username: Kaizoku
galvani name: Mahieu
gender: Female
writing:
Date: 26th of ??
Time: 10:21pmThere’s a festival in town tomorrow. There is exactly 10 hours and 39 minutes until the town sheds back its lazy, laid-back façade and comes alive with colour and music.
I offered to help with the preparations today – but
why? I don’t know. When I told the villages’ Chief I was willing to get my hands dirty, I was met with a strange expression I could not place – and then, I guess, I got the idea – he spoke in surprise, a borderline scoff –
“Why?” I didn’t answer audibly, as I wrote earlier, I didn’t know why. I answered instead by gripping the broom I held tighter, and holding the Chief’s gaze, feeling two splinters slip under my skin. That was an answer enough, I suppose.
So I helped – and my services were greeted with thanks, but through gritted teeth, or questioned to irritating extents, or were simply greeted with confusion, similar to my own. I felt bad, for some reason, like dropping to my knees and begging for forgiveness – I’m not sure why. I wanted to stress that
I myself didn’t know
why I was here – but I bit my tongue and I worked in silence.
I helped 6 people with stalls, and the 8 groundkeepers at the temple with their prepart- Oh – I’m counting again. That’s one issue that I don’t know how to cease – I count everything. It irritates me to no end – it’s the worst of my behaviours – ugh. Maybe that’s why they didn’t want me there?
Okay. I’m getting off topic. I'd finish this entry, but my ink is running low. The reason I even went into town today was to purchase more ink – I passed the stationary shop around 7 times and – I’m counting again. Ugh.
End of entry.Date: 27th of ??
Time: 11:34pmI guess today I concluded the reason I helped was an attempt subconsciously to regain my life. And really, it was a start.
Today, at the festival, instead of my mind being crowded with numbers, and my hands being busy tapping wood, I made friends. The confusion on the Chief and villagers faces vanished into relief. After all, they’ve all known my issues with the outside world, they just kept it quiet.
Tomorrow, I’ve been invited to tea by my neighbour. There will be
5 teacups.
Sorry.
End of entry.