| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[a snoozing skerple]

came online to calm down. haha, no. doesn't work that way apparently when one of the first things you see online is homophobic propaganda.
it's probably not healthy to obsessively despise relatives but I swear there have been times when I was literally preparing to murder my grandmother
if I were the one calling shots around here, she would have been shipped back to ny in a trunk. and yet she keeps looking to me like I can be convinced to help her with my 'evil' mom and aunt who 'wish to ruin her' by trying to get her to not squander her life.
i don't think she realizes exactly how much i despise her. i do not pity her. i have not even been able to view her as a human being in close to a decade. mom was finally recovering when that woman begged her to move in and help her. and then she drained her of every cent, bullied her at every turn, and when there was nothing left for mom to give her she started demonizing her to everyone who would listen just to try and guilt someone else into her slavery. my mom gave her everything she had and today she had the nerve to say to mom that it was her own tact with money that allowed us to move and stay off the streets for our years up north.
no. we were trapped in that house for ten years while she put household aesthetics ahead of living requirements. she made sure the counters had a pretty stonework topping while we had no fire alarms or central heating, in the northern-US winters. she forbade us from cooking up family-sized meals from the fridge because it was 'expensive' and 'wasteful' not to let her do all the cooking, while she would go out and purchase whole lobsters and boxes of steaks, with CASH, to cook up for herself only. she would blow off her money on shoes and patio furniture and a special second tempurpedic king mattress while the upstairs bathroom was in such a condition that mom and i couldn't bathe. mom ended up paying most of her damned bills just because she couldn't be bothered to put aside any money for dang water or electricity while she was so wrapped up spilling what little welfare gave her on petty bullcrap. no, grandma's 'financial expertise did not keep us off the street, and it sure as hell didn't help us move. it was my mom's bending over backwards non stop all those years that kept a roof over our head and we got to move because my slackass father finally miraculously caught up on years of missed payments he owed her. i really wish my mom hadn't helped her move down with us. she could have left her in that god-awful house in that skanky ass state to be foreclosed on and she would have dang deserved it for all the times she's made mom cry. my mother has been a dang saint to her all these years and she treats her like garbage in return. she claims to have disowned an old 'friend' for hurting my mom but i'm pretty sure it was for some other selfish reason, because she obviously doesn't mind hurting her herself.
she's been whining and sucking off mom and aunt at every chance since she got here, and they were going to help her by taking over her bills again and helping her with a savings account. but now that her divorced husband has died, she's getting more money and suddenly she doesn't need mom or my aunt anymore. she whines about how they want to take from her when they've been struggling to keep her living condition in tact for the last two years, in spite of her idiocy. the woman has recently dislocated her shoulder and the first thing she wants to do when she finds out she has money is repaint the rented house she's moving out of. she's whining about how she's in too much pain to even get into a vehicle but getting medical attention doesn't even cross her dang mind.
mom didn't have to help her move with us. it was mom's money and grandma had been abusing her for years. mom could have easily just left her up there. but she didn't. she gave her space in the moving van. she helped her set up a home down here. she drives her to the grocery store every week. she helps her out of bank complications. she tries to help her keep her Medicaid up to date. she buys her gifts for the holidays.
ironic how i'm the only one here who has ever intended her harm, and yet she treats mom and aunt like they're the enemy while they keep putting their own lives on hold to protect her. too bad her sleazy, manipulative personality prevents anyone from being able to protect her from her own blundering stupidity.

[Lincoln]

Okay.
I've had enough, and the mods have obviously had enough with me.
I'll be leaving tonight. I hope I'll have another chance to keep playing my favorite game, but latley it hasn't been very kind to me.
So I don't know what I'm going to do.
I wish more than anything that I could have another chance but this would be my 4th. I'm going to miss everyone here, but I can't do this anymore.
Goodbye. I hope you'll forgive me. All I've ever done is hurt people. And I usually like it.
So I'm an awful person and everyone makes that 100% clear.

[caf.]

all the bickering in here is just :+)
hahaha also i love having my sexuality negated and i really really love feeling unloved and unwanted and coming for support and finding my actions are causing someone pain :+)))

[mr.robot]

went to see the psychiatrist for the first time today
im exhausted lol
still cant sleep.

[Mythic]

Have you ever had a song that had lyrics that fit a situation of yours so well it feels like someone took a knife to your heart?

Well I did. Yowch. I just really hope my friend comes back. He keeps saying he's trying his best, and maybe he is, but I'm really worried about him. I know he works a lot, but I only get to message him once or twice a month now... And only for a few hours.. I used to be able to message him whenever.

Maybe I'm just selfish and a bit jealous that I can't talk to him as much . I don't know, but I know it still hurts.

[Anastasia]

I'm so angry at my supposed "friend". He gave me false information, told me it was true, and said to keep it secret....I can't believe I believed him; why do people take advantage of my gullibleness? He said it was a trust exercise to see if I was trustworthy but that's a lie. Everyone else in the class has trusted me with their secrets, why would I treat him differently? Why did he have to get my friend involved in the lie he told me? I felt happy to have been trusted by him but now i feel betrayed. He thinks im overreacting, but he literally lied straight to my face?? And involved my friend in the lie too. He seriously hates me or something idk

[BrainOnSka]

Well this break has gone from lovely
to a nightmare in a matter of days..
First I blew my only chance at going ice fishing with my dad
the only Thing I ever get to do with him By the way!!!!!
By not doing the dishes..
Then my neighbor decided he would have some fun and invite me to ski last night,
when really I should have not. He asked me to go saturday,
which If I do a lot of but kissing I MIGHT.. .Just Might
Get to go ice fishing. Which is a MUCH cheaper hobby.
I woke up this morning to my parents getting ready,
and my mom was mad about my friend staying late last night,
EVEN THOUGH My parents were SLEEPING!!! It's like JEEZ guys!
She has no dinner waiting at home I figured I'd give her a bowl of duck soup
and a glass of ice water before she left..
Its NOT LIKE SHE WAS SPENDING THE NIGHT!!!!
Then my mom was all huffy, like,
WELL Set an alarm for 7:00 to get her little Butt (Only she said the worse word) Up!!!!
THen I wake up an hour later anyways to A Note that I
might be working instead of going to Wyoming this spring
(the only thing I ever do with mom, and the only time i Can see my one remaingin Grandma)
To pay for my summer field experience camp in August.
That one hurt.
I'm just done. I don't know why I'm gonna try and do the dishes.
It's not like it'll change their minds anymore.
Heck I forgot about the skiing "date" I had planned with my neighbor
until he CALLED ME Last night. I'm glad Ihad fun last night because this
is gonna be my last ski of the year... I just feel so deflated.
Thank goodness I go back to School in a few days. Which,
yaay. Back to getting up super early and going to classes
getting nagged by my parents about not spending too much money
and doing homework..
OH!! OHI! And on their Little NOTE Today, they asked If IHad the spot in the basement
Cleared out for the chicks that we are hatching..
I was under the impression that dad would help me,
because he was talking about moving the wine bottle rack and everything else.
But NOW, seeing as I've donenothing all break
(WHICH I've done my normal clean stalls, feed and water chickens and ducks chores EVERY DAY!!)
I need to do it my self!!
All because they're remodelling mom's bedroom.
I get that they're tired after coming home from working 10 hours a day..
But Why yell at me?
This sucks.. I'll just stop doing fun things and being happy, alright?
thats what it seems like the world wants.. None of my friends are
happy all the time like I am... why should i be any different?
I've told my self before when my dad yells at me that I'll never be happy again..
Well this time it just may follow through.. Goodbye happiness..
Goodbye ice fishing... And Skiing, and Wyoming..
Heck, maybe even goodbye Guitar.. Heaven knows I dont' have the money to
have a professional help me when I inevitably break a string..

[r.ddler]

Well this break has gone from lovely
to a nightmare in a matter of days..
First I blew my one chance at going ice fishing with my dad,
the ONLY Thing I EVER get to do with him By the way!!!!!
By not doing the dishes.. Then my neighbor decided
he would have some fun and invite me to ski last night,
when really I should have not. He asked me to go saturday,
which If I do a lot of but kissing I MIGHT.. .Just Might
Get to go ice fishing. Which is a MUCH cheaper hobby.
I woke up thismorning to my parents getting ready,
and my mom was mad about my friend staying late last night,
EVEN THOUGH My parents were SLEEPING!!! It's like JEEZ guys!
She has no dinner waiting at home I figured I'd give her a bowl of duck soup
and a glass of ice water before she left..
Its NOT LIKE SHE WAS SPENDING THE NIGHT!!!!
Then my mom was all huffy, like,
WELL Set an alarm for 7:00 to get her little Butt (Only she said the worse word) Up!!!!
THen I wake up an hour later anyways to A Note that I
might be working instead of going to Wyoming this spring
(the only thing I ever do with mom, and the only time i Can see my one remaingin Grandma)
To pay for my summer field experience camp in August.
That one hurt. :cry:
I'm just done. I don't know why I'm gonna try and do the dishes.
It's not like it'll change their minds anymore.
Heck I forgot about the skiing "date" I had planned with my neighbor
until he CALLED ME Last night. I'm glad Ihad fun last night because this
is gonna be my last ski of the year... I just feel so deflated.
Thank goodness I go back to School in a few days. Which,
yaay. Back to getting up super early and going to classes
getting nagged by my parents about not spending too much money
and doing homework..

Hey, it's going to be alright, you have more chances to ice fish and go to Wyoming.
As time goes by things will cool down, and maybe when you get out of the house things like the dishes wont seem so
important, your mom and dad will still be around to see. And I understand little things seeming to explode, but it will cool down and you and your parents will be okay. Just try to breath and enjoy the rest of the time you have to yourself before school decides to make a come back. It's going to be okay my friend, things happen.

[--I am Sherlocked--]

Just. So sick of school already.

Sure, the new teachers seem nice but everyone acts the exact same to me. Not friendly at all, besides one girl. Maybe she cares actually, I have no idea. I don't know who to trust, I honestly don't.
And, a girl who I thought I was close too who just came back from Germany is basically ignoring me completely. She's too interested in this other girl who is now on exchange from Germany. I feel betrayed.

Sigh. Third day back at school and it's going badly.
-Facedesk-
I'm sure work is going to get worse too, soon. At least for now it is easy revision.

Currently being driven insane by basically anyone right now too. I'm so grumpy and angry and frustrated and I just feel so guilty. I feel like I just argue with everyone and I just unnecessarily get angry at people and snap.
I just can't help it.
I wish I could just live in a cave where I could be alone and not let my venom get spat out at me like a snake.
I feel so awkward talking to people as well.
Being in a cave alone would be great. ;w;

I really need to vent some more, so if someone is willing to listen to me with a non judging mind it'd be lovely if you could message me.

[fika.]

I've been so stressed lately, it's starting to affect my grades.

First off, my best friend is talking to a guy she doesn't even know, and she wants to meet him. I just don't think she's ready at her age (a bit older than me) She's kind of, well large, and I feel he is taking advantage of her, like her insecurities. It makes me sick to be honest. She thinks I'm jealous though, and it really hurts. But I don't want her hurt.

Moving on!

So my Ex-best friend told me she was bi, and I'm Bill (sorry if this offends anyone) so I asked her out. She denied me, because she already had a girlfriend. Her girlfriend is the girl she hasn't even met, who lives halfway across the world. And so we talked, she said that she may leave her for me because we are in the same timezones and other reasons. She then told me "I pick her over you" just because she was afraid of hurting her feelings. And just recently, she told me she lied about being bi, and that she was straight. So she lied to me, and picked a stranger over me?

Pms would be lovely.

Hey, don't think that everyone wants to take adventage of her,
she's beautiful anyway and people often look at personality more
than anything. some online-relationships are the most powerful.
about your ex-bestfriend, i think it's disrespectful
to the LGBQT+ community about lying on her sexuality,
it's wrong.
but good luck with her <3

All of this stress is killing me. I can barely breath and my chest feels like there's a massive weight. Today was going terribly, but at least I could keep it in. To add onto it my mom decided to add a few new rules to our household. As if the overbearing scheduling, large numbers of rules isn't bad enough, now she has to go and add more. I can't breath and I want to cry, but I can't. I don't even feel sad. I just feel numb and like I want to cry but I can't do it. I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know what I did wrong to screw everything up. It has to be my fault because the blame is always on me.

My dad is angriest with me. Not my brothers who lied in court and got us taken from him. Not with my mother who took us from him. Me. The one who tried to tell the judge my brothers lied.

I just screw everything up.

I'm a terrible person.

nothing is your fault!!
please don't think that
you're not terrible, you're wonderful<3
i understand you're having a stressful time right now,
so i say take a days break and relax.
do what you enjoy.
life is beautiful, so don't try and let some rules
put limits to it!
good luck <3

came online to calm down. haha, no. doesn't work that way apparently when one of the first things you see online is homophobic propaganda.
it's probably not healthy to obsessively despise relatives but I swear there have been times when I was literally preparing to murder my grandmother
if I were the one calling shots around here, she would have been shipped back to ny in a trunk. and yet she keeps looking to me like I can be convinced to help her with my 'evil' mom and aunt who 'wish to ruin her' by trying to get her to not squander her life.
i don't think she realizes exactly how much i despise her. i do not pity her. i have not even been able to view her as a human being in close to a decade. mom was finally recovering when that woman begged her to move in and help her. and then she drained her of every cent, bullied her at every turn, and when there was nothing left for mom to give her she started demonizing her to everyone who would listen just to try and guilt someone else into her slavery. my mom gave her everything she had and today she had the nerve to say to mom that it was her own tact with money that allowed us to move and stay off the streets for our years up north.
no. we were trapped in that house for ten years while she put household aesthetics ahead of living requirements. she made sure the counters had a pretty stonework topping while we had no fire alarms or central heating, in the northern-US winters. she forbade us from cooking up family-sized meals from the fridge because it was 'expensive' and 'wasteful' not to let her do all the cooking, while she would go out and purchase whole lobsters and boxes of steaks, with CASH, to cook up for herself only. she would blow off her money on shoes and patio furniture and a special second tempurpedic king mattress while the upstairs bathroom was in such a condition that mom and i couldn't bathe. mom ended up paying most of her damned bills just because she couldn't be bothered to put aside any money for dang water or electricity while she was so wrapped up spilling what little welfare gave her on petty bullcrap. no, grandma's 'financial expertise did not keep us off the street, and it sure as hell didn't help us move. it was my mom's bending over backwards non stop all those years that kept a roof over our head and we got to move because my slackass father finally miraculously caught up on years of missed payments he owed her. i really wish my mom hadn't helped her move down with us. she could have left her in that god-awful house in that skanky ass state to be foreclosed on and she would have dang deserved it for all the times she's made mom cry. my mother has been a dang saint to her all these years and she treats her like garbage in return. she claims to have disowned an old 'friend' for hurting my mom but i'm pretty sure it was for some other selfish reason, because she obviously doesn't mind hurting her herself.
she's been whining and sucking off mom and aunt at every chance since she got here, and they were going to help her by taking over her bills again and helping her with a savings account. but now that her divorced husband has died, she's getting more money and suddenly she doesn't need mom or my aunt anymore. she whines about how they want to take from her when they've been struggling to keep her living condition in tact for the last two years, in spite of her idiocy. the woman has recently dislocated her shoulder and the first thing she wants to do when she finds out she has money is repaint the rented house she's moving out of. she's whining about how she's in too much pain to even get into a vehicle but getting medical attention doesn't even cross her dang mind.
mom didn't have to help her move with us. it was mom's money and grandma had been abusing her for years. mom could have easily just left her up there. but she didn't. she gave her space in the moving van. she helped her set up a home down here. she drives her to the grocery store every week. she helps her out of bank complications. she tries to help her keep her Medicaid up to date. she buys her gifts for the holidays.
ironic how i'm the only one here who has ever intended her harm, and yet she treats mom and aunt like they're the enemy while they keep putting their own lives on hold to protect her. too bad her sleazy, manipulative personality prevents anyone from being able to protect her from her own blundering stupidity.

oh man, it seems tough living with such a cruel person
well, what you've got to do is let your mum
and aunt realise what she is like, get it in their heads
and get her to move out and/or treating her the way
they do!
it's not fair for them to be treated like crap and give
the bully royalty.
good luck <3

Okay.
I've had enough, and the mods have obviously had enough with me.
I'll be leaving tonight. I hope I'll have another chance to keep playing my favorite game, but latley it hasn't been very kind to me.
So I don't know what I'm going to do.
I wish more than anything that I could have another chance but this would be my 4th. I'm going to miss everyone here, but I can't do this anymore.
Goodbye. I hope you'll forgive me. All I've ever done is hurt people. And I usually like it.
So I'm an awful person and everyone makes that 100% clear.

the mods are fine!
don't worry
you've done nothing wrong, don't worry.
but if you are leaving, we'll miss you loads,
you're such a sweet person.
good luck <3

all the bickering in here is just :+)
hahaha also i love having my sexuality negated and i really really love feeling unloved and unwanted and coming for support and finding my actions are causing someone pain :+)))

boooooo i love youuu <3
in fact, i'm extremely proud of you for finding out who
you are. i want and love you, don't feel the opposite <3
some people are just ignorant, ignore them and just know
you're better.
good luck <3

went to see the psychiatrist for the first time today
im exhausted lol
still cant sleep.

was it good?
i hope it was!
it doesn't happen over night, it'll
take a while.
good luck in the process <3

Have you ever had a song that had lyrics that fit a situation of yours so well it feels like someone took a knife to your heart?

Well I did. Yowch. I just really hope my friend comes back. He keeps saying he's trying his best, and maybe he is, but I'm really worried about him. I know he works a lot, but I only get to message him once or twice a month now... And only for a few hours.. I used to be able to message him whenever.

Maybe I'm just selfish and a bit jealous that I can't talk to him as much . I don't know, but I know it still hurts.

it's not selfish or jealous!
you just miss your friend
maybe message him and ask to meet up one day
i'm sure you guys have a lot to talk about!
your friend is fine <3
good luck <3

I'm so angry at my supposed "friend". He gave me false information, told me it was true, and said to keep it secret....I can't believe I believed him; why do people take advantage of my gullibleness? He said it was a trust exercise to see if I was trustworthy but that's a lie. Everyone else in the class has trusted me with their secrets, why would I treat him differently? Why did he have to get my friend involved in the lie he told me? I felt happy to have been trusted by him but now i feel betrayed. He thinks im overreacting, but he literally lied straight to my face?? And involved my friend in the lie too. He seriously hates me or something idk

maybe it was a trust test,
a lot of people (like me) have loads of trust issues,
even with those who can keep secrets.
maybe just forgive and forget,
i'm sure he didn't want to harm you in any way
good luck boo <3

Just. So sick of school already.

Sure, the new teachers seem nice but everyone acts the exact same to me. Not friendly at all, besides one girl. Maybe she cares actually, I have no idea. I don't know who to trust, I honestly don't.
And, a girl who I thought I was close too who just came back from Germany is basically ignoring me completely. She's too interested in this other girl who is now on exchange from Germany. I feel betrayed.

Sigh. Third day back at school and it's going badly.
-Facedesk-
I'm sure work is going to get worse too, soon. At least for now it is easy revision.

Currently being driven insane by basically anyone right now too. I'm so grumpy and angry and frustrated and I just feel so guilty. I feel like I just argue with everyone and I just unnecessarily get angry at people and snap.
I just can't help it.
I wish I could just live in a cave where I could be alone and not let my venom get spat out at me like a snake.
I feel so awkward talking to people as well.
Being in a cave alone would be great. ;w;

I really need to vent some more, so if someone is willing to listen to me with a non judging mind it'd be lovely if you could message me.

don't feel betrayed! i'm sure your friend doesn't
mean to leave you out.
just keep your head held high in school, you're doing great
and i'm proud of you <#
i'm the same
maybe next time you're about to snap, rub your fingers
together in a small motion? it helps me when i snap,
good luck <3