For the longest time, I had no idea what I was doing.
I've always been good at dreaming. Sometimes too good.
BucketORandomness wrote:Do you have a notebook where you write down thoughts and ideas?
No, not really. It sounds like it would be a good idea, though. Maybe. Not sure if any of my ideas really get past the inciting event, though. I have a hard time with everything past the introduction >.< Is that just a me thing? I get the feeling it's a me thing...
"This time it will not be Goodbye."
I didn't like this life. I knew I needed a new life.
But my veins were filled with poison.
Went through my body like it was a race.
I needed to get it out.
Watched the blade come closer to the veins filled with poison.
It was close - so close.
But the memory of the girl that loves me popped into my mind.
I knew that I could never leave her alone in the world.
I knew that killing myself didn't just involve me.
Killing myself also involved killing everyone that loves me.
Body shakes under the steaming water raining down on me.
Sliding down against my skin, dropping onto the floor rushing down to get away - get away, get away, get away - get away from everything.
It's been 106 days now.
But I remember it like it was just yesterday.
The numbing pain, the blood swelling.
The way my skin split in half.
It wasn't the first time.
My hand shook with fear but I had had this feeling that I had to do it. That my depression didn't give me a choice. My depression never gives me a choice.
Holds me a hostage inside of my head. Inside of my body.
I've been screaming for years wanting ... no needing to get out.
No one understands - they will never understand.
BucketORandomness wrote:Do you have a notebook where you write down thoughts and ideas?
No, not really. It sounds like it would be a good idea, though. Maybe. Not sure if any of my ideas really get past the inciting event, though. I have a hard time with everything past the introduction >.< Is that just a me thing? I get the feeling it's a me thing...
Ranger of the North wrote:BucketORandomness wrote:Do you have a notebook where you write down thoughts and ideas?
No, not really. It sounds like it would be a good idea, though. Maybe. Not sure if any of my ideas really get past the inciting event, though. I have a hard time with everything past the introduction >.< Is that just a me thing? I get the feeling it's a me thing...Ha. No. That's where most of my stories die :p
Ooh, those starters look really cool btw. The second one reminds me of Anne of Green Gables
Anyone else have trouble switching from one kind of PoV to another after an extended period of time? I was working on a first-person book for a g e s , and now I'm having a lot of trouble writing in third-person :'c': I don't like describing my characters' actions dramatically/properly in first-person, because it reflects on the character speaking; and I don't like describing them at all, because how often do people go off on spiels of what they look like to themselves? lol. And now my story's all messed-up :'c': I'll get the hang again eventually... but please... tell me I'm not alone in this XD':
Shivers, Mexi. Far out. That is deep, and really beautiful. I love how it's so painfully, beautifully, wonderfully honest, and obvious that it came from your heart <3
Does life seem a whole lot brighter when you've been writing regularly? I didn't notice anything different while I wasn't, but now I'm full o' beans, and really looking forward to writing later in the day, even if I'm mildly dissatisfied while doing it ;p It's really refreshing
~Teya~ wrote:I don't even know what to call what I do when writing. ;p Most of the time, it's only through the character I'm writing about's eyes. But I also do narrative weirdness at the same time. I just donut knowww D;
-- and to other thing you said, I totally get the feeling of writing everyday :0 I've been working on the same story for 3 days now and I feel so accomplished for some reason XD Even though it's not that long or anything.
not to mention PSG, I was writing for what? 2 months straight? *cowers*
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