| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[jaggerz236]

I just need a comforting thing *hugs fluffy bunny*

[headlight stereo.]

theres nothing anyone can do
not even me
ill never be okay

dont say that, you're gonna live a good life, i know it, just please, all i ask is you stay strong, and i'll keep telling you it because if they feel the need to scar you this bad that you cannot even muster any self confidence they deserve a yell to the face, no matter if they're trying to frighten you or not, this is not ok, but i know with the right people you'll be okay. even though its not alright. im here for you.
tell them. tell them to stop telling YOU that YOU need therapy. it is not right for them, or whoever this is to be going against your will this strongly. just keep fighting and don't give up, i swear i'll keep doing whatever i can to get you to realize you are worth something.

[Thalassic]

i do need it though
anyone ive even slightly opened up to, has told me this and I agree
but i cant
its not an option
and everything keeps getting worse i cant keep going like this for much longer

[Skittle.]

I have recently moved in term 4 last year.I feel like my existence is nothing at the moment.I met people in the last term and made some friends.But not many.None of them have done anything with me, havent talked to me over the holidays, nothing! Its like it never happened.So when I go back to school I will need to do the make friends thing ALL OVER AGAIN.Going to be the "weird kid who draws in the corner".Seriously.This school has something against me.I dont fit in at all.Its like the bullies are top dog,its never been like that at any of my other schools.I also worry about my hair (ikr) I have short ....well, boy hair and people tease me so much its like it never ends!
Im kinda a loner.There are this group of kids who remind me so much of my old class, but im to scared to hang out with them.Im shy and thats my problem.I dont know how to change it.
Im taking art (well I think I am ) I BETTER BE! anyways, maybe that will help me fit in.Its how I made friends at my old school.

Cries.The deans this year are literally the scariest teachers in the school. Nice , looking forward to it.Oh and dont even start on exams........

Anyways........Im just feeling alone.

[ausgdghsag]

x

[Konata.]

I'm probably going on a hitaus soon, I'm not sure why I even care about members telling me to "Wait in the shadows and learn from experienced players." The "Experienced player" joined around the same month as me. I made a mistake, and when I'm told that I'm incorrect many times, I feel like I should just leave. Saying that i should wait in the shadows, well its just bascially telling me to go away. I was actually proud of myself, for knowing so much... But now I feel so discouraged, ya know? Everything I knew.. I thought I was going on the right track. But then I was pushed off the edge of a cliff, and I really don't know whether I should be caring about this stupid problem. To the player who said this to me, your wish is granted. I will hide in the shadows, and never appear again. </3

[The Fifth Spirit]

I'm just... I don't know. I feel like my life is sort of falling apart.
First, there's my AP classes. I'm taking two this year, first year taking AP classes, and I regret it. So much. These are the first AP classes ever offered at my school as it's new, and the teachers are disorganized in class, because they're trying new things to see what works and what doesn't in the class. I'm a guinea pig to them. Plus, I have no confidence in myself when it comes to the tests in May. I seriously doubt I'll pass either of them.
There's also the issue of my horse, which I'm trying to sell. I've always had a passion for horses, and one day after a horseback riding lesson my trainer suggested that I think about getting my own horse. Having my trainer suggest it totally put my dad on the bandwagon, and he rushed into the whole thing. He bought a horse before I even had a chance to meet it. So of course I told him that I was happy and excited and that I wanted the horse, because what else could I do? It also doesn't help that I'm too afraid of my dad to stand up to him, so there was no way I could refuse, anyways. So I've had this horse for almost a year and he's made me absolutely miserable. I've come to hate horses because of it. I never want to take lessons or have a horse again. So I finally worked up the courage to tell my dad that I want to sell the horse, and he says he's not gonna help me at all. It's gonna all have to be from me. I'm a teenager whose main priority should be school, I don't have time to sell the dang horse! I just want it gone, it's caused me so much stress and unhappiness. I told my dad that I felt pressured into getting the horse in the first place, and he pulled the "how dare you" and "a lot of nerve" cards. I feel like it's my fault that I'm stuck with this burden. I can't tell him how I feel because he shuts me down and tells me that it's my responsibility and my fault and that I need to fix it.
This whole situation has made suicide pop into my head more than once. I've thought, "So hey, there's quick solution to this problem!" Of course, I've never seriously considered it. I could never do that to my mom, the most amazing and supportive person in my life, and I certainly couldn't do it to myself. I value myself too much. But my dad is projecting all of the blame on me and I am constantly miserable because of it.
I'm at a loss. Between the stress of school and the whole horse issue, some days I feel like giving up and just staying in bed forever.

[vitya]

I wish I recalled how to flirt. He's so cute and I think he likes me, if his glances are anything to go by, but what if it makes things awkward between us? It's not like I talk a lot anymore; no need to. I feel totally at peace with myself, but putting another person into the equation of my life? Is that a good idea when it's so changed, and shifting constantly?

[dead poets society]

today was such a bad day
i had breakdowns in most of my classes
someone please save me from this pain

[ever changing]

[size=85]sometimes i think im getting better
and then my brain reminds me im not


Please don't be so hard on yourself. We are our own worst enemies,
so there is a chance that you've just hit a bit of a rough patch. If
when your being positive you can actually say that you're getting
better, chances are that you are! It just takes time, is all.
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Why must everyone go at each others throats at school? if i want to be myself there.. I'm done for.

This.

Prison.

is.

Helpless.


Never be afraid to be yourself! Changing who you are for the sake
of someone is is just letting them win. Just take a deep breath
and try your best to remember that these people are irrelevant
to your life. It will be over soon enough (depending on how old
you are) and then, you probably won't even see most of them
again.
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I can't help it
it's everywhere I go
Even when I feel normal,
I hear that word, and remember why the teachers like me so much
Why i'm not bullied as much this year
Why we are broke for once,
why my family is falling apart
Why i've gotten some of the chances i've been given
Today,
a guest speaker came to school.
His mom died of it too
not the same type of course,
but the reminder is still there that
I could loose mine at any moment.


[tight hugs] Hey, I'm sorry that you and your family is going through
this. Try your best to stay strong for your mother. Your strength
and hope will make her flourish.
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this is a dumb rant but I need to post it or I'll get a migraine again sorry can't continue like this. I can't. I don't even have real problems I think but I'm just tired of living. what will tomorrow be like? I don't really care. wake up early, get anxiety over the homework I want to do but can't force myself to, have my stomach growl all through class, sit and stare at a computer screen, watch myself in front of the class be like a fool, go home, rant about it, try to eat, try to sleep, think really hard about doing homework and get pumped, take out homework and feel sick, cry, pout, overreact about my dumb problems, watch my disrespectful brothers all night, feel either really bad or violent about the insults they yell at me, get anxiety trying to cook, can't get anyone to eat or sleep, declare my done-ness with the day but try to get them asleep anyways, go to sleep at too late of a time, wake up knowing I didn't do any work. think if homework. think if school. think if how lazy I am. think if when I can get to sleep but never do. or sometimes come straight home and sleep all day and get yelled at. there's nothing really fun anymore, so why do I care? school is unneeded, work is unneeded. most things humans do are unseeded. I can't stop thinking about how much grades matter and how I'm not passing even though I understand practically everything fine. and most of it I won't use again. grades grades grades grades grades grades grades that's all there is nothing ealse I'm just a big fat F trying to pretend to be an A just wait until my mom sees my grades. until I have to redo school because of my grades. the word 'grades' makes me space off. I can't do this, I can't. I feel like crying. I hate this. I hate complaining about practically nothing. its my fault but I feel like there's more to it. and sometimes I don't feel anything or really care but sometimes I just get sad and I really wish I could sleep forever because I can never have my ideal lifestyle and I don't see myself with a future, because I'll keep on being held back and stuck in school forever with all these little immature kids and gross gross gross gross I want help I want out of here I want to go home but I don't know where home is


I'm sorry you're feeling so anxious! Try focusing on other things
when it seems to be getting you to the most. Listen to music,
take a walk, a bath, or maybe even a nap to clear your mind.
Grades are very important sure, but your mental health is
even more important.
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Today was a really awful day.
I messed up and really hurt someone and I feel awful.
On top of that, everything went wrong. I did about a thousand things wrong and managed to slip in the ice and really hurt my crippled knee. I mean, it always hurts, but right now its unbearable.
I deserve whatever karma I get, but I just want to disappear. I know I deserve that pain I felt when I fell, I know I deserve to be hated.
I don't deserve any hugs or sympathy, nor do I deserve the kindness of the amazing people on this thread.
But if anyone has any extra hope to send my way I'd really really appreciate it...
Because I'm so close to giving up.


Please don't talk about giving up, okay? Your life is precious
and important. I'm certain that you didn't mean to hurt
them. I am also sure that they'd forgive you if you were
to apologize. No one is perfect, we all make mistakes.
I am sure they will understand. And I hope your knee
feels better soon!
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wow.
im done rn.
lots of drama involving my dad and boyfriend... he was livid i was dating a korean and cursed both of us out... right in a and w
my boyfriend started crying and hugging me after scared he would lose me and that'd he done something wrong and now my dads threatening to end his life over it.. please pm what i can do, might not respond because my boyfriend is laying on the couch sobbing ( he is self concious in his actions and a very shy bab ) and im making him hot cocoa with hershy topped whip cream, while telling him its alright. i feel so bad ohmygod.


It seems that you're handling the situation quite well. Just keep
reassuring him that things are going to be fine and that what
your father thinks isn't important. Things may be rough if you
want to continue seeing each other, but if you're both set on
it, I am sure it will work out for the best. Good luck!
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I just need a comforting thing *hugs fluffy bunny*


[tight hugs!] Feel free to message me, if you need to!
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I have recently moved in term 4 last year.I feel like my existence is nothing at the moment.I met people in the last term and made some friends.But not many.None of them have done anything with me, havent talked to me over the holidays, nothing! Its like it never happened.So when I go back to school I will need to do the make friends thing ALL OVER AGAIN.Going to be the "weird kid who draws in the corner".Seriously.This school has something against me.I dont fit in at all.Its like the bullies are top dog,its never been like that at any of my other schools.I also worry about my hair (ikr) I have short ....well, boy hair and people tease me so much its like it never ends!
Im kinda a loner.There are this group of kids who remind me so much of my old class, but im to scared to hang out with them.Im shy and thats my problem.I dont know how to change it.
Im taking art (well I think I am ) I BETTER BE! anyways, maybe that will help me fit in.Its how I made friends at my old school.

Cries.The deans this year are literally the scariest teachers in the school. Nice , looking forward to it.Oh and dont even start on exams........

Anyways........Im just feeling alone.


I'm sure it will be fine! It's nice, but having a lot of friends
isn't always needed. Even if you have one person to talk to,
it's better than having a bunch of fakies. Continue doing
what you do as long as you have fun with it. It's no one's
business but your own. You do what you do to please your
ownself, not them. And so what if they don't like your
hair. It's just hair. It isn't theirs. They are irrelevant to
your life and not worth feeling bad over.
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I'm probably going on a hitaus soon, I'm not sure why I even care about members telling me to "Wait in the shadows and learn from experienced players." The "Experienced player" joined around the same month as me. I made a mistake, and when I'm told that I'm incorrect many times, I feel like I should just leave. Saying that i should wait in the shadows, well its just bascially telling me to go away. I was actually proud of myself, for knowing so much... But now I feel so discouraged, ya know? Everything I knew.. I thought I was going on the right track. But then I was pushed off the edge of a cliff, and I really don't know whether I should be caring about this stupid problem. To the player who said this to me, your wish is granted. I will hide in the shadows, and never appear again. </3


I'm not quite sure what you're talking about, but please remember
that this is just a fun little game. If you honestly feel like taking
a break from the site..then so be it! We will be here waiting with
open arms when you return. If you don't want to, and are only
thinking about what that one person said, please stay. I highly
doubt they haven't made mistakes in the game at some point.
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I'm just... I don't know. I feel like my life is sort of falling apart.
First, there's my AP classes. I'm taking two this year, first year taking AP classes, and I regret it. So much. These are the first AP classes ever offered at my school as it's new, and the teachers are disorganized in class, because they're trying new things to see what works and what doesn't in the class. I'm a guinea pig to them. Plus, I have no confidence in myself when it comes to the tests in May. I seriously doubt I'll pass either of them.
There's also the issue of my horse, which I'm trying to sell. I've always had a passion for horses, and one day after a horseback riding lesson my trainer suggested that I think about getting my own horse. Having my trainer suggest it totally put my dad on the bandwagon, and he rushed into the whole thing. He bought a horse before I even had a chance to meet it. So of course I told him that I was happy and excited and that I wanted the horse, because what else could I do? It also doesn't help that I'm too afraid of my dad to stand up to him, so there was no way I could refuse, anyways. So I've had this horse for almost a year and he's made me absolutely miserable. I've come to hate horses because of it. I never want to take lessons or have a horse again. So I finally worked up the courage to tell my dad that I want to sell the horse, and he says he's not gonna help me at all. It's gonna all have to be from me. I'm a teenager whose main priority should be school, I don't have time to sell the dang horse! I just want it gone, it's caused me so much stress and unhappiness. I told my dad that I felt pressured into getting the horse in the first place, and he pulled the "how dare you" and "a lot of nerve" cards. I feel like it's my fault that I'm stuck with this burden. I can't tell him how I feel because he shuts me down and tells me that it's my responsibility and my fault and that I need to fix it.
This whole situation has made suicide pop into my head more than once. I've thought, "So hey, there's quick solution to this problem!" Of course, I've never seriously considered it. I could never do that to my mom, the most amazing and supportive person in my life, and I certainly couldn't do it to myself. I value myself too much. But my dad is projecting all of the blame on me and I am constantly miserable because of it.
I'm at a loss. Between the stress of school and the whole horse issue, some days I feel like giving up and just staying in bed forever.


Have you thought about speaking to your principal about the issues
with your teachers? There job is to do their best at helping you to
excel, and it doesn't seem like they are doing that at all. AP should
be straight forward and well articulated. Whatever may happen in
the situatin, please know that your mental health matters much
more than "being smart", and that you are not a lesser person if
you have to drop out of these classes. Put yourself first! As far
as the situation with the horse goes, I am sorry, but I do not have
much advice there. Good luck with finding a buyer!
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I wish I recalled how to flirt. He's so cute and I think he likes me, if his glances are anything to go by, but what if it makes things awkward between us? It's not like I talk a lot anymore; no need to. I feel totally at peace with myself, but putting another person into the equation of my life? Is that a good idea when it's so changed, and shifting constantly?


I think that when it comes to this, being straight forward is the
best thing to do. Flat out ask him if he is interested. Sure, it
may be a bit awkward, but it's a lot better than spending your
time being flustered and wondering over it. The worse that
can happen is that he isn't, and then you can find someone else
to flirt with!
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today was such a bad day
i had breakdowns in most of my classes
someone please save me from this pain


Just try to take some deep breaths and relax, okay? Focus on now,
not before. If your classes are over for the day, indulge in something
that you enjoy. One step at a time. PM me if you need!




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