by ♔Voltaire♔ » Tue Mar 17, 2020 7:58 am
username: ♔Voltaire♔
name: Mei
gender: Heifer
why is she so upset?: (max. 300 words)
It usually starts at nightfall, when I start hearing them.
My chest constricts and my body temperature drops until the trembles take over. Every psychic I go to tells me that I am super sensitive to those beyond our plane of existence, and that I should learn to embrace my gifts and endeavor to make use of them. Regrettably, no matter how much I meditate and try to force my mind to let them in, it always ends up the same each time; me huddled in the corner of my room and waiting for the voices to stop. I pick up on small words, greetings or interjections, but each time I hear them I close myself off, fearful of letting them in. I thought that if i meditated i would become more welcoming, more accepting of my talents, however all of my ideas have been fruitless.
It's become overwhelming as of late, the shaking has become almost violent and they seem to be more and more persistent as the days pass. Why is it that I cannot let them in? Am I that much of a failure that I cannot do something as simple as allow them to speak through me, to tell them that I hear them and that I will listen? The tears streaming down my face sting, but it's nothing compared to how the pain pierces my heart. One day I will get there, I truly hope so. But for now, I will wallow in grief over my disability to communicate with the forgotten. (257/300)
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