TheComfortCorner | v.6

[IQuit;;]

pretty sure my grandma on my dad's side hates me. my brothers got nice shirts for christmas, and i, who has never been girly and also has VERY sensitive skin, gets "sugar cookie" scented lotion/body mist/body wash. when i take the cap off one to smell it it smelled like old garbage. and the seal was already broken so i KNOW she smelled it before she bought it/mailed it to me!! i always get generic "girl" gifts from that side of the family. like, i get the EXACT same "friendship bracelet making kit" every year. (i forgot to get rid of one one year, so i checked and they WERE the same).
oh, and i almost forgot the lip gloss that burns my lips and just smells like straight alcohol.

[strawbrymoon]

gah i feel so mean

i reported someone for art theft
and i feel horrible
pms pleasee.... ;^;

(this did not happen on chicken smoothie)

[Klain]

My boyfriend and I have depressions. He listens to Emo-Punk-Rap, so I think you know what the songs are about.
Monthes ago he listened to a rapper NMZS, since this day it was on my youtube homepage. I was curioused and clicked at one of his videos. And I cried. I cried so much. I can't remember that I stopped crying.
Finally. Finally there was some one who unsderstands me. Days later I googled him and was stocked. He is dead. And again I started crying. It feels that he was a part of me wich I lost.
I don't know. I just want to tell you about that, because this isn't normal, is it?

[cloud cover]

hahaha i love it when my parents ridicule me in front of guests
thank you for constantly reminding me that im terrible at speaking my mother tongue and im not good enough for anything!!

[saturnalia]

open to pms anytime

[.Spaceman.]

dammit
ever since his brother died I've been distancing myself more and more
I gave up childish thoughts a few years ago and started to disassociate
with him. I don't know if the change was visible to anyone, but some
of the questions I've been asked hurt. No, I don't hate him. Please don't
ever think I do. Since his brother's passing, just seeing him online makes
me freeze up. When I get back to school I'm not sure how I'll talk to him.
Nothing I say will make anything better. Everything I do will make it worse.
I don't want to hurt him.
I don't want to hurt anyone.
I know he's moving on with his life, playing video games like he does and
probably hanging out with friends more worthy than I am. It makes me
realize how weak and fragile I am. They all say I am so great
they have no idea
every night in the past two weeks I just lay there
and I despise myself
I despise myself for not doing anything
all I do is run away.
Run from the problems and put up a smile like I'm all fine.

I'm not all fine
and I can't tell you
I can't bring myself to say a word
I'm sorry
I'm so sorry.

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Deep breaths. Glad to get that off my chest.

^Kinda related to the above rant, I'm just not sure where to go or what to do from here. This is just me trying to sort my feelings.

A, you were always a friend to me. Even when I was closed off to you (and still am). You're the forward friend, and I hope you know love you for that.

B, you and I have gotten close this year. You're the one that puts a smile on my face. You talk to me when I have no one else around, and I love you for that.

I, I wish I'd paid more attention to you in the years that we've known each other. You were the quiet friend, but you were always there for us in your own way. And I love you for that.

S, I don't know how to feel anymore but I know that you would be the one that I could hug when I needed it. I looked forward to seeing and talking with you. You gave me what I never had, and I love you for that.

I love all four of you, so so much. It hurts to think through the details, but all I need to know is that I love you boys more than you know.

[Demonic Rooster]

I'm just feeling a little down today and could use a hug
Thank you

[snubbulls]

Everything is going wrong and it's so so much. I can't handle this anymore.
1. I'm stuck in a toxic relationship and I can't get out.
2. My computer has like 70 viruses and now I can't do my commissions so I'm super stressed.
3. I eat when I'm stressed, and now I feel like I shouldn't eat because I'm fat.
4. My parents love my little sister so much, but will just ignore me unless I've done something wrong.
5. I'm a a burden to my family financially and I feel like I should just leave so they can be happy.
That's pretty much what I'm feeling right now and I just want to be numb.

[hainu]

[removed sorry byt i could still use a pm]

[IQuit;;]

pretty sure my grandma on my dad's side hates me. my brothers got nice shirts for christmas, and i, who has never been girly and also has VERY sensitive skin, gets "sugar cookie" scented lotion/body mist/body wash. when i take the cap off one to smell it it smelled like old garbage. and the seal was already broken so i KNOW she smelled it before she bought it/mailed it to me!! i always get generic "girl" gifts from that side of the family. like, i get the EXACT same "friendship bracelet making kit" every year. (i forgot to get rid of one one year, so i checked and they WERE the same).
oh, and i almost forgot the lip gloss that burns my lips and just smells like straight alcohol.