| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[ｐｒｉｘｉｅ]

when am i going to get real, legitimate friends
who don't lie to me and make me feel invisible or lead me on or abandon me
when am i going to find some real life person to actually care about me

i love being alone all the time
i love having people hang out with me out of pity
i love having all the trust i had for you shatter
i love having my heartbroken
in so many ways

i kinda hate everything right now
don't comfort me on, please don't bother
i'd ask for companionship but there's no point when i'll just end up alone again almost immediately after



please
stop forgetting about me

I know how that feels. I encounter the same thing every day of the week. I'm not sure how much comfort I can offer, because I still have trouble getting through it, but if you need to get something off your shoulders, I'd like it if you'd talk to me, I can relate.

[yuolinh]

i'm so tired of this.
i just want to break down sometimes.
i want to close everything out again and
stop the pain.
i can't take this anymore.

pm-ing<3

[autumnsoundtrack]

First my mom trashes the way I dress.
Then she calls me ungrateful, and a few other words I can't say on here.
Now my friend is all like "omg why did you get 5 inch heels you can't even walk properly in 3 or 4 inch" when I've been walking just fine in them for the past two years??
Even my friend E says I walk fine in my 3 inch heels. I don't have the time or patience for her to belittle my abilities, especially when some of hers are mediocre but I'm too good a person to call her out on it.

I've ranted on here about 3 times since I woke up... today is just going to be great....

[fika.]

First my mom trashes the way I dress.
Then she calls me ungrateful, and a few other words I can't say on here.
Now my friend is all like "omg why did you get 5 inch heels you can't even walk properly in 3 or 4 inch" when I've been walking just fine in them for the past two years??
Even my friend E says I walk fine in my 3 inch heels. I don't have the time or patience for her to belittle my abilities, especially when some of hers are mediocre but I'm too good a person to call her out on it.

you're none of those things <3
you're the exact opposite
just ignore her
i mean, still respect your mum and all but
don't take it to heart what she says.
i know it is hard hearing it all, but you're none
of those and you can wear and buy what you want
good luck boo, never stop being you <3

[nuvola]

normally, I would ask for a private message in advance because I'm usually too afraid to post publicly, but I really need to get this down right now. It's been going on for a while and I think bottling it up even more is going to make it worse, so. If anybody wants to, please send me a response through pm! Any help and/or advice would be very appreciated and thank you so much to the kind user(s) who do in advance!!

that aside, though, I've been feeling severely emotionless lately and i can't even scrape up enough emotion to feel excited for things anymore. I don't think it's necessarily because I don't care (because I do care about things and people deeply) but rather everything has become so exhausting for me. Want to go to the movies? I'm too tired. Want to go to that concert? I'm too tired. I'm always too tired or too uninterested to participate in anything, and when I have an outing with friends, I have to force myself to go with them. I'm just too tired. Let me lay in my bed and sleep for the rest of my life, because maybe that will cure my seemingly incurable exhaustion. Why do I feel like this all the time? Why can't I feel excited? Why can't I feel motivated? Why does everything feel like it's all suddenly too much? Getting out of bed for work and school is a feat in itself, and I originally thought it'd stop there. It would affect my motivation to want to go out and do fun things. But, here I am now, experiencing nothing but disinterest in seeing a movie. Because I feel like I can't do it, like that just adds on to all the stress I'm already putting myself through.

And, it's hurts too much. The anxiety, the depression, the lonilensss- it's painful. My chest feels like it's being burned from the inside out, and my stomach feels like it's going to burst. It's so, so painful and I just want it all to stop because I don't want to hurt like this anymore. Make it stop, please. I don't know what to do because it only gets worse. I've tried and I've tried helping myself but it doesn't work.

Most of the time, when I'm feeling like this, i have a tendency to bury myself in an obsession with the things I enjoy because it dulls the pain. Sometimes I'll watch hours of television shows and read fanfictions about the characters, and now I bury myself in k-pop. It's all I do anymore because it makes me not hurt. It's not working right now and I honestly feel like I'm going to disappear and I'm so scared because i don't want that to happen. Please don't get the wrong idea, though- i'm not implying suicide or thoughts related to it. It's just. A not good feeling that I'm having.

A couple of days back, I had a terribly frightening nightmare that I think really reflects on my issues with abandoned and I cannot seem to stop thinking about it? It's always dwelling on my mind and. I can't do this. I'm afraid and I'm crying so much why does it affect me so severely why can't I stop why does it keep getting worse why does it feel like nobody wants to be associated with me I. I'm so so scared oh my god

[fika.]

normally I would ask for a private message in advance because I'm always too nervous to post publicly, but right now, I need to get this down here. if anybody would like to send me response through private message rather than here, I wouldn't mind that one bit at all! any responses would be appreciated because I do need some help and/or advice on this matter because it just keeps getting worse, no matter how much I try to calm myself down and make it better.

that aside, though, I've been feeling severely emotionless lately and i can't even scrape up enough emotion to feel excited for things anymore. I don't think it's necessarily because I don't care (because I do care about things and people deeply) but rather everything has become so exhausting for me. Want to go to the movies? I'm too tired. Want to go to that concert? I'm too tired. I'm always too tired or too uninterested to participate in anything, and when I have an outing with friends, I have to force myself to go with them. I'm just too tired. Let me lay in my bed and sleep for the rest of my life, because maybe that will cure my seemingly incurable exhaustion. Why do I feel like this all the time? Why can't I feel excited? Why can't I feel motivated? Why does everything feel like it's all suddenly too much? Getting out of bed for work and school is a feat in itself, and I originally thought it'd stop there. It would affect my motivation to want to go out and do fun things. But, here I am now, experiencing nothing but disinterest in seeing a movie. Because I feel like I can't do it, like that just adds on to all the stress I'm already putting myself through.

And, it's hurts too much. The anxiety, the depression, the lonilensss- it's painful. My chest feels like it's being burned from the inside out, and my stomach feels like it's going to burst. It's so, so painful and I just want it all to stop because I don't want to hurt like this anymore. Make it stop, please. I don't know what to do because it only gets worse. I've tried and I've tried helping myself but it doesn't work.

Most of the time, when I'm feeling like this, i have a tendency to bury myself in an obsession with the things I enjoy because it dulls the pain. Sometimes I'll watch hours of television shows and read fanfictions about the characters, and now I bury myself in k-pop. It's all I do anymore because it makes me not hurt. It's not working right now and I honestly feel like I'm going to disappear and I'm so scared because i don't want that to happen. Please don't get the wrong idea, though- i'm not implying suicide or thoughts related to it. It's just. A not good feeling that I'm having.

A couple of days back, I had a terribly frightening nightmare that I think really reflects on my issues with abandoned and I cannot seem to stop thinking about it? It's always dwelling on my mind and. I can't do this. I'm afraid of abandonment and I'm crying so much why does it affect me so severely why can't I stop why does it keep getting worse why does it feel like nobody wants to be associated with me I. I'm so so scared oh my god

this may be the worst thing you've ever heard;
but go seek professional help.
hundreds and thousands of kids suffer from depression,
and not a whole lot go seek professional help. it really will help you out.
a mental illness is an actual illness, if you break your leg
you won't sit at home will you? you'd go to the hospital!
it's the same concept with mental illnesses:
don't just stay at home, waiting for it to go away,
go seek help.
but of course on top of this there are other things that can help!
i know you say you can't be bothered to do anything, and that's okay.
whenever you do a small thing, praise yourself.
even if it's just going to shower.
just do it, maybe it's by eating your favourite food or
doing something you like.
get bigger goals each day:
go downstairs.
go sit outside,
go for a walk,
go to the super market.
just do one thing at a time.
i'm so so so so proud of you, and i really hope you
get through this.
good luck <3

[Sinbreaker]

oh gosh... Words of comfort and or support would really help.
I don't have the courage to tell any of my close friends, but I feel like if I keep it in me and away from everyone I know I'll burst. So, here's the only place I can think of 'online' to really, just give a moment to myself to breathe.
Going into the ER sometime later this week. Been having serious chest pains in the same spot for almost 6 months now. Not a stinging pain, but... just really scares me from time to time.
Going to get a mammogram.

Wish me the best. And for everyone else who is having troubles on this thread, I wish the best for you and do hope things get better.

[fika.]

oh gosh... Words of comfort and or support would really help.
I don't have the courage to tell any of my close friends, but I feel like if I keep it in me and away from everyone I know I'll burst. So, here's the only place I can think of 'online' to really, just give a moment to myself to breathe.
Going into the ER sometime later this week. Been having serious chest pains in the same spot for almost 6 months now. Not a stinging pain, but... just really scares me from time to time.
Going to get a mammogram.

Wish me the best. And for everyone else who is having troubles on this thread, I wish the best for you and do hope things get better.

ahh, that's so sad to hear!
i'm sure everything will be fine, and good luck at the doctors!<3
you can tell your friends when you're ready, and if they're mad at you for 'keeping it from them',
then tell them it just didn't feel right for you to tell them at that time.
good luck boo<3

[ghost queen.]

it's okay. i wouldn't choose me either.
please don't leave me like everyone else. i can't lose you too.

[Checkinder]

I am so tired of everything always being my fault...
Whenever my sister hurts me physically or emotionally, its MY fault. I'm always told that I should defend myself.
No. I shouldn't need to. You should be able to control your oldest daughter well enough that she should KNOW that hurting the youngest isn't acceptable and shouldn't happen.
"Oh, but that's just what siblings do!"
THEY SHOULDN'T.
I should never flinch when someone moves in the corner of my eye out of fear of being hit.
I should never be afraid of my older sister.
I should never fear pain when I do even the tiniest thing wrong.
Why can't you see that I'M not the problem! It's her!

Even my guidance counselor feels the same way.
"Siblings always fight!"
"Maybe YOU should change how YOU act."

What is even with you people???
You are ADULTS
You should KNOW that harming someone ISN'T RIGHT!

But yet...
It's my fault.
It's always my fault.