Username: cinnamon~toastie
Name: Hysteria
Gender: female
Why does he/she have a feather around his/her mouth?: because she is afraid to talk. She was bullied because of her vioce and how she rambled all the time.
History: WIP
Charles Bukowski wrote:.“Understand me.
I'm not like an ordinary world.
I have my madness,
I live in another dimension
And I do not have time for things
That have no soul."
Some words before we start for real...
I don’t know if you remember me or not, but then again, that might not really matter all too much. I tried out for the other Kiamara you designed too and I seem to have fallen once again for what you create. I’m not entirely sure why or how, but there seem to be something about the Kiamaras you design that just “click” with me and makes me like them so much more than all the other Kiamaras together. The way you design them makes (at least me) get a rather clear picture in my head as to how I’d imagine them when it comes to their personality and behaviours. That’s why I once again decided to give it a try to get a Kiamara to call “my own”, because I believe that I would be able to pull it off to create something to go with your design.
I’m probably sill out of my league when it comes to working with the forms for Kiamaras ~ not to mention that I still need a lot of practice when it comes to drawing them. But I’ve come to reason that I’ll give this one my all, because he’s worth nothing less and I doubt that I ever will like any other Kiamara as much as I like this lad. He will most likely be the last and final Kiamara I try out for, because I doubt anyone else can create something that can compare to this lad. Now it’s just for me to see the end of this story if my best is good enough – may it hold or grow old and break. Only the future shall know how this story ends.
When I first saw all those colours of his and how the light neon green colour had been “sewed together” I couldn’t help but to think about none other than Tim Burton, who is without a doubt my favourite movie director and the creator of some of my favourite movies. Calling this fellow Tim just stuck with me and I couldn’t see him being called any other name – because he looks so much like a Tim to me… Unfortunately I’m not all too fond of ordinary names though, so that’s why I decided to name him Timberly but still allowing him to keep Tim as his nickname.
§ Favourite colour; Tim doesn't have any favourite colour, because he likes them all just as much (he is a colour-freak and he can't get enough of them). § Favourite place; He hasn't decided upon one yet, but he really likes jungles and mountains. § Favourite food; None, because he will eat just about everything that is served - it's food after all. § Favourite season; The late summer, because at that time of the year it's neither too hot nor too cold. § Favourite objects; Feathers and paints, there's no question about it. § Favourite thing to do; Express himself without the use of words.
§ Family; Gone, he doesn't know if they died or simply left him. § Relationship / Mate; As of now, none. § Friends; A crow that he named Kuro. § Born; In a cave on a rainy spring day, May 4th. § Zodiac sign; The Taurus.
Having feathers is to me a matter of pride. They are my greatest prides that I will never leave behind. I’m used to having others stare at me with gazes that would have killed me long ago – if it were possible… And I can just say that I don’t like having others stare at me, it doesn’t matter what they say with their eyes… They all are the same to me, they are all reminding me of the past that I do not wish to remember… Still, I endure and keep moving forward, well… At least until I snap and start screaming what’s on my mind and what I think about those who stares at others without any good reason to do so. I’m not able to ignore, no matter how much I may want to ignore them… Unfortunately my screams and my anger tears my own pride apart… Not to mention that those who didn’t mean any harm with their gazes takes it quite hard when I start screaming at them. I’m a fool – at least that’s what I tell myself when I snap and starts screaming anything and everything…
That’s why I decided to make it stop – in order to protect my own pride, in order to not hurt those that did not deserve it and in order to help myself practice to ignore those gazes… That’s why I came to the solution to wrap a feather around my mouth. Surely it doesn't keep me from talking entirely (after all, I want to be able to open my mouth in order to eat and drink. Though, 'm not the best when it comes to putting it back in place again, so that's why I decided to let it sit rather loose around my mouth – to spare myself from that trouble), but it is still able to make me remember to keep my mouth shut most of the time. Because of it I can’t hurt my own pride, someone else and I can practice ignoring those needed to be ignored. Feathers are my cure to anything and everything; feathers are the best in the world.
A past, a yesterday, a history, yes, it could probably have many, many names. We all have one or will get one, no matter who you are. May it be a past to be loved, feared, hated or saddened depends on who you are. Everyone has their own past and everyone has their own future. I have one too, just like you do.
My name is Timberly, however, you may call me Tim for short. I started my life just like any other Kia would do and I began my life living with my parents. The “me” back then is what I should describe as “different” compared to what I am right now. I was a scared child and I didn’t even trust my own parents whom had given me a life. They doubted me and I doubted them, there were no such thing as trust in my family. They didn’t deem me as their son, because I was too different compared to them, I didn’t resemble the two of them with the way I look and they had apparently planned that I would like everything they liked – which I did not. To tell you the truth, I don’t even remember their faces… It’s all a blur and I can just see shadows as I try to see those memories of the few times I actually faced them and looked up into those faces dressed in gazes that seemed to be scared of or saddened because of me.
I stayed away from them, yet close to them at the same time – because I needed them in order to survive. A part of me had always been whispering that I couldn’t live without them and I blindly believed that one whisper like an order from a God or a King. I wouldn’t once run away and I always stayed by their side no matter how much I feared those gazes, especially the times I saw my mother cry for reasons that are for me unknown. I kept going, pretending that nothing was wrong, that I did not understand why. Well… I probably didn’t even understand why my parents acted as they did back in those days… But now I’m guessing that they were like that because of me, because I wasn’t what they wanted me to be. I wasn’t the prince-like son they had wanted and wished for. I was nothing more than a clown in their eyes.
One day before I knew it… I don’t even remember exactly when, at least it was sometime after my parents had given me my feathers… Maybe it was just a matter of days after it, but I can't say for certain because all days of my life back then were just like the one before itself... My parents... They were gone, just like that. When I woke up they were nowhere to be found no matter how much I looked and screamed in order to find them. It was like they had vanished, without a trace, as if they had been spirited away just like that. When a few days had passed and I realized that they truly were gone, I started to question the nothingness how I was supposed to be able to keep going – a part of me still said that I needed them in order to survive. By some reason I had been crying ever since they disappeared until that day when I realized that they were never coming back… Me? Crying over the ones whom made me feel fear for everyone around me. Ironic, isn’t it? But that’s the truth.
I didn’t eat anything for quite a while and if I hadn’t been found by a certain crow back then I wouldn’t be here. That one crow snapped me out of my disgrace and it showed me that not everyone would look at me with eyes filled with fear and sadness. It was because of that one crow that I started to move on and started to make my own path out from the shadows that had been my life until that day. During that one day I started my story to find myself and the Tim I am today. I’m still not entirely complete, but my story has began and that’s all I need to know in order to keep moving forward without looking backwards. I don't need the past, all I need is that which is "now" and all that will be the "future".
I’m an author in the morning and I will pour out a masterpiece. Words aren’t needed and inspiration is always there. Each and every feeling, no matter how small or how hard to describe it may be, is what I use as a base to everything I will tell you. I’m Timberly and I’m a breathing, living lad of many words, yet at the same time I will tell you nothing at all.
As the first sunrays make its way down on the ground in the morning where I patiently waited for them, my moment to create begins. I have a story to write - a masterpiece to show.
A story about a soundless rain that endlessly pours down on a sad world that has no way to hide from its cold touch. With colours draped in the shades of gray and blue those drops reaches down on a landscape filled with life in colours from the rainbows happiness. However, that landscape filled with life is far from happy, thus I bring in lots of darker shades to show their sorrow. A lightning appears on the sky, making those scared of it hide wherever they see fit, but that light still makes up for the sorrowful darkness in the landscape. It’s a thunderstorm, of course, one that will stay there until it no longer sees any need to be there.
When it later on drives away all those sad and sorrowful colours turns into the summer’s all colourful shades and light – because when the sun is up there’s no way a landscape covered in the glittering drops of water can stay sad. Those drops glitter like small stars, giving the viewer an illusion of hundreds and thousands of small crystals that’s peacefully resting in the sunlight… Until they decide to leave, decide to disappear.
I’m an author in the morning and I will pour out a masterpiece. I’m a creator and I can tell you a story containing a thousand words without even saying anything at all. My words are my pictures and the pictures are my words, they are the story I tell and the things I’d like to say.
“Why?” – you might ask.
Indeed, why… My pictures tells the stories I cannot put words that are suitable enough for, my pictures tells the things I cannot say with words to you. I will paint it all because I can paint whatever I want and need. I will do it whenever I see fit and I will do it for my own benefits and for your entertainment.
I’m indeed a creator, I’m an author and I will pour out a soundless masterpiece for you... And I shall do that for the rest of my remaining life.
username;; tiedye7
name;; Dolly
reason for name;;
Those light green markings
with pink lines overlapping
them look a lot like stitching
to me, and Patchwork just
doesn't seem to fit her.
gender;; female
age;; 25 Kia years
birthday;; April 19
zodiac sign;; Aries
size;; 50cm at the shoulder
build;; lean but strong
voice;; none, but not mute
personality;;
reason for feather around her mouth;;
history;;
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