What's your current mood [V.3]

[puppyjpeg]

neutral-good, little boredish

[watermelon.]

in pain
why haven't I been to the dentist in over a year? I don't know .-. my teeth hurt so bad to the point where I can't even bite down on things.. yay

[bvrd]

rip pup,,
mmmm

[My Immortal]

Sad. Just love me, someone.

[harv]

sososososo happy!! i got my speech feedback today!!

basically. my speech was about talk therapy!! and i went over stuff like who sees a therapist, how therapy works, why it’s nothing to be ashamed of, etc.. then i decided to make the speech a lot more meaningful and threw in what i go to talk therapy for (especially since nobody ever had a clue because i'm a very loud person who's almost always laughing, and knowing this fact i decided to surprise everyone and assure everyone that therapy is a big step in the right direction for everyone) and i just got my feedback today and i’m just. oh my god.

when i finished my speech, i saw a people smiling!! people came up to me and started hugging me and complimenting me on my speech. after i finished, 3 or 4 told me i did a great job, then after class 5 or 6 people approached me and said i did an amazing job and 2 people hugged me. i’m just so happy!!

and with my feedback, despite my feedback being pushed back a day due to time, a toooon of people raised their hands (which was unusual because most people don’t remember what their feedback is by then lmao) and i actually can not forget what one girl told me in front of the class:

“i see a therapist, and when you asked us to raise our hands if we have seen a therapist before, i was really scared to raise my hand because going to therapy is something that i’ve always been ashamed of, but after i heard your speech i warmed up and i feel like therapy is something i shouldn’t be so ashamed about.”

ghfhgidgid i’m just so happy and i really feel like i’ve. did something. HHHH!!

[amicia]

just really bland for some reason

[- ; bonk!]

feeling pretty good. c: ♥

[Normal]

I'm at the end of the rope, this is really bad. My environment is torturing me.
For a moment I could forget about things when my mom mentioned my step dad might go to China for work, and I thought about how awesome chinese art and nature is. I shouldn't of asked "Won't all places get as populated as china eventually?" because her anwser was that eventually everything will end before that because it says so in the bible.
Overpopulation is terrifying if you think about it,
and so is any type of eternity.
So I feel worse now.

[hiraeth + hound]

ugh

dont you dare cry
dont you do it

i've had a really amazing day and i have all these weird butterflies like
im actually important to someone for once
i really feel, that im important and i have a purpose to one single person for one frecking single time in my entire life

but im just being pathetic over this and acting like some dumb lovestruck twelve year old boy.
i feel so dumb and it's not cute and
ugh i hate myself

[Caelus]

i get the feeling that i need to go to the mental ward right now. im completely unstable. its been over a year and a half. its been that long since i was last like this. one person was the reason i was able to snap out of it.
but hes gone now. i dont trust anyone else. all my friendships are built on falsehoods.
i want to cry and plead and tell someone, anyone, the extent of this. but i cant ever bring myself to.
is it worse this time? i dont know. it feels like it. it feels different.
but at the same time, im completely numb to it. it feels like theres a crushing weight on my chest and a gaping emptiness in my stomach.
is my new coping method shutting down and becoming an emotionless robot?
sometimes i feel like i deserve to suffer, anyway.

man, what would my real life friends think of me if they saw these posts?