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BurningSnow
Name
Checkahz
Gender
Female
Song
Superluv - Shane Dawson
Sexuality
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What does she paint?
Ah, painting is a marvelous thing, is it not? Checkahz thinks so as well. She paints many things, all the time. Usually it's what she is feeling, sometimes dark, sometimes bright, sometimes so incredibly crazy that two people would argue over its meaning. But, there has to be something that Checkahz paints all the time, right? Something that drives her true passion for painting? Well, I'll tell you here, there is. Checkahz loves to paint spaceships and princesses and horses and lions, all sorts of little kiddie things! Disney characters? She knows how to paint them by heart! Princesses and princes? She's drawn so many that their individual stories have already meshed together in one, happy fairytale. Aliens and rocketships? So many that she can't count the stars that passed them by! She loves it, the innocence of it all in this otherwise horrid world. To bring that little bit of light, that little bit of shine, just that little bit of...glow! Makes living all the more worthwhile. Can we not just forget about everything else? Create our own fantasies, and then live them out? Don't think about wars, about murder, about anything upsetting, but instead live like everything is magical! There's no use in painting about stopping famine if you do nothing further to prevent it, right? Checkahz is at her wits end, if she even has any left, with all the bad things the world has come up with. She'd rather paint her rump and turn into a glowworm than dwell on the dark in the world.
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Why does she paint it?
Other than the fact that Checkahz hates pessimism and would rather paint the world with light, Checkahz has a specific reason for why she paints so many different kiddie things. Why, it's for the kiddies! Specifically, the little children in the hospitals with cancer or just for a checkup. Checkahz has a habit of going to her childhood doctor still, always "forgetting" to go to grown up doctors if ever she needs a problem. One day, when she came down with something that felt like the flu, but ended up just being a cold, Checkahz noticed how big and white and bare the walls were. Why, that's no way for a children's hospital to look! It felt so cold, so dark with its sheer amount of white. So, Checkahz became a volunteer, and began painting the walls all around. It's actually how she got her name, to be quite honest. Her real name is Shequer, but most of the littler kids had a hard time pronouncing it, so they called her Checkah. The added "z" was on her part, because listening to toddlers say "Checkahz" was not only amusing, but also very adorable. Some of the kids she knows very well, for they basically live at the hospital, poor things. Mainly the little tots with cancer. Checkahz's heart goes out to them, and she goes to their plain, white rooms and asks them what they want. They always say, "Unicorns, or dragons, or elephants!" and it brightens them up a bit when they watch her paint on the white walls with her chartreuse paint. They get a lovely surprise, however, when it's lights out, and Checkahz's creation lights up their little rooms just enough for them to be lulled asleep by the seemingly-real fairytales on their walls. Not one room is the same, and now, thanks to Checkahz, not one room is just bare. If you were to ask Checkahz, she'd say that white walls lead to a lot of thinking time. And for a poor little kid in a hospital, there isn't a lot of good things to think about. So, Checkahz would give them something brighter to gaze at.
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Personality
Checkahz is kindhearted, loving, and very generous. She's the type of Parra that would go completely out of her way to help someone else, no matter their gender, or religion, or looks. Some might say that she is so sickeningly sweet and optimistic, and while this is true, it does not mean that she is ignorant to the fact that everything isn't all sunshine and rainbows. Checkahz has a dark side, just like everyone else. She's tried to cover it up with her glow paint, but some things can't really be covered up by things like that. The difference between her and a pessimist is just one little thing. The dark things, don't weigh her down. Yes, they make her sad, and make her feel like no one is even helping at all, but she doesn't let the sheer scary nature of the world affect the way she lives her life, or her attitude. She's found that by constantly being upbeat and happy, that her life has been dramastically better than what it was. She has tried numerous times to tell people of her revelation, but as always they brush her off like she's some five year old. To sum her up in one sentence would be hard, for she has a lot of layers. If you were to ask her, however, she'd say something along the lines of, "The most wise things I've heard have been from the mouths of toddlers."
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History
Checkahz is a very sweet woman, though quite and not that talkative. She isn't shy, really anything but, she just thinks more than she speaks. She's a bit of a loner, even though she loves social interaction. You could say that she likes kids more than she likes adults, because they're more innocent than those who have seen what the world can really be. Checkahz used to dwell on the past, and on mistakes, on the dark, the evil, the crude. Most of her life was spent in the dark, and not in the "innocence is bliss" way, either. Checkahz was told a few years back that she would never be able to have children, that she was infertile, and it crushed her heart. Even when Checkahz was a bit more on the pessimistic side of the spectrum, she still dearly loved children. Knowing that she'd never be able to have what she's always wanted put her into a dark depression, where she found herself despising everything. She even tried to convince herself that she in fact hated children. This eventually didn't work, and her anger slowly turned to despair as the reality dawned on her. But one little boy, and little young one by the name of Clue, showed her that even though things might be terrible, and ugly, and sickening, dwelling on them won't make them prettier. Clue was an orphan, and wanted to stay that way. A little runaway that she managed to befriend when he tried to start a fight with her near the local mall. She quickly made his friends disband from the scene, leaving Clue to be a bit sweeter without them there. He unknowingly led her into the light, and know Checkahz can never be happier. She thanks that little boy every day, even if he's a thousand miles away by now.
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