
evergreen. wrote:well, you probably want to know a little about me.
i have tried out for several jbds over the last year, and won zero.
i don't know what it is about him, but this bean just made me stop and look.
very very quick sketch by meart above also by me.
i a m n o t t h e m o n s t e r h e r e . . .
______________________“I have never seen a greater monster or miracle in the world than myself.”
-Michel de Montaigne. . . b u t i k n o w t h e y ' r e o u t t h e r e w a i t i n g .
______________________Thaddeus (Greek Θαδδαῖος, Thaddaios, from Aramaic תדי, Taddai / Aday) is a male given name. It means a heart, or courageous heart.
- Wikipedia
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Today I live in a quiet cave with my family, looking after and loving them my only duty. This is my calling, I'm sure of it. I was meant to be a father.
But before, I was headed for an entirely different path.
Years ago, in my prime, young and fit and reckless and bloodthirsty, I fought. Every night I would go down and take on any bean who wanted to fight me, launching myself at my opponents with wild fury, not stopping biting and clawing until I was dragged off of them.
My parents had died when I was a young teen, and that made me bitter. I felt abandoned. I walled my heart off and built a facade around myself as a tough, angry, violent rogue to hide my loneliness and sadness.
The fighting, which made me forget everything I longed to for a short while, was slowly destroying me too. I was constantly cut and bruised, aching all over, limping from place to place. And I was becoming the person I showed to the world. I was becoming a monster, cruel and violent, seeking blood wherever I went.
And I sank into darkness.
Until something came that lit up my entire life.
It was one night after a fight and I was hobbling back to my home when I saw her. A beautiful, beautiful lady. I stopped in my tracks as she walked by. And she stopped to. I know it sounds silly, but I swear it was love at first sight.
And all my walls just melted away.
I started seeing her every day. I loosened up. Relaxed. Smiled for the first time in a very long time. Slowly stopped fighting.
She's my mate now. And yes, I'm still gruff and scarred and I have so many flaws, but she heals me.
A year after I met her, we had our first child. And then a second. I had never seen anything so perfect and precious in my entire life.
I decided that I would never leave them like my parents had left me. Neither would I let anything hurt them. Ever. I would do anything to keep them safe.
One night after we had three children, in the middle of the night I woke in our den to hear muffled noises coming from nearby.
I crept over and saw two huge muscular strangers with our valuables in hand trying to walk quietly put of our cave. Suddenly one tripped over the slumbering form of one of my children. He snarled and opened his jaws to silence her, moonlight glittering on his deadly teeth.
My vision went red. I roared and charged, flinging myself into the fray with that wild fury I hadn't let out since my fighting days, driving the thieves off.
The next night I was sleepless, tossing and turning. Slowly I realized that wherever there were other dragons, there wluld be monsters among them, like what I had almost become. My children could never be completely safe. And I couldn't bear that.
So I took the children and my mate on a journey to find a place that was safe. We wandered for weeks until one day I stumbled upon a small cave opening.
I walked in, and immediately felt a sense of calm and peace evelop me.
It was safe here, I was sure of it
We would hide from the monsters in the dark.
(573 words, i combined the story and one extra in this)