I'll Be Home Soon wrote:I need somewhere to start over. I don't have any "real" friends that I can hang out with outside school. My best friend(who I've been having an, almost in love, crush on) is currently dating my backstabbing ex. best friend. I can't seem to focus on my school work, I have to pretend like I'm fine all the times. I just want to give up, and stay away from anyone so I won't be super sad if I leave. I'm the filler friend of every one of my friends. They would all be okay if I wasn't at the school, I don't even think they would even know I was gone......
If only life had a reset button eh?
Life is not fair. At all. It can be the cruelest thing to you, and sometimes the only thing you can do is barrel through it. I know what your thinking "I'm tired of pretending to be okay and just turning the other cheek- I deserve none of what has happened to me as of late" Yup. I know. Sucks doesn't it? As much as it does, you just have to keep pushing on. Don't give up on school work, focus as much as you can on it. It is very important for your future. As for dating, I can't really relate for I never loved someone. I can imagine how it hurts, but if the guy/girl who left you for your ex friend did such a thing, he would not have been good for you in the long run trust me. I seen plenty of the same scenarios play out just to blow up in the others face.
Amusing sometimes I have to admit.
As for friends, be patient...I have 2 very close friends- only two. I met one of them my freshman year and the other Junior year. You don't need a lot of friends to be happy, just one or two that truly bring out you.They don't come immediately. Try to occupy the time outside of school with hobbies. You like to draw but not that good?? Practice drawing! One thing that really helps me pass time and let out anger and sadness is one thing. A pencil. I write and write about stories, my feeling, opinions I have and store them away, most likely to never been seen again. This really helped me in dark times varying from animal deaths and family issues.
Don't you ever say no one will remember you.
For one, if you really think they don't care about you, just detach yourself from them, or try to input yourself more. You don't really need to be putting yourself around people that make you feel like that. But if you truly think you can catch them and become a good friend, then go for it. No matter what, whatever you may think, you matter to someone out there. You do matter. If you were strong enough to make it this far you can do anything <3
Please do me a favor and hang in there. You are important, you are powerful...Don't let anyone think you are not, you can do this! *hugs*
Life is not fair. At all. It can be the cruelest thing to you, and sometimes the only thing you can do is barrel through it. I know what your thinking "I'm tired of pretending to be okay and just turning the other cheek- I deserve none of what has happened to me as of late" Yup. I know. Sucks doesn't it? As much as it does, you just have to keep pushing on. Don't give up on school work, focus as much as you can on it. It is very important for your future. As for dating, I can't really relate for I never loved someone. I can imagine how it hurts, but if the guy/girl who left you for your ex friend did such a thing, he would not have been good for you in the long run trust me. I seen plenty of the same scenarios play out just to blow up in the others face.
Amusing sometimes I have to admit.
As for friends, be patient...I have 2 very close friends- only two. I met one of them my freshman year and the other Junior year. You don't need a lot of friends to be happy, just one or two that truly bring out you.They don't come immediately. Try to occupy the time outside of school with hobbies. You like to draw but not that good?? Practice drawing! One thing that really helps me pass time and let out anger and sadness is one thing. A pencil. I write and write about stories, my feeling, opinions I have and store them away, most likely to never been seen again. This really helped me in dark times varying from animal deaths and family issues.
Don't you ever say no one will remember you.
For one, if you really think they don't care about you, just detach yourself from them, or try to input yourself more. You don't really need to be putting yourself around people that make you feel like that. But if you truly think you can catch them and become a good friend, then go for it. No matter what, whatever you may think, you matter to someone out there. You do matter. If you were strong enough to make it this far you can do anything <3
Please do me a favor and hang in there. You are important, you are powerful...Don't let anyone think you are not, you can do this! *hugs*
