ahhahah been stalkin
username:
Pine.
name:
Ao
Māori
deity that is the personification of light.
Ao is also the word used to describe blue and green in Japanese.
gender:
Male
song:
A cold façade, only trying to hide the pain
Of this unseen life I may never get to claim
They abandoned me, left me behind
But I get up, yes I stand up every time
There is no one left for me to trust
The only one I had has returned to dust
But I’m not alone
There is no one that I need, no one that I want for
For what more do I wish for than my own solidarity?
I have the forest that surrounds me
And the windy tempest that carries me
Even my heartbeat keeps me company
So what more do I need, what more do I need?
Maybe love, maybe living interaction
Something besides my own stupid distractions
There is never a day that I don’t wonder
What my life would be
If I weren’t torn from my mother
Left alone at the edges of settlement
Left alone amongst trash like detriment
There is never a day I don’t ponder
How my life would be if I still had my mother
Could I wake up from this daze?
Clear my mind of all this haze
Would I do things I never could?
Or remain hesitant even as I stood
Questioning and backtracking all my thoughts
Straining my mind, forcing senseless distraught
Could I care for myself and for the wellbeing of others?
Would I shed this frozen core and make friends of all my brothers?
Maybe I could be confident
Never second guessing it
Opening up my mind to all great things from which I hide
But I’m not alone
There is no one that I need, no one that I want for
For what more do I wish for than my own solidarity?
I have the forest that surrounds me
And the windy tempest that carries me
Even my heartbeat keeps me company
So what more do I need, what more do I need?
I need love (love)
I need life (life)
I need something x2
To save me
Oh, save me
From this life
From my life.
illustration:
i didn't get to pretty up my form, sadly ;o; didn't have enough time______________________________________Added after I won him ;u;_____________________________________________
personality wrote:-Proper, though the longer the time he has been without his caretaker, the looser he seems
-Tentative: he enjoys adventure, but must think everything through multiple times and often over prepares himself. Although a technical thinker, he’s not a great decision maker. Ambivalent
-Antisocial/shy: prefers the company of the forest, having lived so long without a companion. He does not often feel loneliness as he hasn’t felt kinship before.
-He has not yet met something he was terribly passionate about, but he will fight to the death for something he loves. It’s just finding something that he loves that’s the problem
-Unattached: he doesn’t like to form bonds so it doesn’t hurt him if he loses something. Often comes off as cold for this reason. It is terribly hard for him to warm up to someone.
History wrote:He was abandoned as a child, left by his Māori parents at the edge of a settlement. His mother and father could not let anyone know of the child as their relationship was forbidden. They were both arranged to marry someone different, and the mother was a puhi, a woman of rank who had to remain a virgin before marriage. Having a child before her marriage to the chosen partner was illicit, something that would bring death or exile to her and the child. So they were forced, for the safety of all, to leave their poor son in the arms of strangers, only hoping that they would take care of him and love him as their own. All they left to him to remind him of where he came from was a pounamu pendant carved into a simple yet somehow intricate spiral that had been made by his father. On the back of it, in the curve of the spiral, beveled letters spelt out ‘Ao’ so he should not forget his name even if he forgot the Māori way.
Raised by a now deceased widower, Ao knew nothing of his past except that he had been abandoned. His caretaker was rather proper and stern and had taught him nothing of the Maori, as she felt as though they were barbaric. He hadn’t even know until recently that his pendant and name were Māori, things that he had learned only after leaving what he had considered his home for so long. He now spends his time searching for his actual parents; not to ask why they abandoned him, but just to see how well they fared. He was too afraid to meet them face to face even if he had found them, though from the information he gathered in the past few years indicated that his mother and father were no longer alive.
