Uwahhh, this form was on page 6 last time I checked, hope it still counts anyway. You did say after page 7, but people starting wishing good-lucks already so asdfghjkl
Name: Shizuko
[shih-zoo-k-oh]
The mix of the Japanese word 'Shizuku' meaning droplet, and the Latin word 'Pavo' meaning peacock.
Gender: Male
Poem:
Wind swirls around me, weaving its invisible fingers through my fur.
My heart’s racing, threatening to abandon me and leap straight out my chest.
My frantic eyes don’t stay on one thing for more than a second,
Only the bright moonlight shining down from above lighting my path.
My paw pads ache as though I’m running over liquid fire,
pounding the ground faster and harder with every thrust of my hind legs.
The same feeling echoes throughout my head,
the beating wracking my mind violently as my hasty, thin breaths cause my lungs to burn.
But it’s not good enough.
I can still breathe.
I can still move.
And I can still push myself harder
as the long grass blades surrounding me nip at my face.
I can feel my eyes narrowing as my body somehow proceeds further,
my nails digging into the soft earth greedily and kicking up dust behind me.
Why isn’t this good enough?
Why am I never good enough?
I hear the sound of shame itself,.
A deep, throaty groan which rumbles through my entire being.
Everything around me begins to blur as I move even faster,
only then realizing the sound had crawled its way up my own throat.
He only won because he looks pretty.
I heard he got extra points because he’s such a teacher’s pet.
The only reason he’s in first place is because of his looks.
With such a wretched personality, it’s obvious how he got such a high score.
The sound which erupted this time wasn’t a yowl,
but the sound of thunder itself as it called for its partner, lightning.
I could do it.
If I was able to beat my last record, surely I could win.
Then, it would be obvious that I had been practicing this time, right?
Everyone would have to accept me!
It would be mandatory to accept that fact that I work for everything I achieve, right?
And suddenly everything stopped as I saw the finish line I had planted yesterday.
My heart skipped at least 3 beats as my breath caught in my throat,
the thumping organ undoubtedly tripping and falling
as it attempted to catch the pace of my whizzing thoughts.
The slight anticipation fluttering in my stomach
turned into raging pterodactyls of relief as my sore body screamed at me to stop-
But I was almost there.
Three more moves-
Step
Pause
Jump
And I knew I would beat my record.
So I did exactly that.
I prepared myself for the final pounce,
my muscles tightening as all the tension began bubbling up.
Just as I was about to release it all, ready to detonate with everything I had,
the world slipped from under me.
It was a strange experience, in the least.
Out of nowhere the trees began to grow and the ground began to fly.
My ankle joint exploded with pain, the feeling easily blossoming and spreading,
crawling its way all the way to my hip bone and causing my body to tremble.
Then I hit the ground.
Nothing was silent this time, as the rough winds whirled around me.
Then I noticed that long grass surrounding me wasn't even moving,
and it crossed my mind that perhaps,
the raging whirlwind surrounding me was my own thoughts.
And they were consuming me.
I laid there for what felt like an eternity,
my breath never even calming for a moment before I found myself standing again.
The stars were dimming,
and I could see the deep, dark, brilliant blue turning into a slightly lighter purple.
The fleeting though of ‘I can relate’ flashed through my mind before I began walking again.
It hurt.
My ankle hurt,
my body ached,
My muscles shuddered as my walking resembled more of an intoxicated sway.
But I didn’t stop.
I knew that the lack of acceptance hurt more.
I was tired of sulking around like someone
who didn’t have a way in the world to change anything about their problem.
I was tired of the failure, and tired of the loneliness.
I was ready to show them exactly what happened, when a peacock displayed it’s feathers.
Suddenly the purple sky surrounding me didn't seem so bad,
and I decided that the faint, golden stars
looked far more brilliant in contrast to the lavender surrounding them.
Protecting them from the world below.