TheComfortCorner | v.6

[bud]

i feel so overwhelmed. ive been crying because of stress and i just feel so terrible
my eyes are irritated and i keep making them worse by rubbing them and i want to cry all over again

take a deep breath lovely.
it'll be okay.
think about whatever's troubling you, and write it down.
make a story out of it, that helps me. and then delete it later if you want to.
stop worrying about your problems, it doesn't make it any better.
whatever is troubling you, you can overcome it like the strong individual you are <3

[cloud cover]

i feel so overwhelmed. ive been crying because of stress and i just feel so terrible
my eyes are irritated and i keep making them worse by rubbing them and i want to cry all over again

take a deep breath lovely.
it'll be okay.
think about whatever's troubling you, and write it down.
make a story out of it, that helps me. and then delete it later if you want to.
stop worrying about your problems, it doesn't make it any better.
whatever is troubling you, you can overcome it like the strong individual you are <3

thank you for this, it means a lot to me <3 and i'll try that, thanks again c:

[Amethysts]

So I am depressed tonight just like yesterday.
Why? Stress. That's why. Stress. Nothing but it.
Today, I was suppose to go to the gym (which I did), but my cousins boyfriend won't let her spend time with me at all.
Why? He doesn't like to share. He thinks I'm causing problems.
They've been together for 5 months, and we use to do this all the time growing up.
Mind you- I have a kid, so I'm older than what it looks like in this paragraph.
Anyways, he doesn't trust me, thinks I'm gonna ruin his relationship with her. Why should I care? He's not my man but it still aggravates me. He gets annoyed on who I call or speak to. Wth. You're not my man, please stay off me and out my business.
I got into a fight with him today which was funny; and I won. If you pick a fight with me, you're losing. I don't care. You are seriously losing.
So my cousin defended me because he started comparing me to his druggy cousins. He's nitpicking and I swear, I'm gonna ruin his life if he keeps at it with me. He thinks he knows me just because I talk to guys since I'm taken.
I'm in a 3 year relationship. THREE LONG YEARS. We even have a kid together!! He thinks he knows me still because I'm "loose" or as we say "disgusting". I'm rebellious and real, there's a difference. Not two-faced like him.

I really do hope he knows who he's picking a fight with. I really do hope he minds his-self. This Saturday, my man and son are coming over to sleep, if he steps out of line. Literally steps out of line- I will literally destroy him. DESTROY HIM. He better mind himself around my kid.

[Silkala]

My family... Isn't the best. And I'm not exaggerating. Not like those kids who say "Oh mah GAWD my mother didn't let me go to this concert with my boyfriend so now I call her Hitler." (This quote belongs to M.F in my class.) no, I'm talking about something else.

Let's start with my Mother.
So, she's angry. A lot. She always has a reason for you to do something. She always complains about having to do housework, but when someone offers to do it instead she just says something about us messing it up anyway. She will make rude comments about family members when they are away, or even if they are in the other room. She will pick fights with my dad for fun, even if she ends up crying. She will rant and rant about things that happened years ago. She overall is just annoying. I think she should put herself in our shoes for once.

Next, my Dad.
He... Doesn't take care of himself. He drinks a lot, and hates himself. He makes racist or sexist 'jokes', or call things gay as an insult, ignoring the fact that I'm bi. He comes home scared of my mom, if he comes home at all. He finishes work at 5. Why is he coming home at 12? He loves me, I know that. One of the many things he was yelled at about was treating me better than my sister, who we will talk about later. He takes me places rather than hanging out at home, just because we might be the most sane people in this house, even if he isn't the best. I'm trying to convince him his jokes aren't always funny, but it's a slow process. I hope he holds on enough for us to get there.

And finally, my Sister.
She is annoying. She constantly makes random noises, such as screeching all the time, and is just a general annoyance. She tells everyone to clean up after themselves, or to do this or that for her, when she barely does any of it herself. She is the definition of a spoiled brat. And I went along with it. Being the older sibling, I naturally was very protective of her. She learnt I would never get mad at her, so she bullies me. She calls me fat, lazy, stupid, obsessed, or any other things. As a regular greeting she says I need to take a shower. In the morning, I'll say "oh, morning." Like usual, but she always responds with "what do you want? Can you make breakfast today?" I'm very passive. I don't like fighting, and I won't do it now. I just want her to stop. She thinks everything is a joke, and everyone in my family has given up trying to change her.

And now, my least favourite...

Me.

I'm very lazy. I don't care about myself because I know no one will miss me if I'm gone. I hate myself and everyone around me. I want to leave this stupid place, I just want to be gone. And everyone around me is too self centered to see it! The only person who ever listened to me is my grandma, who my mother just openly insulted in front of me. I ran off to my room to write this. I want to leave. I have anxiety, insomnia and depression. No mom, I don't need to go out more. No Dad, I don't want to run away with you. No Sister, I don't want to just forget about it.

i just want to die.

[epsil]

..
there are other people with more serious issues, i'm just upset about something that's been bothering me for awhile

For as long as I can remember, I have never been sensitive to things normal people would react to. On rollercoasters I never scream, I never seem to cry like other people, and finally - the one that causes the most problems - I never laugh. At anything.
It doesn't take me effort to respond that way, it just happens naturally. I find myself wondering, why are they screaming? Why are they crying? How is this funny?
I often have to force myself to laugh at school, so all of my laughing is usually artificial since I just don't laugh naturally. Why am I different? Why should I have to subject myself to that? Why can't I just laugh!?

Is there something wrong with me? Is it just my personality?

I'm so sick of having to force a laugh. If I don't, I'm seen as too serious or bitter.

[- ; bonk!]

ugh everything's terrible right now. please excuse my ranting I just can't discuss anything in real life or I'll be screamed at for being a spoilt rotten brat and I don't want to bug any of my friends because they've got enough to deal with without my problems and I already burden them too much already.
my friend's cancer seems to be much more serious than they originally thought and so she's stuck living in another city for at least the next year for treatment. we're all trying to help her pay for the chemo and housing costs but we're in the middle of a lawsuit right now so that's difficult. on top of that, I've just had this stress and inescapable feeling of dread, anger, and sorrow leering over me constantly, like a shadow. I've been so self-pitying recently and I've been falling back into old habits of binging/purging in the last week and I just feel so ill in the head that it's starting to affect me physically. I can't sleep. like, at all. I've had issues with paranoid insomnia and nightmares for a few years now but it's steadily getting worse and I'm about to hit my breaking point, honestly. I haven't had a wink of sleep in two days.
all this stress and fear is starting to seep into my work, too. all my writing and drawing, the thing that keeps me grounded, is just being corrupted by these dark feelings and images in my head. once happy characters and stories have become tragedies- a representation of the havoc these thoughts are causing my emotions. and my school work? I can't find the motivation to do any of it. even threats of phone calls home, failing grades, being removed from electives, and potentially being held back isn't enough to kick me into gear now. because deep down in my heart, I have this scary feeling that it won't matter soon, that when I'm buried six feet underground it isn't going to have any significance, that soon all of this will just fade away. and that terrifies me. I don't think I want to die; so why is my brain telling me to give up, that the end is going to come soon? I can't even control those thoughts anymore.

tl;dr: my friend is fighting an aggressive form of cancer, I'm caught in a lawsuit, I can't sleep, I feel horrible, I've lost motivation to live my life, my passions are becoming meaningless, I'm failing every single class right now, I don't have anyone to talk to, and I need a hug. badly.

[strawberryjeons]

ugh everything's terrible right now. please excuse my ranting I just can't discuss anything in real life or I'll be screamed at for being a spoilt rotten brat and I don't want to bug any of my friends because they've got enough to deal with without my problems and I already burden them too much already.
my friend's cancer seems to be much more serious than they originally thought and so she's stuck living in another city for at least the next year for treatment. we're all trying to help her pay for the chemo and housing costs but we're in the middle of a lawsuit right now so that's difficult. on top of that, I've just had this stress and inescapable feeling of dread, anger, and sorrow leering over me constantly, like a shadow. I've been so self-pitying recently and I've been falling back into old habits of binging/purging in the last week and I just feel so ill in the head that it's starting to affect me physically. I can't sleep. like, at all. I've had issues with paranoid insomnia and nightmares for a few years now but it's steadily getting worse and I'm about to hit my breaking point, honestly. I haven't had a wink of sleep in two days.
all this stress and fear is starting to seep into my work, too. all my writing and drawing, the thing that keeps me grounded, is just being corrupted by these dark feelings and images in my head. once happy characters and stories have become tragedies- a representation of the havoc these thoughts are causing my emotions. and my school work? I can't find the motivation to do any of it. even threats of phone calls home, failing grades, being removed from electives, and potentially being held back isn't enough to kick me into gear now. because deep down in my heart, I have this scary feeling that it won't matter soon, that when I'm buried six feet underground it isn't going to have any significance, that soon all of this will just fade away. and that terrifies me. I don't think I want to die; so why is my brain telling me to give up, that the end is going to come soon? I can't even control those thoughts anymore.

tl;dr: my friend is fighting an aggressive form of cancer, I'm caught in a lawsuit, I can't sleep, I feel horrible, I've lost motivation to live my life, my passions are becoming meaningless, I'm failing every single class right now, I don't have anyone to talk to, and I need a hug. badly.

I'll hug you so tight it feels like you're in a sandwich. Don't worry, my life isn't going so well either. I'm so sorry for your friend, if my BFF had cancer I'll just go fly away into another country. Not everyone's lives go as planned, but we gotta deal with it. When you're in a sticky situation, just think of the happy times. Maybe the school will let you off. I would. ^^

~Your conscious, PotatoAnimeGeek.

[taxi cam]

aaa i feel so horrible rn
i decided to wear a dress to school because i just felt feminine today
& now i feel all nervous about my legs and stuff

[spooks.]

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[coën]

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I know a few people who do that with phones, but not really with other stuff.
I usually experience that other people around me 'respect' the camera while I'm taking photos, because it is not a cheap device. Of course the phones are really expensive nowadays, but they are often more durable and made to withstand daily use and a bit of dropping. :P If you throw a DSLR across the room on a hardwood floor, atleast the lense will be shattered. If somebody tries to grab your camera, you can always tell them not to and that they do not have the right to touch or take your personal property. Remember to keep the lense-protector on at all times when not taking a picture and possibly keep your camera in a carrying-bag whilst not using it. :>