- i keep finding myself sliding back into my old habits and ways and i dont know what to do
i thought i was over attention seeking behavior
i thought i was over all these thoughts
i guess im not fit for this
everythings been going so good
my brains telling me to ruin everything
destroy myself again
get sent back to the ward
because at least someone there listened and took my struggle seriously. even if it was only on the clock
i fear i will never be happy
and if i am, ill attempt to destroy it all over again
even after all this time, im still such a selfish person. i really thought i had grown out of it.
i dont know whats wrong with me.