| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[IkuinenFox]

I've dealt with so many stabbings through my back from people who I thought I could trust. I wondering why has no one ever told me I was annoying. I was hyperactive. I don't want to grow up like they have. I prefer to be my usual childish self. I only asked one thing. I only asked for acceptance. I told them what were my deepest dark secrets. Then they stab me in my darn back! I'm sick of it! I'm tired of this betrayal that has gone on since Kindergarten. I just want to be accepted and love... I never wanted to be hated and feel betrayal. Am I really fated for loneliness like I've said to myself in the past? I hope I won't ever experince it in 2016... Then again, I will. It always come crawling up me.

[breadstick]

could I get a virtual hug from someone? im generally just feeling really down and i feel like everything that goes wrong, that every time someone is upset / disappointed in my presence is because of me, then again who am i kidding i try to smile don't i?

[IkuinenFox]

*hugs you* I feel ya... But we put a smile on even if we think its our fault.

[ghost queen.]

i really, really need a pm rn
please

[r.ddler]

Dear K

I'm sure you'll find this eventually. And I already apologized, it
really hurts to push you away. But obviously
I can't handle you and L anymore. My jealousy is getting in the way of the good
friend you used to be able to call on in me. High School stress is getting to me, and my father
is ready to explode any moment. The holidays crushed me, and now I'm punting a large part of my
life to the curb with an apologetic sticky note stuck to it's back.

I'm trying to be grown up about this.
I'm only a kid, give me a break. Do you honestly expect me
to be straight as an arrow, from experience you should
know I'm a fool.

All I asked for, were two to three days of more patience.
That's all I needed to focus and get my head together and re-evaluate.
And you, after coolly telling me it was fine, went off and implied you had suspicions this would happen.
What do you want from me? A signed and sealed letter with paper hearts spilling out of the envelope?!
I'm sorry I got overwhelmed, I'll try harder next time.

I'm only human you know.

[xX0disappearedX0x]

i really, really need a pm rn
please

pm coming

[fika.]

i always feel terrible for going to bed because it seems that's when everyone is most upset! i'll reply to everyone now (:

Sorry for the rant..

Nothing's been going right lately... First, my friends have been hiding some things
from me. I don't even know why.. I thought they trusted me, but i suppose i was
wrong. it hurts to know I'm not worth the truth to them.. they are also turning their
backs on me.. whenever i try to say something, they just ignore me. they've also
been really mean lately.. calling me out in front of people, agreeing with my bullies,
as well as taking their side.. it just hurts..

the anxiety has been getting worse. i've been having panic attacks so frequently now
that i have to take more medication than i usually do. my therapist isn't doing anything
about it, and the medication doesn't work.. it just makes me freak out more.. and with
school coming back up, it just makes life more stressful.. i've also been avoiding to go
anywhere because of my social anxiety. it feels like everyone is just standing there,
judging me..

and the depression. it's been so terrible lately. i've had sudden outbursts of crying about
things that happened years ago.. and every time the memories come back, it's like a
spear coming back repeatedly and stabbing me. it all just hurts so much.. it's like trying
to climb a wall, but repeatedly falling down and not being able to get up.. i just don't
know what to do anymore..

just live for a little while. read a few books,
find the meaning of life! maybe talk to your friends about it? about how you're feeling?
they won't know unless you tell them about it.

as for the anxiety, i have loads of things (breath with it) that can help with your anxiety and panic attacks.

each word has a different thing to help you.
what i've learned is that no one is judging you. no one is hating you. your brain
is your personal demon and wants you to hate yourself, but don't fall for it.
you'll be okay.

This is just a vent/rant I guess... but thanks to anyone who actually reads this... I just needed to get it out.

I honestly don't know what to do anymore in life, let alone why I even bother with trying anymore. I'm just a person who suffers from social anxiety, anxiety in general and depression, just like many other people in the world do. But what makes me any more special than they are? I know we're unique in our own ways and all that, that we bring our own things to the table, but I feel as if I'm just a burden to those around me; someone that constantly messes up everything and can't get anything right no matter how hard she tries. Somehow someone ends up getting hurt whether it just be one person or everyone around me including myself. It's always a mistake and it hurts me to know that this happens despite my efforts to try and be a good friend, a good person in general and so on and so forth. But what's the point when all that ever happens is it either ends up getting tossed back in my face or I just mess up in general? I just wish I could be a better person. One that could be a good friend to those around me. I just keeping messing up somewhere along the line at some point. I just don't know why I bother to try anymore.

you are not a mess up, you are not a burden, and you're definitely you.
you're not the reason that person is hurting. maybe they're just having a tough day.
just be yourself. the reason you're "messing up" (or at least you think you're messing up), is because
you're trying to be someone you aren't. just be yourself, your true friends will love you for you.

I need to get out of this cycle. It's doing nothing to help me, nothing at all.

then get out of it!
if it's not making you happy, why are you still in it? change your life!
change your style! change you, but still be you (:

| Just need to vent |

I used to be able to draw. I really did. Looking back I was decent.. And if I had continued I would be even better.
But I didn't. I stopped and gave up because I was ashamed and embarrassed that my art wasn't good eqnugh and I just.. Stopped drawing. I'm sure part of it had to do with the fact that I started online school, but I can't just say I was lazy.

Today I was listening to music and I had this sudden urge to draw. Im sure you know what I'm talking about.And I did. And I was absolutely horrible, no where near were I used to be, and I am crushed.
I took my one talent and ruined it. I have no other stills. I'm completely useless and have no function.

If I could go back in time I would.. I didn't want this.. I feel like nothing

you are not nothing.
you might still have talents! can you bake or cook?
maybe you are good at writing, whether it's a song, poem, or story.
and hey, pick up drawing again! you can't just "lose a skill", if you keep
practicing i'm sure you will get it back.

good luck <3

it's been less than two weeks and i'm sick again ;3;

tomorrow, we have to do 90x100's and i'm not prepared. i'm nervous and i just want to cry

saaame! i'm always ill. definitely not fun.
just try and get plenty of rest and try to minimise the stress in your life.
you can cry. i know i'm a bit late on this but it's okay to cry (:

So.
They STILL think I was cheating.
Well.
Great.
Real great.
I'll just be leaving now.

i'm sure you weren't!
they just want an excuse to how amazing you are at whatever you're doing.
and since you're so amazing, keep doing it! it's what you're good at!

it's really hurting my feelings that my friends are laughing at me and telling each other about my mistakes behind my back and laughing about it but whatever, my feelings don't matter to them

"friends". really? you call them friends after that?
dump 'em! find new friends! you deserve so much more

I decided not to wear make up today. My day was going fine... I was walking in a store, then I walked by a mirror. I made the mistake of looking over and seeing myself. I immediately felt ashamed and disgusted. My skin is so horrible. I just don't know what's wrong with it. I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel so embarrassed talking to people, all I can do is stare at my feet. The guy at the checkout was so nice to me... which made me feel worse because I feel like he was only being so nice because he saw my face and felt bad for me.
I can't describe how ugly and worthless I feel, all because of the skin on my face! I think that maybe if I had good skin, I would be more outgoing, prettier, and happier. But I have to live every day like this.
Every night before bed I wash my face, and it looks so horrible, I want to cry. A lot of times I will cry. This happens every single night. Tonight is especially bad... I feel like I can't even live with myself anymore. I hate living in my skin. I want to cut it off with a knife.

you. are. beautiful.
you may think it's disgusting, but no one notices!
you may think people are staring at something ugly, but really they're
staring at a master piece!
you can always go to a professional and ask them for skin tips.
are you getting your daily vitamins?
<3

I just lost my Best friend...

as in they passed away? if so, i'm terribly sorry and rest in peace.
just think of all the good times, the fun memories.
write your feelings out and listen to music that fits your mood,
cry.
just cry.
allow yourself to feel sad as that is human.

i'm here if you need someone <3

It's 2:11 and I can't sleep. I have my anxiety and I feel nervous please help.

i have loads of things (breath with it) that can help with your anxiety and panic attacks.

each word has a different thing to help you.

alone for new years eve again... yay. :c

new years eve is gross anyway!
just chill with ice cream and movies. (i totally recommend the outsiders. it is amazing).

I've dealt with so many stabbings through my back from people who I thought I could trust. I wondering why has no one ever told me I was annoying. I was hyperactive. I don't want to grow up like they have. I prefer to be my usual childish self. I only asked one thing. I only asked for acceptance. I told them what were my deepest dark secrets. Then they stab me in my darn back! I'm sick of it! I'm tired of this betrayal that has gone on since Kindergarten. I just want to be accepted and love... I never wanted to be hated and feel betrayal. Am I really fated for loneliness like I've said to myself in the past? I hope I won't ever experince it in 2016... Then again, I will. It always come crawling up me.

drop those people.
you are loved. you are not hated.
maybe ask to move schools?
try and find someone who looks lonely.
the loneliest of people are always the friendliest.
they're amazing.

could I get a virtual hug from someone? im generally just feeling really down and i feel like everything that goes wrong, that every time someone is upset / disappointed in my presence is because of me, then again who am i kidding i try to smile don't i?

it's okay to feel down.
people aren't down because of you. you just think that because the brain is a cruel thing.
you're okay. it's okay to have an off day or off week or off month.
it's called being human.

Dear K

I'm sure you'll find this eventually. And I already apologized, it
really hurts to push you away. But obviously
I can't handle you and L anymore. My jealousy is getting in the way of the good
friend you used to be able to call on in me. High School stress is getting to me, and my father
is ready to explode any moment. The holidays crushed me, and now I'm punting a large part of my
life to the curb with an apologetic sticky note stuck to it's back.

I'm trying to be grown up about this.
I'm only a kid, give me a break. Do you honestly expect me
to be straight as an arrow, from experience you should
know I'm a fool.

All I asked for, were two to three days of more patience.
That's all I needed to focus and get my head together and re-evaluate.
And you, after coolly telling me it was fine, went off and implied you had suspicions this would happen.
What do you want from me? A signed and sealed letter with paper hearts spilling out of the envelope?!
I'm sorry I got overwhelmed, I'll try harder next time.

I'm only human you know.

exactly! you're only human.
have those few days of more patience.
go hide in your room and watch movies you love and eat the junk food
without feeling bad.
maybe talk to them about how you feel, and why you're pushing them away?

good luck <3

and to anyone saying they needed a pm, i'm sending you one!

[lyriclover]

So many thoughts rushing in at once, I haven't had a wink of sleep u.u I can't stop thinking of all the things going through my head, and I can't even hold onto one thought for 20 seconds


where is that better tomorrow when I need it...

[fika.]

So many thoughts rushing in at once, I haven't had a wink of sleep u.u I can't stop thinking of all the things going through my head, and I can't even hold onto one thought for 20 seconds


where is that better tomorrow when I need it...

it's okay not to sleep.
try making yourself a warm drink.
it's okay to have a stressful time.
just take a few deep breaths.
you'll be okay^^

[Montgomery Gator]

Everyone is acting as if they run me.