Username: Marz-Barz
Name: G&S Believe in the Ghost “Ambrose”
Gender: Male
Name Meaning: a lyric from the song, and Ambrose is a latin name that means “immortal”
Prompt:[code=https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=GMemCeMjD68]Bed Head (Acoustic) - Manchester Orchestra[/code]
This one might feel like a stretch to some people haha. The song itself is described as being about “…two old friends existing in two separate realities. It’s a conversation about the lives they lived, the consequences of life’s decisions, and finding purpose in trying to be better” by Andy Hull. Due to a lot of mental health problems and stuff I’ve been reflecting on how my mental health has effected others, and how much of it was caused by gender dysphoria i didn’t have a name for. I’ve lost friends, good people, because i didn’t have the words for my problems and lashed out. The bridge says,
“Right by the entrance, you broke
Finally, reality's taking its hold
You're not who you were, but you can't let it go
You're not where you're from, but you're always alone
So I stick a flag in the ground
I think I know who I'm living for now
I am what I am, same above as the ground
It's not what I want, but I'm figuring it out.”
I feel like this kind of sums up my feelings for the past few months since i’ve been released from the hospital. Kind of like, acknowledging that the person i was and the people who were around me at the time were trying the best with what resources they had, and that I need to forgive the kid I was and be who he needs to be. Someone i could have been proud of and looked up to. I am who I am, and that isn’t not bad.
I’d like for the flag to be the
Demiboy flag if possible!