I never know what I'm doing or how to say what I feel and I have no idea how to ask for what I want. I'm sick of it and everyone I love is sick of it and I know if I don't force myself to change soon they'll get so sick of it that they'll leave me
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consider for a moment why I don't think highly of you. you act like that and expect people to forgive you?
and my personal stuff isn't your business. I worked things out with them and we have an understanding that we are just friends. I'm happy and they are happy with it.
and so what if I say a few hypocritical things. I don't understand other people but I also don't understand myself. if you knew me you'd know I don't know how to form sentence without difficulty. and despite what you've seemingly grown to think I'm not a mean person. I don't go out of my way to hurt people and I will fight to the death for people who I trust and who are good to me.
and you are neither of those things. you are hard to trust when you do the things you do.
you don't understand anything about me or the way I think at all.
I know they were not being serious when they once said you wanted to be close to me as well.
you never did anything at all to show that you even appreciated me as a friend
I gave up on you and I'm just done. I'm letting go of you even if I can't forget your words and you should do the same
it isn't worth the little energy I have these days
I need that energy to the people who have proven themselves to me
Maybe I regret not being closer to you but you were never open and you were basically unapproachable and I was terrified to speak to you.
these are my feelings.
thanks.
and by the way I tried to help you when you needed it
I always listened and tried to treat you well because I wanted to respect the person my best friend is dating.