☼||Username||☼
Takk
☼||Name||☼
Allariia
☼||Gender||☼
Female
☼||Personality||☼
♣On the Outside♣
The surface always hides the deepest secrets, her fur is like the ocean such way. On the outside, Allariia is very calm and friendly towards everyone she meets. She has no aggressive bone in her body, never yells and is more than willing to help out even when she's busy. Others see her as an angel, always smiling even when no one is around. Her worried gaze effects others, in some ways she feels she had a terribly toxic personality when she isn't acting level headed. She isn't very funny personally, but she loves to laugh at jokes and harmless pranks. However, she can get very protective and defensive if someone is teasing her friends. She can't stand bullies and acts brave to defend them; but with her calm attitude she isn't very intimidating. Most people back down because they don't want to hurt her rather than being afraid.
♦The Middle♦
Around her friends, Allariia is very relaxed and somewhat talkative. At time she can be very opinionated when she knows her friends won't judge her for it; something anyone who just met her wouldn't know. She usually plays on without aggression or acts like things don't offend her on the outside, but her friends know certain comments really bother her because she's honest with them. Allariia actually gets offended quiet easily, though usually reacts sadly rather than defensively. She'll mutter an 'alright' or 'I see' more often than anything. While she's quite smart and is well articulated, she feels like it might put other down if she acts smart in that way. Allariia is constantly worried something she'll say or do might hurt someone's feeling or put them on the spot. In a way, she's somewhat selfless and caring.
♠The Core♠
No life is innocent, her oceans of peaceful attitude can't hide the depths of life forever. Very few know how much she struggles each day to be the kind of Kalon she wants to be. All her life she's wanted to be the yin and yang of her friends, the balance that kept everyone close to her happy. Her goals were inspired by her own imbalance, which is now stable with therapy and herbal help. Lavender calms her nerves, happy teas lift her mood and relaxing bath salts put her to sleep at night. Allariia has had a difficult life and has never fully recovered for she never sought out the right help. On the inside which few see, her life is as dark as night. She's sad, lonely and longs for the right Kalon to brighten her life and make all the bad things go away. She got a dream catcher for her nightmares, she reads books to distract her from her insecurities and fears. At the end of the day she's alone, she hates being alone when it'd be so easy to go out and not be alone anymore. Insecure about herself, Ali when often cry when alone or overthink things in her head. It's simple to assume when no ones around they talk about her, though she hardly cries during her breakdown sessions.
☼||History||☼
Life was terrible growing up, her father bailed on the family before she was even born and her mother had always been bitter ever since. She looked a lot like the male that left, it often ended up in her being an emotional punching bag throughout her life. Despite this, she honestly felt bad for her mother and never raised a paw against her even if she wouldn't do the same. Alliariia gained a deep understanding for a emotional struggle and scars growing up, everyone was predictable by the time she was twelve. Unfortunately at twelve her mother was hit by a car on the road and she hasn't seen her since. The humans picked her up and took her away, she has hopes her mother survived but doesn't know anything beyond that. That's when she really began to hide behind her peaceful, calm minded personality so others wouldn't worry about her. She's now twenty-three and hasn't come to terms with the death of her mother; supposed death. Two of her friends know what happened that day but are too afraid to talk about it. She was never told she was beautiful or a good daughter, it was always the kit her mate left her behind with. It was hard, but she was convinced no matter what there must have been some love under all the harsh words. Because of this, she is very open to others about her feelings towards them; she'll always tell you how important you are to her and everyone around them. To this day, speaking of her mother tears up the Kalon's cloudy eyes but she tries to never let the tears fall.
☼||Physical||☼
Allariia takes very good care of herself despite not ever coming to terms with her looks. She brushes her hair everyday and combs her fur as well, the kalon often looks sleek and well groomed even on weekends. She's slender due to her mostly fruit diet, she doesn't like the idea of eating other animals just because she can. Her build is also a bit small compared to other Kalons, her head reaching a she-kalon's cheek usually. While small, she is also quite fit and strong for someone her size. After her mom disappeared she was afraid no one would notice if she went missing so was prepared to defend herself with tooth and claw even if blood makes her sick.
♥||Love life||♥
Ali identifies as a Demisexual, meaning she can't truly fall in love with someone who can't connect with her in some way. She feels she'll find comfort in knowing another Kalon who had tainted parents. Currently she isn't involved with anyone romantically, but many want to be with her. While she's dated plenty of times, nothing ever went as far as love her; at least not yet. It does feel nice to be wanted, so she keeps trying.
♪||Theme Songs||♪
Monster (DotEXE Remix), Nightcore
Imaginary, Evanescence
☼||Hobbies||☼
Painting, meditation if you could consider that a hobby. She makes homemade herbal teas, sugar scrubs for herself and her friends if they ask for any. With painting, she prefers capturing nature scenes like snow, trees, masses of water and mountains. Painting in pale colors is relaxing, things like the mountains and water have many interlaying colors that blend nicely. To retain a stable mental state, she tries to meditate a few times a week since her mind is often packed with thoughts; it helps to clear her head sometimes.
☼||Orientation||☼
Despite the fact blood make her sick, Ali can't help herself from wanting to assist others. She's a nurse who often works with older or younger patients because she is calm and understanding. Elderly move slowly and sometimes need assistance getting from place to place which she is fully willing to do. Young kits are easily influenced by the actions and emotions of others, so if she remains calm and friendly the kits usually respond with similar energy. She doesn't like to give shots so will do her best to distract herself and her patient by singing, talking about music they like or asking them to play a game with her. Her favorite is telling a story, but she can only say one word and so can the kit. They go back and forth telling the story, though it usually ends with them being confused together.