| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[catdoqq]

so, my parents made me join a basketball team.. knowing me, i am not an atheletic person as it is.. but they know that. they don't know whats best for me. when i asked them why they are making me they told me i needed to get social. the last few practices have been horrible.. the girls make me feel like i don't belong.. they talk about me behind my back, calling me too skinny, too short, bisexual freak.. i just cant stand it. i cant take it anymore.. there's a girl on my team who always purposely trips me and rolls her eyes at me.. it hurts.. like when she rolls her eyes, it sends daggers into my heart.. i can't help that im different. i cant help it. i just wanted to be friends with you. im sorry i like staying home on fridays im sorry im not as "muscular" as you.. im sorry im not as pretty as you.. im sorry that im different.. just. im sorry for being me. but in the end, they'll judge me anyways..
help me, save me from this awful, awful world..

[goranski.]

wow i post here a lot lately
but i just can't do this anymore, i've screwed up so much by not taking risks and chances
i was given every chance to take but instead i let my anxiety ruin things again

i don't rlly need advice, just venting

[elf.]

im so tired of people excusing their behavior toward me or refusing to apologize because "they were just messing around" or "you're too sensitive" or "they didnt mean it!" well it hurt me, so cant you at least try to make things better? im not asking much but i feel like crying and you dont even seem to acknowledge it.

[wane]

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I have a PE written tomorrow and my grade depends on it. I can't get an A in everything else and have PE pull down my GPA. ;v;

[♥ fefetasprxte ♥]

***Trigger Warning***

* ugh, don't you love it when you are finally able to be openly pansexual only to be called "dirty lesbo" behind your back?

* I keep getting sadder and sadder, and the only thing that makes me happy is the internet.. and people yell at me for being on it so much !!

* people in real life suck, internet friends are better. "THEY MIGHT BE EVIL !!!! YOU ARENT ALLOWED TO MAKE FRIENDS ON THE INTERNET !!!!!"

* my parents call me naive behind my back, my family is pissed at me for being genderfluid, people hate me because i want to be called by they/them pronouns.

* i want to just live happily. but nooooo, i can't because i'm athiest. "maybe you'll be happier if you looked to God !!!!!!"

* i've stopped eating. my anxiety is getting the best of me and i can't eat around anyone. if i do, i'll get yelled at for being pan, athiest, genderfluid, or salty. they say i'm going to Hell, they say that God hates me, (which still upsets me even though i'm athiest which means it really doesnt apply to me??) they say that i should die already because my purpose is useless if i'm not going to have children when i'm able to.

* all i do is draw and listen to Undertale music. that's all i do. i sit there with "your best friend" on repeat while i draw my characters as a bloody mess, because that's all i can do. i can't sleep, i can't eat, i can't stand within 10 feet of people without being insulted for being a "freak".

* people say that i'm a sick person for liking Undertale because it has lesbians and skeletons in it. i hum the music a lot, so they say that i'm annoying and that i should stop because my "horrible, gay voice" is ruining their day.

* my anxiety and depression do it again. my "friend" jokes around, saying that they don't know why they are still hanging around me, i get upset, and they get pissed, saying that i shouldnt be so serious. MAYBE IF YOU ACTUALLY LISTENED TO MY VENTING, YOU'D LEARN THAT I HAVE MENTAL ILLNESSES THAT MAKE ME THINK DIFFERENTLY FROM YOU.

* i can't think of humanity as a faithful species anymore. sometimes i wish that i could change myself, or at least reset my life, so i can fix all the mistakes i made.

[XDreamerX]

so, my parents made me join a basketball team.. knowing me, i am not an atheletic person as it is.. but they know that. they don't know whats best for me. when i asked them why they are making me they told me i needed to get social. the last few practices have been horrible.. the girls make me feel like i don't belong.. they talk about me behind my back, calling me too skinny, too short, bisexual freak.. i just cant stand it. i cant take it anymore.. there's a girl on my team who always purposely trips me and rolls her eyes at me.. it hurts.. like when she rolls her eyes, it sends daggers into my heart.. i can't help that im different. i cant help it. i just wanted to be friends with you. im sorry i like staying home on fridays im sorry im not as "muscular" as you.. im sorry im not as pretty as you.. im sorry that im different.. just. im sorry for being me. but in the end, they'll judge me anyways..
help me, save me from this awful, awful world..

Tell your parents what's going on. I'm sure they'll understand and allow you to quit the team. I know people are jerks, but you've just gotta deal with it. Life is hard, people are mean, they're awful. I know it's difficult, but you just have to get up and brush it off. Try not to listen to them. Don't let them get to you. They're just snotty brats who don't know what they're talking about. Being different is great. It's boring "fitting in with the crowd." Don't let people make fun of you for who you are. They can't change you. You are amazing the way you are. Don't ever let someone let you think any different. I promise you, it will be okay.

[reigen]

***Trigger Warning***

* ugh, don't you love it when you are finally able to be openly pansexual only to be called "dirty lesbo" behind your back?

* I keep getting sadder and sadder, and the only thing that makes me happy is the internet.. and people yell at me for being on it so much !!

* people in real life suck, internet friends are better. "THEY MIGHT BE EVIL !!!! YOU ARENT ALLOWED TO MAKE FRIENDS ON THE INTERNET !!!!!"

* my parents call me naive behind my back, my family is pissed at me for being genderfluid, people hate me because i want to be called by they/them pronouns.

* i want to just live happily. but nooooo, i can't because i'm athiest. "maybe you'll be happier if you looked to God !!!!!!"

* i've stopped eating. my anxiety is getting the best of me and i can't eat around anyone. if i do, i'll get yelled at for being pan, athiest, genderfluid, or salty. they say i'm going to Hell, they say that God hates me, (which still upsets me even though i'm athiest which means it really doesnt apply to me??) they say that i should die already because my purpose is useless if i'm not going to have children when i'm able to.

* all i do is draw and listen to Undertale music. that's all i do. i sit there with "your best friend" on repeat while i draw my characters as a bloody mess, because that's all i can do. i can't sleep, i can't eat, i can't stand within 10 feet of people without being insulted for being a "freak".

* people say that i'm a sick person for liking Undertale because it has lesbians and skeletons in it. i hum the music a lot, so they say that i'm annoying and that i should stop because my "horrible, gay voice" is ruining their day.

* my anxiety and depression do it again. my "friend" jokes around, saying that they don't know why they are still hanging around me, i get upset, and they get pissed, saying that i shouldnt be so serious. MAYBE IF YOU ACTUALLY LISTENED TO MY VENTING, YOU'D LEARN THAT I HAVE MENTAL ILLNESSES THAT MAKE ME THINK DIFFERENTLY FROM YOU.

* i can't think of humanity as a faithful species anymore. sometimes i wish that i could change myself, or at least reset my life, so i can fix all the mistakes i made.

I could say im sorta going through that aswell, im not really the person to be giving advice but--

You are you, and you can't change that. You're a very special person in your own way. If those people can't accept that, just try to ignore them the best you can. I know things are hard right now, and almost everyone says this but things are going to get better. Even if that takes a couple of days. Learn to love yourself as you are. Because you're very special and you are loved, even if you dont feel like you are. I like undertale aswell!! Its a really great game hah, but it sounds like those people are just trying to make you feel bad about it. You're aloud to like what you want to like, because you are you! If those people can't deal with that just ignore them, they'll stop eventually.

In all honesty i hope you feel better soon, just know that you are special and you are loved. Even if it doesnt feel like it

[-Cashmere-]

I wanted to make a post here, not necessarily to anybody in particular, but for anyone who needs a little bit of encouragement.

The other day I went looking through some of my old journals, and I noticed that there were many entries that chronicled my struggles and self-doubts. I remember that I felt like I would never overcome some of the things I was facing at the time.

I still have struggles, but I find them a lot more manageable now, and most of my self-doubts have gone away. I used to laugh at the idea of ever accepting myself, but somehow, it happened.

I understand that not everyone gets to have a clean ending to their story of suffering, and the fact that things could get better one day doesn't diminish the fact that you're hurting right now, nor does it invalidate the feelings you experience in your pain.

But I still wanted to share this, in case anyone can pull a thread of hope from it. I want to be evidence that sometimes when you feel like there's no way out or like better days are impossible, what feels impossible may not be so after all.

[BrainOnSka]

I guess I can't mention the people that make me happy anymore..
out of the bottom of my heart I wanted to make an Aviator hat for my friend Dr.
Because he's helped me a lot, with just the little things
like hauling drinks from the convinience store, or making me laugh.
There's no doubt that my day brightens when I see him...
But when I was talking to my friend C. About him on facebook, she just got all defensive and
said "you and Dr." So what if I like him?!
He's a great guy.. Funny, smart, history buff, a bit of a nerd,
but nice all the same.. And then when I apologized she just...left...
I mean if she were really Happy for me like she says she is,
Wouldn't she not get that way when I mention him?
Every person I get near (Or every guy at least)
she has a "Bad feeling" about..
and I believed her with Br, because lets face it..
Br was the one who kicked my shins and knees til I was black and blue..
But Dr? She hasnt Even MET him!!
I guess I can't hang out with people who make me happy.
Whatever I guess...

[goranski.]

My head hurts so bad and I just keep losing friends
The ones I do have are borderline abusive and I have to switch to a bus that I have no friends on but so do the girls from my old bus that ganged up on me and started calling me a B (which the driver did nothing about) and my only real friends weren't at school today (one of them lives 4 hours away anyways) and everybody seems to hate me and I just can't keep this up much longer
Ugh