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[master of spaz]

i feel so embarrassed at myself for always sleeping at 10:45 and not at nine. just feels depressing and i get so many things thrown in my face.
i also have to present something i haven't even worked on even though it's been TWO FREAKING WEEKS
i can't even enjoy myself anymore and all the games i would play just seem so far away now
and cs is one of those games

I hope you can try to will yourself to start doing your project! I know it may be easier to not do it, or it's hard to fit time between tight schedules. I recommend you maybe stop playing cs for a while if it feels distant and you need to work on your project. Anyways, good luck on it. Maybe if you finish your project you'll get some peace at night and sleep earlier c:

ahahahah yes of course this sadness and anxiety is normal teenage behaviour.
regular breakdowns is normal.
i mean, she might not be dead.
but what if she is?
she was too young.

I am honestly so sorry about whoever you're talking about, but I want you to know that I'll be wishing her or him nothing but the best! Even if the worst does occur, just think of something comforting. It's better than hurting, right? <3

I've been fighting to change myself for the better to keep this friendship alive but my best friend just can't see it.. i mean looking back at my call log, 16 of my last phone calls were to her, and we talk an average of an hour or two each night. And yet she still claims she's not "Top priority" Even though she says that I don't need to call her.. We had a spat last night then we talked on the phone for an hour or two, just talked and I thought maybe just maybe everything was better and then log in to facebook this morning and find this message that reading back over it now it brings me to tears... How... How can I hold on when she just wants me to leave? How can I prove that I WANT TO stick it out? sorry that i ask a lot from you, maybe that's why you treat me the way you do, or let your phone die when we talk...i hardly ever get to see you. Why are we still friends?? That last part though.. It probably is my personality, I never keep friends more than a year because I always interupt and never let anyone else talk. But she stayed way longer than that. I love her like a sister. My entire family loves her more than her own family does. I. I'm just. I'm scared this is the beginning of the end. I've never had a friendship worth fighting for like this one is and now I'm losing the fight. Is it selfish to want her to stay? Because from what I read she doesn't want to be my friend anymore.. After so many years I knew it was bound to happen eventually.. I just didn't need it now....

Show her this message, maybe. Sometimes it's easier to type or write the right things instesd of saying them. She just might not know you feel this way. Something is clearly wrong if she still feels she's not a priority, and it's definetly not your fault because you have been doing more than enough, more than what a loving and devoted best friend would typically do. You're a great friend, and she has to see this sometime. For the best. <3

My friend (we'll call him G) is having some health problems. They can't figure out what's wrong with him, so he left school early today to take more tests. I'm really worried about him...;n;

Oh no. I hope's he okay. Reality is disastrous sometimes, but hope actually works. Just keep hoping. c: I hooe he's okay. And even if something does come up, he'll get through it. c:

so i moved to california a few months ago bc of family issues, and lost all my friends. that itself had me be depressed, but i settled down and made some awesome friends. now i have to move to a new school. my old group of friends won't talk to me on anything (insta, skype, imessage, etc.), and i'm just really worried?? thanks for this thread. don't pm me please, just needed to get it all out.

I hated moving too. And I know what it's like to be ignored on text, insta, etc. I am sure they're all just away, doing something or have read your message but may have forgotten to reply. If something is up, you can't do anything and wait until they reply, so don't worry. c:

[♥ fefetasprxte ♥]

Honestly, i just want it to end. i want for fall break to happen. i want to be alone at home where i can be in peace. I want for everything to go back to normal, when nobody told anybody that i was different. back to when i could trust people. Back to when i was happier with myself. Back when i wasn't scared that rumors would break through that i'm not what everyone wants me to be. I don't need help, i don't need a counselor to talk to me. i don't want to talk to anyone about me being different, because they all tell me the same thing.
"It's just a phase."
"You're not really like that. It's just your hormones."
"It's just a part of growing up. Don't think much of it."
"God didn't make you like that."

[Kazin]

I am so sick and tired of having crappy roommates and having no real friends that will actually stick by me when I'm having a bad day. I have to be the one to contact them or to ask if I can hang out, 9 times out of 10. And the only time I get asked to hang out is if they want someone to walk with to get food with. It's bad that things have resorted to that. I don't know how to handle these 'friends' anymore. And then one of them hugs me as we are parting ways after I invited her out for a day in the city and says "I probably won't see you again" and that literally dragged down my mood so much more than it had already been. She said it with a delighted smile and her and my roommate went to spend the night at her place. Thank you. Thank you so much. And I mean that in the most sarcastic way possible.

I also thank both roommates for making it impossible to sleep. Since I got back here in late August, I have not slept through the night. And sure, I've talked to you about it, you obviously don't care. Neither of you do. You shrug and think turning off the overhead light is enough and that you don't even have to bother being quiet. And one of you has the audacity to complain about me hitting the snooze button on my alarm to the other roommate, not actually address the problem, when you do the same exact thing every single Wednesday. So there goes my opportunity for a normal amount of sleep tonight.

Honestly, I thought I could call one of you my good friends. But then I learned you were talking behind my back when I was most in need instead of trying to lend a helping hand (no, a helping hand does not count in constantly pestering "how was class?" "are you ok?") Because clearly we both can see I don't feel ok. But you don't want to further ask than that, so I learned to just shrug non-comittedly.

I miss my dog. I can't wait for Thanksgiving because it means you'll be moving out soon. And as soon as you are gone, I will not even hesitate to ignore every text and call you try to give, even though you won't be doing it. No one does. I have to contact them, and even then they never stay in my life as a friend.

I'm so sick of this... "oh yeah, we should hang out more." Well I'm tired of being the one to invite myself down. I feel like I'm intruding. And you never invite me, or even text me. I always feel so... anxious? when I have to be the one to invite myself over. Which is always. I cannot think of one time that I have been able to not feel like I am bothering someone, I can't shake that feeling. No one I know will contact me first, I am always the one to initiate conversation through text. I can't get one person to actually have an exchange with me. And it's been hard. It's been really hard, not having someone on your side makes you feel like crap, especially when you already feel like crap due to lack of sleep and anxious worryings about, well, everything.

You know, all I am looking for is someone, anyone, to actually seem to want to talk to me and care about me. I've told a few people that I'm having a rough time, and then they all shy away from me like I'm damaged, which only proceeds to make me feel worse because no one wants to even think about giving support....

And to top it all off, I got so overwhelmed and I was so tired and I was sick of roommates not being considerate that I cried for nearly an hour on my bed last night. Quietly, of course, trying to hide it. It's the only good thing that comes of being on the top bunk. Because I know you would never understand. I know. And I'm tired of the way you look at me when I am feeling down, like I'm damaged. No, I'm not, I'm really just sick of being stepped on and sick of having no one that cares. I was so tired today.

I could use a hug... That was a long rant, but it's been pent up for a while and I've just felt so entirely down the past few days. And I know I am not really going to get a lot of sleep tonight, curse insomnia and terrible roommates who nap at 6pm and then wake up at 11pm to stay awake until 4am with their lamp on that is nearly as bright as the overhead light. And who's solution to it being bright is to stuff a paper towel in it, which does nothing, and she doesn't care to listen. And I'm too passive to press the issue more. And her alarm will likely go off at 8am, and she'll keep hitting snooze until 9 or later.

Sorry for that length...

[spooktunes]

that moment when you have to keep your girlfriend and your sexuality secret from all the kids at school and your slowly dying because you want to talk with someone

[I r o n.]

They say I'm stupid, rude, worthless, idiotic.

And I suppose that this'll be the last, so I'll say this. It's not easy to tell somebody to get it under control when you only know one piece of the puzzle, oh yeah, see those three girls right there? Yeah, we were super close, but, as they say, I bring trouble and hatred, a storm of it wherever I go. Do you think it's easy to let go of it? The past? My regrets? Do I ever, and I've ran out of hope. If I was to collect my tears, there would probably be a full swimming pool.

[Lyren]

I'm tired of this. Being forced to either become a complete rebel or being forced to be the stereotypical girly-girl. One side is saying I know no sorrow since I'm not like them. Being laughed at by the others since I'm not like them. Don't wanna be black or white, I can't be the rebel or the rule maker. I wanna be me. But apparently I can't be depressed yet not change who I am. And my friend and I got lectured and told to die because we said evil was live spelt backwards. The guidance counselor said we'd be friends. She joins in sometimes with the mocking. I don't wanna change who I am for people but I can't stand more pain.

[connoisseur]

i feel like the people i talk to think of be as a big joke and just keep me around for their own entertainment or use me. im always questioning my faith/trust in my friends, and i grow guilty thinking like that. but sometimes it's honestly sounding true, but i don't know anymore.

i cant even speak without getting criticized. i cant talk about my interests and other things just because they're different.

i always try to help others and cheer them up but im having a hard time believing myself.
i think about it too much. i over think things. right ??

maybe im just being selfish

[catdoqq]

could I get a pm..?

[Captain Chomp]

I'm trying so hard. So hard to not fight with my dad, he's all I have left since my mom's passed and it's so hard because it's getting to the point where I just feel like he's better off without me. That everyone is. I can simply never have a bad day, be upset without being yelled at by anyone. It always goes to be about them. I can't get a job and people go brag about their pay check or my one "friend" constantly gets me expensive crap or give me things I don't want. I want a job...j want things for once in my life that I can work for....i just...I'm depressed. I want to just curl up sometimes and disappear. Hell if my animals even seem upset at me I get upset because they're so important to me and I just want them to love me...

[Pyromaniacal]

oml

what is your problem, quicktime player?

just yesterday you were playing well with firealpaca, now it's the lag supermarket and my dad is yelling at me for getting frustrated over "incompatible programs."

they. worked. yesterday.

ugggggggggggh can't i record my drawings in peace??