by yoon. » Thu Jul 23, 2015 1:32 am
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Name-
Carnelian
Name Meaning-
Carnelian is an ancient mineral and has been used for jewelery purposes for absoultey ages. Of course, the value of this crystal has faded and can be bought with only a few dimes in your pocket, but even so, this crystal has, like many others, a special meaning.
Carnelian can be commonly confused as Jasper, due to their similar crimson colors. But there is one difference between the two that can never be dismissed again- Jasper is opaque, while Carnelian translucent.
Opaque is sight resistant and one could say it resembles confidence and a strong heart of many shades. Translucent lets light pass through, but the things that befind themselves on the other side are distorted and not clear. It could mean insecurity, a weak perspective and a confused, unorganized mind.
You could translate a meaning for the stone through that aspect, but that all lies in our very own opinion. In Egypt, centuries ago, Carnelian was used as accessories for architects to show their high rank as a builder, while ancient warriors wrapped it around their neck for courage and physical strength.
The stone is supposed to enlighten many with courage and a bold bucket of self-love.
Carnelian originates from the Latin word; "Flesh". It may come from the appearance, being so ruby red like flesh. There are so many possibilities on how to describe this stone's historical beauty and story, so I will gradually end this meaning with a taste of my version on a mythical creature.
The Xholi's name Carnelian, has only little to do with her exterior as you might have noted. Her personality is fierce and vital- Those traits scream through her cold eyes. She doesn't question her acts- She only embraces them. Unlike others, she moves swift, but cautiously with a tremendous amount of confidence.
Her heart is steel, but ready to melt open for her special falling leaf. You think you know her, but at the end you only drift in disappointment as you realize how unclear your mind was. She kills minds with a sparkle of her sharp canines and she provokes the unwanted with growls of insanity.
She is a fiery love dream, a trustworthy friend and your worst enemy. Carnelian is definitely no lady you should lay your claws on without knowing your individual outcome.
What Keeps Her Up At Night- (Carnelian's POV)
Fear. Fear of losing your title as a living being.
I am a very well-known wolf around here, because of what I have achieved.
I don't think this popularity comes from appreciation of my interior, rather the respect I earned myself. Rather the angst of those around me.
I may have many admirers, but do they really admire what is plastered inside of my heart, or what they have seen?
I am lonely with no support, if I had to define my fear. I wouldn't be afraid of losing my dignity, if I had someone who held it together. I am the only one in charge of myself and my pain- And we weren't made to sit alone, we were made to have a partner, a friend, family.
But not everyone has such luck to even have one. Sometimes there are tradgic exceptions. Ones you would love to swirl around to the content of your mind's positivity, but that is just not possible.
We were made with our features, inside and out. It would be like tearing out an organ. It is just not possible to come back the same- Or even alive. This goes for a life trait. You can't just force someone to be loved. It is just not possible.
Hmm... Life is a hurricane. Not everyone is gifted with safety.
Even though fear is what keeps my eyes strained under the scattered star sky, I still am happy. I still love who I am and I am not scared to say so.
I may not possess gifts that grant my heart eternity, but I have my unconditional energy that explodes onto the world every morning, every sunset, every day's end.
I know how difficult it is for other to accept themselves in their minds, but what funny is that they are usually the ones with the most supporters. They have companions who tell them how beautiful and stunning they are, but I don't- And look at me. I have more confidence, while being a loner among unlimited hills.
I am a star in a galaxy, surrounded by no planet, but still, I shine brighter than the ones that are light years away. I am a bird chirping melodies in vacant areas. I am a sun who is never going to set.
I don't have luxury raveled onto me, I don't have a meal sitting before my paws every evening and I don't have the skills to let someone enter my soul. But either way, I still manage to live. Either way, I still try to excell my dreams.
Don't give up, even if your fear is swallowing you up. Don't give up, even if the sky is breaking down and falling onto you. There is always a white crow waiting for you.
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