My Immortal wrote:So, basically, I'm back at stage one. I'm being forced to make new friends because I'm basically not allowed or unable to talk to my old ones. I miss my old friends like crazy... And I suck at making new friends. Even on here
ghughdfyughdfyu wrote:pm please? <3
ecliptic wrote:my friends are all turning on me because i'm always such a pessimist omg omggggg guess i'm gonna go back to having zero friends instead of the large number of two!
arcticwolf wrote:I'm losing him. I'm losing him for the second time and there's nothing I can do about it.
My best friend, my only friend, my one and only love.
He doesn't want me anymore.
I've tried so hard and it just has never been enough.
I know him better than just about anyone and he could say the same for me. It's why this hurts me so much. I took it upon myself to confront him in person last week (because otherwise he still wouldn't have saw me) and he said "I don't know why I've been ignoring you. There's no reason why but I know it's wrong and I'm sorry. I promise it won't happen anymore." He knew how bad he's been hurting me. He comforted me while I cried from the emotional pain.
...He lied. It didn't stop. He's gone back to ignoring me.
It hurts so much to watch someone drift away from you. To watch as they slowly start to care less and less until one day they just disappear completely no matter how tightly you hold on to them. I gave him everything I had- everything, and he destroyed me.
I'm broken.
Two and a half years we've been together. For two and a half years I've been familiar with the color of his eyes, the taste of his lips and the smell of his clothes. His embrace is the safest and most familiar place on Earth but he doesn't want me anymore. We were supposed to move into our own apartment in the fall. We were even talking about marriage and starting a family together some day. We were serious about this, and now all of a sudden, he's not.
He's not just my love, he's my only friend- the only person I actually see and talk to that's not my mom. We've been friends for four years. I don't know why he stopped caring or why he started doing this. I don't know anything anymore except that I'm hurt beyond belief that he's doing this to me.
I can feel the depression taking over me again and it's terrifying. I can't escape it. My emotions alternate between waves of extreme sadness and feeling like my heart is empty. I'm so lonely and hurt. I can't handle this and the meds aren't helping no matter how many they give me. I just want to give up.
sp4cep00ch wrote:feeling really uncomfortable in my body again. When will this feeling end.
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