Username: Evils
Name: Rain
Gender: Female
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I feel as though I wander the fields alone for a reason. All the other cows stay away from me because they don't want the clouds to follow them. They don't want to feel the way I do.
When I was a small calf, my mother noticed from the start that there was something different about me. I never mooed or even muttered a word when I was young. I never seemed to smile and I didn't like to frolic with the other calves. Instead i'd rather stay alone in the wet grass when it rained. I never saw a difference between an average day and a rainy day, they were both just as grey.
I honestly wish I could feel the happiness others can when they play with their friends.
I never will be able to.
I don't have a friend.
All I have is myself and the rain.
Everyone stays away because I seem to dampen the mood whenever I am near. It is as though a large, dark cloud looms over my head wherever I go and it is contagious. I never asked for this to happen to me. I just people would understand that just because I can't feel the way others do, that I'm no more different than them.
I want friends, I want to laugh, I want to smile, to dream of sunny days and pretty flowers and crisp summer evenings...
But I can't when you just walk away and assume me a cow untouchable. I actually long for the touch of someone. I want to be pet and have my fur stroked with as much love as one has when they pet a dog. I want to be
loved.
