Dear Diary,
---Yesterday was
monumental - I met with an agent for a very big record company after they saw the music video I threw together out of boredom; I can't even remember uploading it to YouTube, I must have been in one of those sleep-deprived dazes I often end up in xD
---Anyway, as far as I could tell they were quite impressed(although I guess they'd have to be to want to meet me). I was a nervous wreck the whole time, and I know I did that tick of mine repeatedly. You know? The one where I brush my bangs to the side, trying to tuck them behind my ear, even though they never stay? I think I did that just about every other question. I tried my best to remain professional, but I know I broke eye-contact several times and I'm certain I was 50 shades of red out of nerves rather than brown and white ///^.^///
---They seemed very nice and understanding, but I hope I did ok. I'm still freaking out! I get all jittery and rambly whenever I think about it. Is "rambly" even a word? Hey, did I mention I saw the prettiest sunset last night? It was gorgeous! Orange with a yellow glow right over the hills; the orange faded to pink then purple and the clouds seemed to glow! Heh, I did it again didn't I? Oh well, you can't erase pen. So, where was I? Oh, right. I don't know if I want the interview to have gone well or not...
---If it went well, I could be a big hit! I'd love to be able to share my creations, but that's a lot of attention...As you know, I'm quite shy. I don't know if I would want that much attention. I don't even know if I could handle it.
---On the other hand, I love writing and singing! (at least, alone in my room) When I finish writing a song, I usually record my second go at singing it just as a keepsake. I still can't believe I posted that! I've got to stop staying up so late(but then I'd have to stop drinking coffee with midnight-timed snacks), maybe then I won't get myself into so many of these situations. Wait, I've never been in a situation quite this big before. It's always been like a forgotten school report; although there was that time...Oh, I probably shouldn't put that in writing; the less who know of that, the better. I don't need anyone else finding out about that.
---Ok, c'mon Jazz! Focus, girl. Interview. After thinking it over, I think I would rather it went well. Yeah, being able to share my music would be well-worth the undoubted attention! I know I could always post my recordings on YouTube myself, but I think I'd be able to do "more" as an actual
signed artist. Hang on, my phone's ringing...OMG! It's them! It's the agent!!
Gotta go,
~ Love Jazz
500/500 Words~ Both in-post quotes are from the 2015 movie Jem and the Holograms; title is by me