PeacefulAngels wrote:I really hate my class. I really hate my teacher. I really hate my school
Most of all, I hate myself for being a selfish jerk, yet somehow manages to be used as a stepping stool. I'm easy to control and really freakin' selfish.
If I didn't exist, things would be a lot more different. There would be no drama. There would be no fighting. Most of all, I wouldn't be needed or used as a messenger.
Dangit, I have no willpower. I'm just going to wither away until I'm just the stem of a flower. that's a pretty sad existence, but when I see what other people have done with their lives, I conclude that my life is rather meaningless and somebody else would give an arm and a leg for it. I'd rather they have it since I'm doing absolutely nothing with it.
Just a pointless rant, I've got a lot of feelings bottled up inside. Oh well, I just hope I didn't break any rules because then the one place I can vent to will be gone.
don't say that!
you shouldn't hate yourself for anything. if you consider yourself a 'selfish jerk', yet you manage to be used, it isn't your fault, really. some people just don't have the nerve to stand up for whats right, and maybe that's why you think you're a selfish jerk, perhaps for trying to stand up for yourself, unless you've done something to earn that title for yourself. once again, if you think you're easy to control, it's because you aren't standing up for yourself, which is understandable as it may be hard.
and no, if you didn't exist, most people wouldn't know what to do. what about your friends and family? they wouldn't have such an amazing person like you in their life. and maybe you think you're causing the drama, but the people who are stirring it up and making you upset, are the only ones to blame.
please, never try to put yourself down. i bet you have a lot of power inside of you that you just can't find, or are too afraid to use. ♥