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[Konata.]

My birthday this year is going to suck. First off, it falls on a weekday, which is fine, but not ideal. Also, I'm going to be home alone for it, I'm sick, it's "shark week" as my boyfriend calls it, and I haven't been sleeping. It's a milestone birthday too and here I am feeling sorry for myself. I mean, I know I'll get a present, I just feel bummed. I don't want to be sick and cramping in bed for this.

Me too^^ I was sick on my birthday and didn't really eat much. I had a chocolate on a cake and my parents threw it away because they thought no one was eating it. I was really bummed out but the wii u fixed that for me! I played with many cousins and friends like Nintendo land. We had our funny moments, and because of this, it wasnt a horrible birthday. I did get some money and I got to buy some stuff ^.^

[SnakeBean]

i really need a pm, please.

Pming

[bergamot.]

I honestly don't know. What is happening with my life?
This year has been really hard for me. My dad lives all the way across the country from my mom, and earlier this year I thought I was going to go live with him. I got there, and the school sucked, and I just could not deal with leaving my mom and all of my siblings, and I made made up my mind to move back. When I expressed this to my dad, I saw a side to him that I had never seen before, and it scared me. He said some very hurtful things to me, so bad, that I literally could not believe he was saying those things.
I continue to receive hurtful and depressing yet passive aggressive texts from my father, and it is beginning to way on my conscience a bit. Also, my mom brought up a new and very scary topic for me today: High School.
Okay, so high school isn't that bad right? It's fun right? Everyone gets through it, right? Well, I don't know, because I haven't been to public school before, and now my mom has decided to send me to high school this year. I am SO FREAKED OUT! I have no idea what to expect. I don't feel prepared, or ready for the amount of stress and homework. I don't think I have learned enough to be at the level I need to be, and I am so worried I am going to be a failure.Also, I am not on the internet that often; I am only on for CS sometimes, or to check my email or to practice math on Khan Academy. So, I get socially awkward when people bring up social media because I don't understand it.
I just want to curl up and cry and cry and cry away all of my stress and anxiety.

[ThunderCedar]

Well... what can I say? I went from hero to zero. ;;
My life has gotten to a point where I can no longer catch up with anyone.
I miss being normal.
I want to drop out of school. ;;
How disappointed on myself do I have to be? ..
Ugh.
Ugh.
Ugh.

[ghost queen.]

i have a scratched cornea, fighting parents and alarms i need to wake up to for school in the morning.
it hurts to close my eye, leave it open, etc. but i need it to see bc my left eye is messed up (vision) and i want to stay home tomorrow. edit; so much for staying home. my eye is killing me
im draining myself of energy until i can't function properly and i can't stop doing it. i really just need to sleep.
my anxiety levels are skyrocketing.
im scared of everything and everyone.
i can't help but bottle everything up until i break, and im going to end up breaking soon and i don't know how many people im going to hurt besides myself and im scared.
im scared and i really just can't right now and i feel like im disappointing everyone no matter what i do and I really can't take it. im so sorry, i really just want it to stop.
i see everyone else getting things bc they're "upset" and stressed, but when im going through hell, and having to pick myself up because no one cares enough to help me, all i get is a "i'm sorry, ghost" and then it's like im not even there? i just want to be cared about and get things sometimes, is that too much to ask? too selfish of me?

[trans]

ahhhh im suffering and it's only tuesday :']

[MoonStone00]

Welp my girl time is so intese right now that when ever i do anything wrong or even drop something i burst into tears. Im in so much pain im lightheaded and feel like im gonna throw up. Nothibg is helping.

[Nolan]

ahhhh im suffering and it's only tuesday :']

Not sure why day of the week has anything to do with this. Unless it's school related, then now it's Wednesday so the week is half way over. Three day weekend is soon, if you're in America of course.

Welp my girl time is so intese right now that when ever i do anything wrong or even drop something i burst into tears. Im in so much pain im lightheaded and feel like im gonna throw up. Nothibg is helping.

Usually because of puberty. Or your period rolling around. Similar things have happened to me, I usually just laugh it off. Just do things that make you happy to distract yourself. Usually works for me.
If this is your period...take medicine for the pain. Use a heating pad if you have one too.

[Checkinder]

My depression has been really really bad lately.
My parents are acting like they hate me. They have no sympathy for me anymore. All I want to do is stay away from school and from all the bullies but my parents keep forcing me back.
They know how much I hate it here. They know how much harm it does me. They don't care.
I bet they wish they had my cousin as a kid instead of me. I'm just a mistake and a failure.
If they really cared they would have talked to the school. They would have done something instead of making empty promises and telling at me.
I hate being home. I hate being at school. I hate being at the job I was forced into.
I don't want to turn 18. I don't want to be an adult. I can barely survive being a KID.
I want to talk to my sister about it. But she'll just ignore me or hurt me some more and, like always, my parents won't do a thing about it.
I feel like they hate me. I don't blame them. I even hate myself for being such a disappointment and a failure.
They think I'm lazy. Even my DOCTOR agrees with them, when he's the same person who diagnosed me with depression, which is known to make people lack motivation. And what do you do when you have no motivation? Nothing, because you have no energy to do anything! My mom out of all of these people should understand this, since she has it to.
But hey. I'm the youngest. I'm pretty here to be the punching bag.
I've told so many people what I go through. Some laugh it off. Some promise to do something but never do. Some just use it against me later.
I've been so depressed that I can't sleep. I'm barely hungry anymore. My legs feel like they're being ripped off. I'm always tired. I can't focus anymore on anything, be it school or something I actually enjoy(ed).
I feel like an empty shell of a human.
I can barely feel emotion anymore. All I can do is cry. Meaningless.
I'm so tired of everything.
I'm tired of everyone fighting.
I'm tired of being hurt.
I'm tired of feeling so numb.
I'm tired of being TIRED.

[Khnum-Khufu]

I can't believe i have been this stupid. On a party i accidently told something i wasn't supposed to, to everyone. And my crush got incredibly mad at me, since it was the second time i didn't watch my mouth. While he says he isn't angry anymore i just... feel like he still is. Or at least, dislikes me now. I really hate myself for it, and i want to make it up. However, i've been trying for weeks now to invite him over and just.. do fun things? But he doesn't want to, saying he doesn't like coming over if there's just 2 people. Every time i get the idea that he just doesn't want to see me and it's always in the back of my head.

I'm afraid to go to him at school, afraid to go to the group of friends i usually hang out with (because he's also there), afraid to text him, afraid to ask him to do something together... While he has now agreed to come over with a group of friends, I feel like he just does that for the group, and maybe a bit for me so i won't be too sad. I just... don't know what to do, i really want to make it up but i fear that i ruined it for good. What should i do?