by Cactologist » Thu Jul 02, 2020 10:46 am
username: Cactologist
name: Fresca
gender: Heifer
collar/bell color: Collar to match eyes, bell can just be silver!
prompt:
"Are you Fresca? I'm sorry, but there was a collision with a car and your parents and sister didn't make it..."
The same line, repeating endlessly in Fresca's mind every moment of every day. She could still see the officer's emotionless face in her mind, hear his monotone voice, and feel her world caving in. The moments that followed, though, were gone. She didn't remember packing to leave the only home she had ever known or how she arrived at the dreary orphanage. She definitely didn't remember telling the officer that they were the only family that had still been around, or if she had been told how he had even found her home. Numbness was all she knew for days on end. She had no plans for the future, in which she only saw more pain.
Why do I even try? No one cares about me...
Fresca's days were an endless cycle of painful memories and equally torturous dreams. She closed herself off from the world. She was dangerously depressed and delirious, and no one in the orphanage could console her. She didn't sleep, didn't eat, didn't bath, didn't speak, and didn't even cry. For weeks at a time she wouldn't open her shades or even leave her bed. She was past the brink of madness.
There is nothing here for me... If I died at least I could see my family in the afterlife...
It all changed, though, when a roommate took up occupation in the other bed in her room. Despite also being recently orphaned, Peter was a lively, animated fellow. Fresca couldn't understand his motives, and she avoided him the best she could. When they were forced to interact, she treated him like an animal of another species. He was strange and alien, an unwelcome light in her gloom. But, despite her efforts, she just couldn't be upset around him. Somehow his enthusiasm was contagious, and it was addicting. The more Peter was around her the more she wanted to be around him. For the first time in a long time she was feeling something other than pain. She felt like she could lay any of her agony on him, and he would cast it away and replace it with something bright and cheerful. As time passed, they became closer and soon Fresca even considered him a friend.
"What if we ran away?"
It was only a late night pondering, and Fresca wasn't even sure if Peter was awake to hear it. The thought had been manifesting in the back of her mind for much longer than she had even known, but when it slipped out of her mouth she was instantly sold on the idea. As soon as she was about to give up on a response from him, though, he whispered a reply.
"Let's do it,"
The next night they sneaked out and never looked back, even before they had a plan in their minds or supplies in their packs. Fresca knew, though, that together they could get through anything. They followed a set of train tracks into the forest, and continued roughly east towards the ocean. They walked all day and into the next night until they decided they were far enough away so no authorities could find them. The adventurous and rebellious nature of it all fueled her. The wind was frigid and the ground was hard, but Fresca slept better than she had since the accident. The next morning, though, was a completely different scene. Snow covered the ground, and there wasn't a sound to be heard other than her own breathing. But something was off, something was missing...
"Peter? Peter!"
But he was gone without a trace. No tracks in the snow, or arrow crafted from branches. It was like he had never even existed, like she had imagined his existence all along. Her heart was ripped from her chest once again, but this time instead of numbness, she was filled with fear, hurt, and confusion. It was winter, and she was lost somewhere in the middle of a forest with no supplies. She knew death would come for her, but this time she wasn't ready for it. She didn't want to die alone and unknown. She wanted to be heard, to be loved, to laugh and smile, to feel. She wasn't ready to go.
I want to live...
The moment the revelation came into her mind, it was like the floodgates that had been closed with a thousand locks had been opened, and she cried. The sobs brought her to her knees in the cold snow and shook her body. A cry rumbled out of her, and she screamed at the sky, the trees, the snow, anything, letting out all of her frustrations, fear, and pain. When she was finished, she fell to the ground in silence, both defeated and accomplished.
"Hello? Is someone out there?"
A voice, cutting through the forest. Sharp, clear, and coming towards her. In moments a figure appeared above her: a friendly face and a hoof outstretched to help her up. Even in this world of confusion, Fresca's mind was cleared, and she knew she could trust this cow. She finally knew what to do, where to go, and what her future had in store for her.
"Can I help you?"
"Yes,"