyed my head feels like it’s going to explode.
my friend comes over, wants to sit so close to me he might as well be on top of me, rummage through my stuff, snores LOUDLY as i’m trying to sleep at 3 am and he KNOWS i have to be up early to babysit on weekdays (i wake up and he’s sleeping quiet as a lamb, he did that on purpose i know he did), and gets mad at me when i call him a jerk for disrespecting my stuff?!
my personal space is feeling extremely invaded, he can’t be alone for 2 seconds. i tried to distract him with drawing- which he doesn’t even take my advice on (i said it would be better to use the real pencil than the mechanical pencil and he’s like “i can only draw in mechanical pencil”- are you stupid???)
like i get it, i don’t want to be alone ALL the time but PLEASE give me 3 hours to just draw something and relax a little!! and don’t ask me what i want to do if you’re not going to let me do it!!!
like yeah we can talk about your art but i don’t want to see it every 20 minutes because you added a tentacle to your jellyfish and you don’t know what color and oh blah blah blah! i like to see progress pics but i don’t want to have a 10 minute conversation about it every single time you decide to show me your progress. personally, i dont like to show my progress to anybody, but that didn’t stop him from being a huge distraction.
and OMG he’s just like a fly!!! he started to walk over to me so he could see what i was drawing so i quickly changed it to a blank canvas and scribbled something on it, he makes it over to me and HOVERS OVER MY SHOULDER, shoo fly don’t bother me!!, and i start adding detail to my scribble like a zentangle, and he’s like “turn it into a bear” i’m like NO IT IS A CLOWN. i will NOT change my ideas for anybody.
i appreciate you love me, i’m a good friend, but PLEASE acknowledge i am another human being and i you push me i WILL snap at/on you.
not to mention i went to the city last night to see my friend Ari and he makes her buy him 3 drinks out of all her money. he tries to offer me a drink after he takes a sip out of all of them, I DON’T WANT TO DRINK AFTER ANYBODY YOU DENSE POLYGON
OH, and he convinced me to leave via guilt trip, which i absolutely HATE, and i don’t have a key to the house so we ended up leaving at 10:30 pm leaving the door UNLOCKED and me KNOWING a homeless person has been sleeping behind the garages- the only thing that calmed me down was thinking “nobody is keeping the house safe” WHICH DOESN’T EVEN MAKE SENSE, but i had to believe in it.
AND ANOTHER THING WHILE I’M AT IT, we went out to get cigarettes and he gets disgusting Marlboro blacks and i get Camel No. 9 Menthols. he asks me for a HECKING MENTHOL after making fun of me for MONTHS for smoking menthols because “it tastes like a damn candy cane” so of course i’m like “no smoke your own cigarettes that you JUST got!” he’s like “but i want a menthol” i’m like “NO i am not sharing with you” and he gets mad!!!! like i don’t share everything else with him!!!!!!
he NEVER says thank you, and when someone gives him something he treats them like a tool.
maybe real life friends just aren’t for me, i like the online ones cause you can turn them off and on at any time, and they don’t constantly need your attention.
and i just remembered, i had an ash can in the shed and i told my friend Not to pour it into the bucket because that can has liquid in it, and he starts pouring it in and i said STOP and he continues to pour it out. why doesn’t anybody know what no means??????
oh, and he starts playing with my stuffed animals without even asking for permission, he asked me what one of their names are and i told him and he’s like “no that’s a dumb name” i just, UGH
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