by captain dude » Sat Dec 11, 2021 6:34 pm
username: captain dude 1003555
kalon name: Judas Styx
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It hurt. As the tears of gold dotted his lashes. As the mix, of the acrid smoke filling the cabin and of emotion and just of the deep, deep sadness of watching the Captain's pain, the First Mate's fear, the crew's stifled terror, and the passengers' frenzy, caused him to well up with a complex soup of emotions and tears, knowing there was no easy way out of this situation. Still, he knew what he had to do. Redemption always came at a price.
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It was dark in his soul. Dark as he shook the clawed hand that signified his pact, dark as he received his new name to go along with his "assignment". It was customary to get a new, secret codename that the Draltic Government would refer to you as, but this one left him even uneasier with his task than before. Judas. It was not enough for those depraved, demonic, predatory aliens to force him to betray other Kalons, to spy, to lure them in as a siren of charm and faux-virtue, but to give him a name that would taint his very being with the deed. Judas. It stung like blood in his mouth after a punch. Judas. He couldn't help but feel soiled by the fact that it was so fitting. Judas. Oh, how he hated that name. And yet, now it was his.
When he boarded the ship as a crewhand, eased into his espionage position by another inside man and some faux rapport, he tried his best to compartmentalize. This was a task that would happen, with or without him. These Kalons were going to face capture by the Dralts either way. It would just be him to do it. But, oh, how a small, nagging part of him wished it wasn't him!
He tried his best to plug away at work, to shut off that part of his mind that did nothing but hound him. He fueled the engines, hauled cargo, and raised solar sails alongside the crew. The vessel was a mixed usage ship, transferring both cargo and Kalons desperate to get off Scier as the tiny planet was commandeered by the Dralts, and was on its way to load up with both when Judas had boarded. These smugglers, acting under the guise of rum merchants, were one of the greatest threats facing the Draltic government's goals. Dralts needed Kalons. Judas knew that much. They needed other species for taxation revenue, their land, and to have their labor outsourced. Those who did align with them were handsomely rewarded and promised no harm would befall them, so long as they toed the line. And Judas had found himself caught in the middle.
Work became a way to clear his thoughts and pour everything only into exerting his body. Most of the time, he was with the new, temporary hands who stuck around only for a few runs. Though he was a fine worker and had a knack for solving problems creatively. He found himself catching a little attention and praise from the higher-ups for his talent and work, mostly from Keo the First Mate. But it was not until about a fortnight in that he found his heart being slowly, quietly, almost imperceptibly torn in two. Up until then, he had found himself largely ignored by the regular members of the spacefaring crew, as most of the new hires were, but today was different. He was entering the galley, tail drooping in exhaustion at the hard day's labor. Though Judas, who went solely by his family name Styx here, was quite handsome and looked like he was not suited to much physical exertion, he could pull his own weight around here. He was rather hungry at the end of the day, and trudged his way over to the kitchen, when he was approached by Keo, the First Mate. Taken slightly aback, as Keo rarely interacted much one-on-one with anyone but the captain outside of their duties, Judas stopped in his tracks.
"Quartermaster, what can I do for you?"
"Nothing, lad, nothing. But you seem like such a hard worker and a good soul, I was wondering if you'd want to dine with me and the rest of the crew, not with the temporary hands, today," Keo said quietly.
"It'd be a pleasure," responded Judas warmly.
Keo beamed tiredly and gestured for him to follow. Through the kitchen was another room, somewhat akin to a tavern. It bustled with the warmth that comes from a room full of good company and close camaraderie. Keo pulled up a stool for Judas at the table that he was sitting at and left, returning with large frothy mugs of ale for the entire table. There was soup, roast, and bread for all, which was a welcome reprieve from the rations the hands had been getting. He got to know the company quite quickly. Keo quickly introduced him to the crew, telling him the tales of their lives. Judas found out that Keo had been a fisherman before the Draltic invasion and had quickly switched professions once he knew that the captain who once shipped his catch to the spaceport markets had taken up the call to save those still remaining on the planet. He had a small son, who would be coming to one of the spaceports the refugees from Scier were dropped off at this voyage, whose picture he kept in a locket around his neck. The big, bright, boisterous yellow Kalon called Ringo introduced himself with all the charisma and friendliness that a Kalon could possibly possess. He was a pirate who had originally been stealing and raiding the Draltic Government before capture and trial, from which he miraculously beat the odds and escaped. He still couldn't resist the life of adventure and found himself traveling from spaceport to spaceport, indulging in fun, romance, and danger. His teenage son, Moses, had joined him on the trip and was now one of the younger crewhands. Both were talented musicians and now were striking up a beat on the fiddle, drum, and with their joyous voices. As the crew introduced themselves, Judas could not help but feel a sense of warmth welling up inside him. These people were so eager to invite him into their circle, to initiate him into their family of odds and ends. It was only now that he noticed he was the only new hire among them. A sense of privilege and gratitude welled up in him. He felt himself lowering his guard, loosening up, as the genuine, warm-hearted smile broadened across his face.
The merriment went down the line as each of the crew introduced themselves in turn, then finally the captain, Mary Ellen Carter, a loud, barrel-chested tiger of a woman. She had the same spirit of merriment as Ringo with a bravery and boldness that made her stand out. He had not seen much of the captain for the voyage, as he did not frequent the bridge of the ship much, but he instantly found himself bonding to her. She was quick of wit and humor, making a quick joke at Ringo's expense before proposing a toast. She raised her stein of ale in toast to the crew and cleared her voice to give a rousing speech. Judas raised his along with the others.
"To good friends, and loyal ones,
Who will see our voyage done
To the old friends that we treasure,
And the new ones who bring us joy and pleasure,
To the ship, may she see us successfully home,
May our bones never ache and groan
May the wind be in our sails,
And the engine never fail,
May our craft, wit, and guile be the equalizer
And our enemies be none the wiser,
May we get to grow rich and old,
Never adrift within space's cold,
And when life's final voyage taken
May our souls be naught forsaken."
To this, the room rang out in cheers and Ringo struck up the band again to a cheerful tune. Judas's soul felt light, lighter than ever. He had forgotten all about his woe of the Assignment and was living in the moment. That night, he returned to his bunk, his stomach full of good food and his heart full of joy. He would not remember his task until around three days before docking. In the meanwhile, he found a new acceptance with the crew. He was spoken to quite freely and invited to partake much more frequently. He laughed with Ringo, confided in Keo, and danced with Moses. It was quite clear why they referred to each other as "brother", "sister", and "sibling" so often. He now wore his long hair in elaborate braids and twists, a gift from Moses who adored his beautiful, flaxen locks. Nights were spent in the captain's dining room and days were spent hard at work, indulging in lilting melodies and shanties alongside his comrades.
When he got the message, three days before they were set to make land, the call from his holodeck shocked him. He was alone, resting in his bunk in the now-empty barracks. Everyone else was working, but today was his day for rest on the voyage. The Draltic commander's slow, smooth, calculated voice and gaunt features caused him to jolt back in shock for a moment, but he quickly recovered. "I wished to update you, underling, on our plans for your extraction and the interception of the craft. We are set to intercept the ship within five solar days of today, two days out of Scier."
He felt a pit drop in his stomach as the Dralt continued his transmission.
"We will be boarding via request before resorting to tractor beam or weaponry. We encourage you to instruct all personnel to remain peaceful. If we are fired upon, we will fire back so you are strongly recommended to advise the crew to surrender without a fight for your sake. Once on board, we will collect the hostages on to the transport ships and bring you to collect your payment and further assignment.”
Judas hesitated and the Dralt sensed his uncertainty, its holographic face raising an eyebrow. “What… do you plan to do with them once you have them in your…”
He swallowed hard, lingering on the word, hesitating in a moment of worry. “Capture?”
“Our legal system is quite efficient and merciful. They will see trial and, as they are in direct violation of the Anti-Smuggling Act and the Registration Ordinance, their sentence will be quick and painless,” the Dralt said, its pale grey eyes locked on his golden ones.
Judas couldn’t help staggering over his tail as he involuntarily took a step back. Death. Somehow, in his heart, he knew before he even accepted the Assignment, that is what this would mean. And he wished with every ounce of his being he could take it all back.
He cleared his throat. “Understood, sir.”
With that, Judas hung up.
It was a tense three days to the port. While there was much excitement from amongst his fellow crewmates, there was a pit in Judas’s stomach, an aching in his heart, he could not deny. He was a betrayer, a ghost. Even if they died, he would still live. And that was the injustice of it all. He tried to think of a way around it. Would the captain think he was insane if he mentioned a risk for Draltic capture? Just paranoid? Would he be shot or abandoned in the cold vacuum of space to die? Would they possibly heed his advice? Or think he was setting them up for a greater trap? He tried to think of the best way to save the most lives possible. He could not tell them while in the port. The Dralts would just get wise, hone in on the port, and capture them by land. If he told them before, the captain might be forced to reroute and abandon their refugees to save the crew. After painstaking deliberation, he made up his mind. He would tell them once they were a day underway. Maybe they could reroute and find a path that the Dralts couldn’t think of. Maybe, just maybe, they could all make it out of this one. Well, maybe not him. He fully expected to spend the rest of the voyage locked in whatever their version of the brig was, but he knew he had to do it. For Keo. For his son. For the Captain. For every innocent person aboard the ship.
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The moment was now. Judas found himself shaking. He had never had very good friendships throughout any of his life, as growing up under Draltic rule had been rather chaotic. This was the first time he actually felt liked and part of him was terrified to throw it all away. But he knew it was the only way to redeem himself. Or at least have a shot at redemption. It wouldn’t undo his action completely but it most certainly made things right.
Would he tell the captain? Or Keo? He figured he’d try to corner them both. And it would cut the ties fast. Get the grief over fast.
He walked into the captain’s quarters, where Keo and Captain Mary were looking over the flight map. Both looked up and smiled at him. Closing the door behind him, he padded over to the Captain’s desk.
“Do you have a moment?” He asked, his tail twitching nervously.
Keo nodded. “What do you wish to share?”
“Look… I don’t know how to say this,” he said, nearing tears. “But I am, or was, a spy. For the Dralts. I was intended to betray you and your passengers’ location tomorrow to the Empire in exchange for my survival and freedom. They’re planning an attack to intercept you. I think if you reroute you can save the crew and passengers from the invasion. You might be able to get away. Do with me what you wish, but know this, I would not tell you this if I didn’t care deeply about your safety. They intended to kill you and I could not rest at ease knowing this would happen.”
Captain Carter’s face turned grave while Keo’s looked distraught. “Give us a moment, please,” she said gruffly.
She led him to an adjacent room and Judas heard a key turn in the door’s latch on the other side. The faint sounds of the two having an argument and the soft sounds of crying could be heard through the thick wood door. About five minutes later, he could hear the door unlatch and Captain Carter’s large form blocked his way. “Follow me,” she instructed.
He followed with his head held low in shame, Keo flanking him pensively. He couldn’t help but noticed tears dotting his friend’s lashes. It felt like a sucker punch to his gut to see it. They entered a room filled with instruments, panels, and large windows. Captain Carter stopped, looking him dead in the eyes. His heart skipped a few beats.
“And what reason do we have to believe that what you tell us is true? Who says this isn’t a lie to trap us further?” She said icily.
“If it was a lie, wouldn’t it be more convenient to have you stay here? Or call them in while you were loading up with passengers and trap you in the spaceport?”
She held his gaze for a moment, then nodded decisively, hurriedly walking over to her panel of instruments and flipping some dials, touching some screens, and then proceeding to the captain’s chair.
“Keo, all hands on-“
A resounding crash hit the ship with full force and Judas felt himself knocked off his feet.
“Oh no,” he said in horror, realizing what had happened. Smoke poured into the cabin as the “warning shot had pierced some mechanism of their hull, some engine or thruster. “They’ve found me. They found us. They’ve come early.”
He watched Keo’s eyes grow wide in fear. “Should we abandon ship, Captain? We are already in their beam.”
The captain looked pained. “Yes,” she said with a shakiness that was foreign to her. “Gather the crew and passengers to the evacuation pod. I will stay, press the button to detach the pod, and stave them off. And while you’re at it, bring him with you. Only one has to die today. And his efforts are noble, if once he was not so, redemptive, even.”
Keo hesitated, looking horrified at what his captain proposed. “But… you?”
“And you have a son. If anyone should put up a ruse and stay with the ship, it is me. And besides, if there’s someone on the ship, they’ll think you are all in hiding somewhere in the ship. You’ll be able to get away.”
Judas realized what was happening. And, dear reader, I am sure by now, you do too. The captain intended to sacrifice herself in order to launch the escape pod and lead the invaders off their scent. Even if it meant her own death. And, as you can imagine, it did not sit right with him. Not at all.
“Captain?” He asked, voice shaking. “Can I have a word?”
The captain dismissed Keo with a hug and a few whispered words, leaving the two alone. Tears were brimming in her eyes.
“Yes?”
“I… cannot, in good conscience, let you do this. Please, let me redeem myself. I will not be able to live if you do not. Please, if only for a little while, let me be at peace with my own conscience. I’d rather die at peace than live at war with myself.”
She opened her mouth to argue.
“Please…” he begged.
“Alright,” she said wearily.
The captain raced down to the escape pod where at least a hundred Kalons huddled in the tight quarters. He looked in their eyes. A hundred terrified, desperate, pleading eyes. With a hug from the captain and a tearful goodbye, he pressed the button to launch the escape pod before she could even finish the words, “thank you”.
And with that, he knew those would be the last words he heard from a Kalon in his life. The smoke was stifling now but he felt his way back to the bridge in time to see the headlights of the Draltic ship staring straight into the windows. Good. Having them approach from the front means that they could not see the crew escaping out the back. Over an intercom, he heard the voice of a Draltic commander.
“Well done, Judas. Have the passengers and crew surrendered peacefully?” It asked.
“Yes, and it’s Styx.” Judas said. He was no longer Judas anymore. He had reclaimed the name Styx, redeemed himself. The price was high, yes, but redemption always comes at a price. And this time, it would be his very life.
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He smiled. As the ship lay shot to ruins after his furious commanders realized they had been deceived, he felt the cold expanse of space take over him. He realized this would be the end. And yet it was freeing. To face whatever lay after this life was next. And he knew he could do it with a clear heart and a mind at ease.
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When he came to, his first thought was of confusion. I’m not supposed to have come to. Aren’t I supposed to be dead? Wasn’t I just shot into the expanse of space? Left to die a death of cold? Perhaps Styx was in the afterlife but, then again, he wouldn’t be lying on a table in a hospital room, fluids and oxygen and some sort of serum he couldn’t identify pouring into his body, if he were in the afterlife.
Above him floated worried faces. The captain. Keo. Keo’s little son Elijah. Ringo. And the others. What were they doing here?
“What?” He asked groggily.
“Someone found something floating in space. Looked to be fresh. They turned the life form they found over to the hospital here in Etui. You were cryogenically preserved well enough they could get you back,” the captain said. “And good thing too. The world needs more people like you, Styx.”
It came at a cost. And, yes, it was high. But the death of his body was less painful than the death of his soul.
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I am so sorry if this was way too long :0 It was just too much fun of a prompt and I just couldn’t help myself with running wild with developing
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captain dude on Wed Dec 22, 2021 11:44 am, edited 6 times in total.