Equid Name: Blitzen (with the disclaimer that I don't speak the language: German for flash/lightning); answers to Blitz as well
Equid Age: 4
Gender: Male
Height: 14 hh
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And everything is going to the beat
And everything is going to the beat
And everything is going
"Mother...please don't leave me."
"Enough, Blitz. I don't want to hear it. Now go."
"But...but you promised! Mother, you promised me-!"
"Blitzen, shut up and go! Now!"
And you said
It was like fire around the brim
Burning solid
Burning thin the burning rim
"Oh, Blitz...My darling boy, wait until you come of age!"
"Do you think I'll like it?"
"What stupidity you speak of! I don't think you'll like it."
"Wait...what?"
"Blitzen, I know you will like it."
Like stars burning holes right through the dark
Flicking fire like saltwater into my eyes
You were one inch from the edge of this bed
I drag you back a sleepyhead, sleepyhead
"Mother, wake up, will you? Come on now, this isn't funny. You're really scaring me...Mother? Mother, hello? ...Mother?!"
They couldn't think of something to say the day you burst
With all their lions and all their might and all their thirst
They crowd your bedroom like some thoughts wearing thin
Against the walls against your rules against your skin
"Boy, leave her. There's nothing that can be done now."
"But she's my family! I can't just leave her alone!"
"That's the entire reason she's gone now. Your mother was a very lonely woman."
"But she had me!"
"It was a loneliness no one but her could fix, and sadly, she chose not to save herself. Come now, you are nearly of age to live alone anyway."
My beard grew down to the floor and out through the doors
Of your eyes but go in disguise like a sleepyhead, sleepyhead
"I found my release in running. At first it was like evading that horrible accident, but then I quickly learned that every time I glanced over my shoulder, even for the briefest of moments, there it was. My mother's lifeless eyes were boring holes into my body, shooting me into a frenzied blast of speed barely within my range of control. I was wild and terrified, and I couldn't slow down.
"One night, I was so desperate to run, I fled my dry shelter in the middle of a thunderstorm. The rain landed hard on my back and shoulders and head, and there was so much of it I could barely distinguish wet darkness from miserable trees. But true fear didn't race through my veins until a bolt of lightning, dazzlingly white and hot to the point where I could feel the heat from twenty feet away, struck the ground close to me. I nearly stopped I was so surprised by the sudden act of nature, but an intense roll of thunder, like the running of thousands- no, millions of my feet against hard, packed earth, forced me to carry on. I whinnied something desperate and ran faster yet, unsure if I could handle the speed without tripping myself...But I quickly learned I could with the proper amount of adrenaline.
"Lightning didn't strike the ground again, but the flashes after that particularly frightening one prompted my legs to travel further; that cacophonous racket of the gods merely embellished the effect. My breathing was labored, sweat was beginning to coat my sides in addition to the hellish rain, but still I went on, like my legs weren't tiring and I wasn't about to collapse. It was an accidental discovery: I loved running in these conditions. Sure, my life was in danger as a result of several factors, and maybe I wasn't in the right mindset, but that ceaseless fear, that pure adrenaline coursing through every bit of me...
"I had become Blitzen, God of Risk and Chance, Prey of Mother Earth. I was no longer the lonely little equid that desperately missed his troubled mother. I can't deny my past still haunts me, but it became a friendly ghost after that first night. It reminds me to hold on to every bit of myself and remember my origins, but it pushes me to embrace the present and future. It laughs with me as I race through torrential downpours and on occasion hail, screams with me when lightning strikes too close for comfort, cries with me when I at last stop and collapse in a shaking mass of exhaustion and emotion...We love each other.
"That is all I have to say about myself. My fears became my motivation and my happiness, and now I can live peacefully- or at least as peacefully as someone named Blitzen can. I've said my goodbyes, and even though my past will always remain behind me as a friendly ghost...I see it again, as I run this circle of life, beckoning me forward."
Go ahead
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"Sleepyhead" by Passion Pit
