| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[r.ddler]

I am a generally happy person. I'm not completely okay, but I'm pretty happy.
I am. For real.
But when these things happen, it makes me feel like I am a sad person.
I reflect the moods of the people around me because I'm such a people
pleaser. And so when my dad is crashing, I go down with him.
It's weird.
I can't feel like myself when there's other intense emotions around me.
So when things are bad in the house, I feel like my life is crumbling.
I just have to remind myself that it's not.
My life really is good.
It's just a bad day, not a bad life. I've a bumpy, but good ----- years.
So when I go down in flames just because my dad is, just because my mom is,
it's not because my life sucks. It's because I mirror other people's emotions.
I have to remind myself.
Sometimes, that's harder than other times.

Don't worry, like you said, it's a bumpy road.
It's a bad day, not a bad life. I'm sure your empathetic nature will
help you understand and sense another's emotions, making it easier in the long run to cheer them up.
I think if you just hang in there and be there for your people, you'll do fine.

[underdog,]

my friend called me depressing 5 times, earlier, i posted about this.

that's not my problem.


so she called me this funny nickname and i snapped on her saying, "that's better than depressing!"

i think she's mad at me now.


i just need a hug or an reply

[arabella !!]

my friend called me depressing 5 times, earlier, i posted about this.

that's not my problem.


so she called me this funny nickname and i snapped on her saying, "that's better than depressing!"

i think she's mad at me now.


i just need a hug or an reply

Aw, -hugs tight-. Try not to worry, it'll end sooner or later! <3

[Lincoln]

I just feel... terrible. Why did my mom disown me? WHY?
Does she not like me?
Or is she just crazy?
Oh, well. It's good I have my sister.
I miss my dog.
I miss the baby.
I need a hug.

-Tyger

[xX0disappearedX0x]

I just feel... terrible. Why did my mom disown me? WHY?
Does she not like me?
Or is she just crazy?
Oh, well. It's good I have my sister.
I miss my dog.
I miss the baby.
I need a hug.

-Tyger

*hug* I hope you feel better Take a rest or sleep ^^

[xX0disappearedX0x]

Pm?

coming

[Swordboy]

It's not working. Nothing's working. I think my depression is getting worse. I feel like I'm spiralling downwards again. Everything was better for what seemed like a moment and then life crashed down again. The anti-depressants have stopped working. I don't know what to do.

[slowtown]

now i know why your ex said you're manipulative. it took me so long to realize this. so long. but now i know and now i'm free from you. i don't care what you say about me to everyone else. but i know that you are saying things because you've done that with everyone that broke free from you. why did you text me asking if i'm alright? you know i'm completely fine now without you. leave me alone. stop sending anons that you know hurt me. stop it stop it stop it

[samm.]

I broke a tooth earlier tonight. A permanent one, not a baby tooth. Not only does it hurt, but i'm absolutely terrified of dentists, so I don't know if i'll be able to force myself into going to get it checked out =(

[a snoozing skerple]

Sometimes I worry my mom doesn't think I care.
The cats make noise and I know they're doing it but it just doesn't occur to me that they shouldn't be until she has to wake up and ask me to make them stop.
Almost every night I forget whether I've already hugged her before bed. I forget a lot of things, but I shouldn't be forgetting that. Especially not multiple times in a five minute period. I keep forgetting and she says I already asked that. Sometimes she says I already asked that twice. Trying to get out of the habit of asking at all before hugging, hugs are supposed to be happy, but I've been asking her that for almost twenty years and not once until we moved down here did it ever occur to me that constantly making it obvious I forgot it might hurt her feelings.
I'm constantly insulting her by accident. I try to be humorous with her but half the time I realize after that something I said implies something mean about her. She's not a confident person; she would notice. If I try to take it back it just comes out even worse. And I'm not good at hiding when something's irritating me and sometimes I worry she takes it personally. I just get really frustrated and I've started to notice lately that whenever I get really short about things she gets quieter and it feels like she's sulking. I have the temper of a child. I'm always short offline. And she's always quiet. We've been basically the only consistent friends for eachother since we left our home-state almost two decades ago and not once in that time have we ever spoken feelings with eachother. When we're upset we just hole up in our rooms and ignore eachother.
I think she worries I'm pulling away from her. We're not used to having any family nearby besides her antagonistic mother. Now we have an aunt and uncle and one of them always wants to do stuff. Aunt's been plotting to get a ranch for a while now. She's going to be our boss some day. We have to like her and I have been trying to actually like being around her and I try to be there when she's around and get used to her but I just can't get over her job. She terrifies me. Her job makes me think of so much old crap and I can barely stand being around her without breaking down. But I don't think mom sees that. Aunt responds to anger with jokes. Mom probably just sees us joking around and me trying to be near her as much as possible, and that I always act angry or freak out once she's gone.
Mom was out for xmas shopping one of the days we went to the pasture. It was the first time(that I remember) ever getting on a horse, saddling it, and it was when mom wasn't there. And when we got back the first thing aunt does is make a big deal about it to my mom. She made it sound all exciting. But I'm not nearly as mad at her for that as I am at myself, because I didn't even think of it until we got back, that mom should have been there for that. I could have said I wanted to wait for a day mom was there. But it didn't come to mind. That's one of those things that should have been a family moment, with actual close family, and I ruined it. Yet again I did something that would make her feel bad just because I'm too dang inconsiderate to take two seconds to think things over.