| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[נוריאל]

I
Am
So
Tired
Of
Demand

[abxy]

I'm so sorry in advance.
My problems are just jealousy and anxiety.
I have no reason to be crying under the covers in the bedroom, trying my hardest to stare at the screen without typing something that makes no sense because of my tears blurring my eyes.
Just ignore me.

[arabella !!]

I'm so sorry in advance.
My problems are just jealousy and anxiety.
I have no reason to be crying under the covers in the bedroom, trying my hardest to stare at the screen without typing something that makes no sense because of my tears blurring my eyes.
Just ignore me.

nobody's getting ignored, no problem is big or small. <3 everyone matters, including you! hang tight, everybody gets jealous once and a while. don't worry dear, -huggles tight-. c:

I
Am
So
Tired
Of
Demand

aw! -huggies-. :c i feel you, but everything will get better soon! <33 stay strong and feel free to pm me.

[yeentei]

i'm sorry. this might be a long post.

don't even know what to do anymore. the sudden death of someone
very close to me triggered my existential crisis. it's not getting any
better. i hate being alive. i wish i wasn't alive.

my life is pointless.

nobody understands what is happening in my life. my parents aren't
making my life any more worth living. everything is just going
downhill for me. i wish she was still alive. then none of this would
have happened. i'd still be the happy child i used to be. the child
that was free without a single care in the world.

and the body i'm stuck with is awful. although i am not overweight,
i have asthma, i cannot run without collapsing. i have a permanent
injury to my left big toe, preventing me from walking properly. i am
allergic to nuts, fruit and uncooked vegetables.

i'm very socially awkward. i have anxiety. i have memory loss. it
takes me at least 3 hours to get to sleep. i stutter a lot in my sentences
so i end up cutting off and staying silent. i have trouble explaining
things to people. i'm terrified of the dark.

see what i mean?

i cannot tell anyone how i really feel about the world. i'd be rejected.
i see everything differently to a lot of people.

i question my existence a lot. my very existence scares me. i
wonder why i can only see out of my own eyes. i wonder if i am
the only person on earth. i wonder why i exist. i wonder about
everything. and it all scares me.

i'm too young to have my life destroyed. if i die naturally, i still have
about 70+ years left.

i wish i was normal. life is just so unfair.

i wish i wasn't a human. what if i was a wild cat? i'd be free. i wouldn't
be pinned down by so many rules. i wouldn't have to worry about my
appearance. i wouldn't have to go to school. i could do what i want.

that freedom is something i can only dream of.

keeping my fears and worries to myself is the only option. living like
this is something i cannot change.

i just felt like venting that all out. you don't have to reply, i already
know that nobody really cares.

i don't know..

i'm so sorry.

sorry for everything.

[velialvia]

im so irritated. im so depressed lately. and i hate it. im running off 3 hours of sleep right now. im so irritated.... i cant sleep unless im super super tired because i keep having the same bad dreams and i wamt it all to calm down like can i at least not be depressed in my dreams?

[arabella !!]

im so irritated. im so depressed lately. and i hate it. im running off 3 hours of sleep right now. im so irritated.... i cant sleep unless im super super tired because i keep having the same bad dreams and i wamt it all to calm down like can i at least not be depressed in my dreams?

aw! -huggles-. :c don't worry honey, i've been having the same stuff happen to me. everything seems so hard right? but continue staying strong, have you talked to one of your relatives about it? before you go to sleep you can always watch a movie together or do something comforting. or you can take a nice, warm bath since that always helped me. <3 everything will end sooner or later.

[sirène]

Ugh I've been having probably one of the worst months of my life.
I usually don't go on chicken smoothie, let alone complain about my problems, but I need to vent, I would talk to one of my friends but I don't want them worrying about me.

It all started with having insomnia, I couldn't fall asleep until 3 on a good night and having to wake up at 6 or 7 I felt like a zombie the whole day, it wasn't that bad at first but after awhile the sleep deprivation begins to add up and I've reached the point where I don't even care about much, I just am tired, I want to sleep, I have zero motivation. This has ruined pretty much my entire life, I'm failing English and science, and I know for a fact that my parents will kill me if they found out. Speaking of parents, I have a really terrible relationship with my dad now, we had a good relationship before, but ever since this has started whenever we talk, we get into a fight. He yells at me because I can't get up in the morning, he yells at me when I can't fall asleep, he yells at me for everything I do to the point I'm actually a little scared of him now. My teachers have also been yelling at me, and I get tons of homework from my English and science teachers, but I am always too tired to complete it. It's come to the point that I hang out with people purely because I want to forget about my life. I absolutely hate where my life is right now, and honestly the only thing in my life I'm okay with right now is my social life. Besides that, I wish I could just be like those people who are always done their homework, have extremely good grades, are always smiling. But it doesn't seem like it will ever be that way. Even my physical health is bad, I'm underweight and I only ever eat about half of dinner now, but I'm so tired that I'm never hungry.

[hellish]

My dog just died (and also my hamster died some time ago). Our other dog bite him and he didn't make it. I know it isn't that big deal because it's dog, but it was part of our family and he was such a happy little puppy, we loved him. My father has little bite on his finger and it's purple and it really doesn't look nice and he doesn't want to go to hospital and I'm really afraid.

Also I feel so alone. My bond with people around me is getting weaker and weaker. I don't want to talk at all.

I'm so glad that there isn't any school tomorrow. I couldn't stand being there. Some of teachers over there act quite bad. They yell at us and won't allow us to speak in self-defence or so. We are just kids uh, it's obvious that we will do stupid things or that we will do mistakes in subjects they are teaching. I think it's rude to ask if we are blind (in that sarcastic/ironic way) when we don't see something in our books and so on. And they should understand that we won't always feel like learning something.

And I feel stressed that I can't draw a thing and I want to come to art school (I live in Europe where it's quite different with schools). I won't be able to make test and they won't accept me and uh. I don't know what to do with my life. I don't have any motivation to do anything at all and I have these thoughts about myself, which aren't the best. It's just killing me inside. And I can't talk to anyone in real life, because it's so hard.

[Lyren]

The friend. She's continuing. I'm now getting glares too in the hallway. Insults at lunch. Today she looked at me weird for saying I sometimes make fun of myself if I'm on the verge of a breakdown to kick in my protective alter-ego. If she thinks I'm weird for that why should I tell her why I'm sad. She says to trust her but when I trust her a little she thinks I'm weird. I can't take this. I can't take the fights, being treated like a reject. I'm sorry I'm not a complete rebel but not a complete girly-girl. I shouldn't even call her a friend. I've come home crying a lot because of what she does. Today she stood over my desk and was playing with it to talk to the kid behind me and was really grossing me out. She knows that stuff grosses me out a lot. My other friend says she doesn't hate me. I doubt that. She only seems to care about me at all when I'm having a break down and when she does she makes me look weak. I kinda want to tell the school but I'm too afraid, the girl will intimate me. I just wish my one friend would finally agree to break away. Me and my other friend want to, she gets yelled at by the others a lot. I can't stay with that table anymore, I can't stand her. I can't take anymore.

[♥kittyfaith2210♥]

My uncle had a heart attack
he has 90% blockage...
it's not like i am close to him but still