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[xX0disappearedX0x]

man it sucks being so self conscious about my body

I can barely walk out of my house wearing a dress or tank top without feeling awkward

Same

[nyacinth]

this is probably really stupid but
My brother came round to my house earlier to ask about a late Christmas present I haven't done for him yet, and I remember seeing him looking at a painting on my desk that I did a few months ago
I haven't touched it in a while and not since I saw him looking at it, but I can't find it now? I've looked everywhere, on the floor, downstairs and I still can't find it
I have a feeling that he might've taken it and I don't know what to do
I can't just ask him "hey, did you take a painting from my desk?" Because what if he actually didn't and I'm just being stupid, and he could easily also just lie

I'm mostly just confused and shocked that he'd do something like that, we used to be best friends when we were younger, and he's an adult now. You would've thought he would've known better. He used to be so nice...

[fika.]

Please
I don't want to go to the stupid hospital
I don't want to go to that stupid person who I DONT EVEN KNOW THE NAME OF
Just to have them tell me
"Hmm, let's see... She's overweight, doesn't like to exercise, doesn't have many friends, hates other people, and is shy to the point of hostility... Let's stick more needles in her so she'll magically have all these problems solved, because clearly just leaving her alone wouldn't do a thing and she totally won't throw things at us and have a tantrum!"

*takes a deep breath*
Please, mom, doctor that teases me saying I enjoy being there even though he knows I hate going there, and everyone else who thinks this is a good idea...
I dont want to go and have more people telling me I'm weird.
I'll glue myself to the chair in the waiting room
I'll not say anything at all to that social help rat no matter what they threaten to take away from me
I just want to be normal for once, thank you very much

If you're going to take the doctors' side, please don't reply. Thanks.

i am not taking the doctors' side c:
don't throw a tantrum
but let your voice come out
tell your family how you feel, and that you'll
try to change without the help of that hospital
say you'll start to become the ideal weight the doctor
wants you to be (you're still beautiful no matter what though)
it's okay to be shy like that
if you want tips on how to be healthier i can pm you a few!
i hope you don't get forced to do anything you don't want
good luck <3

this is probably really stupid but
My brother came round to my house earlier to ask about a late Christmas present I haven't done for him yet, and I remember seeing him looking at a painting on my desk that I did a few months ago
I haven't touched it in a while and not since I saw him looking at it, but I can't find it now? I've looked everywhere, on the floor, downstairs and I still can't find it
I have a feeling that he might've taken it and I don't know what to do
I can't just ask him "hey, did you take a painting from my desk?" Because what if he actually didn't and I'm just being stupid, and he could easily also just lie

I'm mostly just confused and shocked that he'd do something like that, we used to be best friends when we were younger, and he's an adult now. You would've thought he would've known better. He used to be so nice...

it's not stupid!
maybe talk to him, it doesn't sound stupid
asking that. he could lie, but he might not. there
is no harm in asking. just be like "yo, so i had this
painting and caught you looking at it. did you possibly
pick it up and misplace it" or something subtle like that c:
good luck <3

[[deleted user 39490]]

I can't stand this mental torture. I beat myself up all the time, I live in constant confusion and am unsure about everything. I hate it so much.

My mom is quite great at messing with your mind, always making you feel like you did something wrong. She's so amazing at being passive aggressive. That's not sarcasm by the way, it's hard to make me feel like this, to make me feel like I'm insane. To make me question myself like this and always feel like this. Always feel insecure and always questioning myself. Sure, my dad wasn't exactly the kindest all the time, but at least he was direct. Direct I can take. Tell me I'm a liar, that I'm terrible, that I'm going to fail and be the worst. I will take it, cry, and get over it. It's this mental game she plays to get what she wants, to get the effect she wants.

Every day she uses another sickness to get a reaction. "Oh, today I feel tired and can barely see and the world is spinning. I hope I don't die. Doing all of this work is going to kill me." Every. Flipping. Time. The first few times I felt bad and fell for it, but I highly doubt she's dying every other day. She also does this thing where she's passive aggressive to make you feel bad. I asked how she was when she woke up from her nap because she seemed pretty cranky. What did she say? "Oh, I'm fine. I mean, I hate that I have to wake up only to clean dishes. I wish I wasn't the one doing this. Oh, but don't worry about me, go ahead and go. I'm fine." Usually, I fell for this and would say, "No! Let me do it!" but I'm done. This time, I literally said, "Okay. Hope you feel better." and walked off. I can't stand this.

What happened just now? She made dinner for me, three of my brothers, one of their girlfriends, her, and my stepdad. Me and one of my brothers sat at the table and were joking and laughing when she said that we should go into the kitchen and eat, where they all were. I said okay and went in with my brother. What did she do then? She said, "You guys eat here." and took the rest of them into the dining room to eat. She said that we were being too loud and that we only talked about video games and cat videos. The night before, when I sat with them, I talked about what they were. In a matter of fact, I barely spoke because I wanted to let them speak.

Now I feel like I've done something wrong, and don't know what I've done wrong. It's tearing me up internally. I hate it so much, and don't know what to do. I hate myself and my sensitivity and my always wanting to please others. I hate that I always blame myself for everything, and I still do.

I can't do this anymore.

[4everHallie]

(Sorry got posted twice, my internet is slow and I double clicked!)

[4everHallie]

I've never really posted here much because I don't feel like my problems are as bad as some here, but I Would still like a little comfort a place to rant.

First thing: my roommate. While she is an awesome person she does not and will not clean ANYTHING. And when she does 'do the dishes' she can't seem to get them clean, uses cold water, and only fills up our tiny drying rack before she expects me to dry and put things away. I would not mind this, but I take out the trash, I vacuum, I clean the bathroom, I do the litterbox (for her cat), and I buy 80% of the food. I have 2-3 classes a day Mondays through Thursdays And work a part time job every hour I'm free. My roomie has the entire weekend and friday to herself without anything to do and can't clean? My roommate will not get a job because then she could not collect the welfare money she gets every month for a genetic problem that just causes her to have stiff joints. But shes perfectly fine, she runs a mile every day and when I go with her It hurts me more than her because I had a foot operation a year or so ago. I'm never looking to bash her, but I just want her to care about something you know?

Problem two: Today I broke the first electronic device in my life. I now have a phone that only will charge to 46% and has a HUGE spiderweb crack in the center of the screen. My roommate's cat jumped up and knocked it off the table, and despite the screenprotector and the case, it landed centered on a pointy object. Now it's not a huge issue that I broke it, I'll live even with the hurt pride, but it's an issue to me that my parents won't buy me a new one. I know that sounds REALLY spoiled of me, but hear me out; I have a twin sister and she breaks EVERYTHING. She has broken: 1 laptop, 3 Ipads, and 4 cellphones, the last one being only about a month ago and every time my parents replaced everything right away. My parents tell me this is because she doesn't have a job. Well you know what? I don't have the $200 to buy a new one! I HATE spending cash on myself. I'm a very conservative person and I've probably spent less than $100 on myself in the last two years. Why should my sister just a new phone but not me?

Life issue3: So my parttime job is at a coffee shop, nothing to cool and it's minimum wage, but whatever. Today my cash draw was about $40 off, and I know exactly where it went. A Customer came in, ordered a latte and gave me a 50. I gave him his change( $45 something) and then went to make his latte. When I came back with his drink he complained I never gave him his change, I nicely as I could told him I did (I even remember because I asked him if he won't mind two 20s and the five in ones because I was out of 5 dollar bills) He get real huffy and called over my manager. She gave him the cash and made me apologize. But when the final tally was in, I was short. It was a totally different manger that finally let me leave (45 min after my shift ended) and she still thinks I took the cash. It will probably be docked from my pay If I can't get the first mager to vouch for me. But that guy probaly made about as much as I did on my 8 hour shift in a two minute scam. What is wrong with this?!

Well thank you if anyone read this, I feel a bit better typing this out and I'm always happy to talk to anyone for whatever reason.

[arabella !!]

man it sucks being so self conscious about my body

I can barely walk out of my house wearing a dress or tank top without feeling awkward

-Hugs tight-. You are beautiful inside and out, and I will tell you that you're not alone. Keep feeling proud of yourself! <3

[kiwikweenie]

gives a hug to each and every single one of you. <3

I've been trying to let go of something for awhile, but I always fail. It's strange, no matter how much I hate it I get sucked back in. Then I don't hate it for awhile, then I do?? Strange feelings, very strange...

I dont understand myself tbh its like two different people playing tug-of-war rip

[leverage]

So I don't normally like complaining over trivial things on this site, but my dad found literally the #1 way to drive me mad.
So at dinner, my dad was like, oh, you should play some saxophone for me.
As background for this, I'm an avid musician who has been playing saxophone for about eight years now in concert band, marching band, and pit orchestra. My dad doesn't know much about the music world, but last month for my birthday he and my mom bought me a rather expensive good condition nearly professional grade tenor saxophone. I think he likes to know that his money was worth it, because every so often my dad expresses that he'd love to hear me play something.
So, I lug my saxophone upstairs (as a general rule it's best not to drive everyone around me mad with my saxophone, as I play rather loud on some music) and begin to warm up after letting him know I'm planning to practice and he's free to join me as I do. I spend a few minutes orginizing my reeds then about ten minutes warming up, all the while waiting for my dad to show up (his words when I said I was heading upstairs to practice were, "I'll be up in just a minute"). Still no dad.
I spend a bit more time messing around before I give up on waiting and just practice my music. I run through most of the entire show for my pit orchestra before he shows up, and even when he comes up he's messing around with his tablet which apparently isn't working and clearly is paying no attention to me.
Honestly, can you get too much more annoying? Considering I had already practices earlier in the day for a long period of time it wasn't as if I needed to practice tonight, and as my instrument is heavy and I don't have a proper chair for instrument playing it hurts my back to practice at home. And he couldn't even be bothered to listen!
Ugh. It's stupid, but honestly it just bugs the hell out of me when I go out of my way to do something for someone who can't be bothered to pay attention.
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Sorry this is a rather stupid rant. I just sort of need to rant somewhere? Thanks to anyone who read through all of it honestly.

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[storme]

man it sucks being so self conscious about my body

I can barely walk out of my house wearing a dress or tank top without feeling awkward

-Hugs tight-. You are beautiful inside and out, and I will tell you that you're not alone. Keep feeling proud of yourself! <3

thank you and thanks to everyone who replied <3

it's hard for me since many girls in my school walk around looking amazing and here I am standing in my sweatshirt and leggings, haha. Thank you though I do feel better <3