- I feel- dysfunctional. I have struggled really bad lately with motivation and anxiety. Waking up feels like a chore. Life in general feels like a hobby, now. One I don't enjoy.
Time is passing too fast. I can hardly remember simple activities from the day before.
I've decided that I will be taking a hiatus. I've disappointed enough people and I've been a disappointment to myself for long enough and I need to find a way to pick myself back up. It's early enough that I can still change things, Maybe. I don't know how I'll do it, but I want to try. I want to join the military, I want to have a future/ but I have to drop a lot of hobbies and distractions to do so. I'll be here for a few reasons, just a species that I enjoy, and to check on anything important (messages/etc.)
Thank you everyone for being by my side and those who have given me patience. I apologize for my behavior and hope to fix it.
Until then.
