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[raezel]

sooooo has anyone here had an MRI done before? i'm having three-- i thought only one up until a little bit ago-- done tomorrow and monday (more than two in a day is harsh on the patient, apparently) and i've never had it done. they're doing it on my cervical (neck), thoracic (upper back), and my lumbar spine (lower back) to help get a clear picture of my back. i've posted here before but long story short, i have scoliosis, and now it's at a forty degree curve and we're clueless as to why it progressed 10 degrees in a year and a half despite me being done growing. i'm also having exhausting and crippling pain in my back all the time and i guess they'll try to see if there's something going on that we've overlooked before as just simple back pain.

i guess good thoughts and/or prayers are very appreciated. if you've had an MRI done i'd love to hear your advice and experience. i don't expect it to be a wonderful experience but.. knowing how to go through it making it the least anxiety-ridden experience would be lovely.

I have this Youtube channel
But some boys laughed at me about my one funny video of me singing
3 dislikes
One comment from a boy in my grade saying "Please stop"
:c
I just want to be popular
and liked but apparently making videos is not helping
I just might stop making them then

first of all, i'm sorry you had this experience. people are awfully rude and mean sometimes, and it sucks that you're the one that they choose to pick on. if there's a way of deleting their comments (i'm not sure of how youtube works), i think that'd be a good idea if that will make you feel better. i know you want to get popular, but if it continues, i'd say that disabling comments might be a good idea too. however, being popular isn't everything. if you make those videos and it makes you happy, do it for the sake of you just being happy! you don't have to be popular, even though sometimes at younger ages it seems like the most important thing in the world. i used to think like that too so i understand what you mean. you just kinda have to learn that popularity isn't everything, and that you just need to do the things that make you happy because they make you happy, not because they make you popular. also, people don't catch on and get popular overnight, no matter how many videos they make. if being popular will really make you happy, that kind of stuff happens in time. keep your chin up, dear! don't let the people that bring you down and pick on you rule you. be happy despite those who bring you down. they want you to be upset and be depressed and you just have to be strong and remain positive! that's the best thing you can do. if you want to pm me feel free. i hope your situation gets better. <3

[The Fifth Spirit]

I have this Youtube channel
But some boys laughed at me about my one funny video of me singing
3 dislikes
One comment from a boy in my grade saying "Please stop"
:c
I just want to be popular
and liked but apparently making videos is not helping
I just might stop making them then

Your talent might not lie in singing, that's all. Find something else and give that a go. And who cares what those guys think about your video? At least you have the courage to post yourself online and be proud of what you've done.
And why do you want to be popular? I understand someone wanting to be liked, but popularity doesn't gain you anything. And from what I've personally witnessed, popularity gives you a lot of fake friends who'll turn their backs on you in a second. I suggest trying to find a few people to be really good friends with, because then you'll have strong friendships, instead of fake ones with a whole bunch of people.

[Montgomery Gator]

I have this Youtube channel
But some boys laughed at me about my one funny video of me singing
3 dislikes
One comment from a boy in my grade saying "Please stop"
:c
I just want to be popular
and liked but apparently making videos is not helping
I just might stop making them then

Don't stop the more you show them that you care the more they do it because they feel bad about themselves
just keep going
all they want is your attention.
you are important to way more than 3 people
kittyfaith
stay strong
carma will make a comeback
all this bad stuff will turn around be good someday. Trust me
*hug*

[Pudd;]

Ugh. I really need some advice right now


Ok so I have this math test tomorrow, and I don't understand a single thing that we've been learning. When the teacher is explaining stuff to us, I just can't comprehend it so I doodle on my paper instead of paying attention. Now I'm trying to study for this test but it's so confusing, and the teacher's really scary and I'm just really stressed right now....honestly I wouldn't be surprised if I failed the class.

When you do not understand something, you ask questions. Never draw in class unless allowed. You do not want to fail or go to summer school, do you? School is much more important then you think, or I hope you know it is. Instead of playing chicken smoothie you outta go on a math website and study and work on your skills to pass your class. There are videos online as well and the teacher's job is to help, they may have a way of explaining things. Just ask as many questions as you can. Do not take this rude, but School is so important to your life. Good luck !

( Sorry if I seemed rude. )

[Swordboy]

I don't know what's wrong with me anymore. My medication isn't working, nothing has changed and it's been months. I still have the same problems I had before. I just can't control my emotions. I get mad suddenly for no reason. I cry randomly with even the smallest triggers. I hurt people I love and I don't even realize it. It's like when I get mad my personality and my thoughts completely change. I don't even know how to explain it. I don't care about anything when I'm mad. I don't even realize what I'm doing until after and by that point it's too late. I feel terrible. I don't want to hurt the people I love. I know I have depression and anxiety, that's what the medicine is for but I don't know. . . I feel like something else is wrong and I don't know what to do.

[The Fifth Spirit]

I’ve given comfort to a few people, but I feel like I need a turn in the comfort corner.
So I’m an intelligent girl in high school who also happens to be overweight. The fact that I’m intelligent (top in my class so far, in fact) is usually overlooked. Sometimes I feel like people look past all of my good qualities and only choose to see my bad ones- especially the blindingly obvious one, my weight.
There’s also this new girl in my class. We’re very similar; good grades, long, blonde, curly hair (I love my curly hair, and the fact that someone else has my exact hair bothers me for some reason), etc. But she’s skinny. I compare myself so much to her, and it breaks my spirit, honestly.
I act like a super confident person, and people buy it, but inside, I am always filled with crushing anxiety, self-doubt, and general bad thoughts about myself. Is there any way to solve this? And please don’t start off by telling me that I’m beautiful/my fat is beautiful/etc. I know it’s not, I don’t need to be lied to about it. I just need some reassurance that I can still be liked, despite my appearance.

[CucumberRandy]

I’ve given comfort to a few people, but I feel like I need a turn in the comfort corner.
So I’m an intelligent girl in high school who also happens to be overweight. The fact that I’m intelligent (top in my class so far, in fact) is usually overlooked. Sometimes I feel like people look past all of my good qualities and only choose to see my bad ones- especially the blindingly obvious one, my weight.
There’s also this new girl in my class. We’re very similar; good grades, long, blonde, curly hair (I love my curly hair, and the fact that someone else has my exact hair bothers me for some reason), etc. But she’s skinny. I compare myself so much to her, and it breaks my spirit, honestly.
I act like a super confident person, and people buy it, but inside, I am always filled with crushing anxiety, self-doubt, and general bad thoughts about myself. Is there any way to solve this? And please don’t start off by telling me that I’m beautiful/my fat is beautiful/etc. I know it’s not, I don’t need to be lied to about it. I just need some reassurance that I can still be liked, despite my appearance.

It's not lies. Like I said on this thread earlier, we can't be the judges of our own appearance most of the time.
It sounds to me like you're liked! Why else would they be trying to tell you you're beautiful?

[hoofbeat]

I’ve given comfort to a few people, but I feel like I need a turn in the comfort corner.
So I’m an intelligent girl in high school who also happens to be overweight. The fact that I’m intelligent (top in my class so far, in fact) is usually overlooked. Sometimes I feel like people look past all of my good qualities and only choose to see my bad ones- especially the blindingly obvious one, my weight.
There’s also this new girl in my class. We’re very similar; good grades, long, blonde, curly hair (I love my curly hair, and the fact that someone else has my exact hair bothers me for some reason), etc. But she’s skinny. I compare myself so much to her, and it breaks my spirit, honestly.
I act like a super confident person, and people buy it, but inside, I am always filled with crushing anxiety, self-doubt, and general bad thoughts about myself. Is there any way to solve this? And please don’t start off by telling me that I’m beautiful/my fat is beautiful/etc. I know it’s not, I don’t need to be lied to about it. I just need some reassurance that I can still be liked, despite my appearance.

Of course you can be liked! Your weight is just one quality! It's sad that people judge each other on physical appearances and not what's inside. Anyone that stares past you or judges you is one of the large population of prejudices and you don't deserve to have them as a friend! Though I'm sure you are beautiful, and if you want to get over your weight, I've found that the Omega 6 oils in fish help balance your "Teenager-y hormones" and help you lose weight and clear up any blemishes on your face! Though always keep your head high, you're going places! Especially if your advanced in school and keep it that way!

Hoofbeat

[Pudd;]

I’ve given comfort to a few people, but I feel like I need a turn in the comfort corner.
So I’m an intelligent girl in high school who also happens to be overweight. The fact that I’m intelligent (top in my class so far, in fact) is usually overlooked. Sometimes I feel like people look past all of my good qualities and only choose to see my bad ones- especially the blindingly obvious one, my weight.
There’s also this new girl in my class. We’re very similar; good grades, long, blonde, curly hair (I love my curly hair, and the fact that someone else has my exact hair bothers me for some reason), etc. But she’s skinny. I compare myself so much to her, and it breaks my spirit, honestly.
I act like a super confident person, and people buy it, but inside, I am always filled with crushing anxiety, self-doubt, and general bad thoughts about myself. Is there any way to solve this? And please don’t start off by telling me that I’m beautiful/my fat is beautiful/etc. I know it’s not, I don’t need to be lied to about it. I just need some reassurance that I can still be liked, despite my appearance.

People who like you for just your looks, are not real friends. Looks are deceiving, honestly. Being "Fat" isn't saying you are ugly. Never feel bad or unsure of yourself. You'd want people who like you for your personality and your true self. Not because you're "super skinny". Body image is such a common thing to feel, but know you're truly beautiful. Weight is just one thing about you, not your whole persona. (Forgive me if I didn't use "persona" right. )

[[deleted user 39490]]

I want to cry. I want to curl up into a tiny ball, and cry until I physically can not cry anymore. Then I want to sleep, and never wake up.

I'm not an attention-crazy person. I don't want a lot of attention, but my parents give me NONE. At all. I've tried everything. I rake the leaves, I do everything, I tell jokes, I tell stories, I try to join in conversations. My mom just glares at me and shrugs me off if I try and talk, she blatantly ignores me, or simply says "Thanks." if I do an extra chore. I don't know what I've done. I really don't.

She LOVES to hurt me. I'm not just saying that. I'm really not. You know what hurts? When you're doing your homework, watching TV, or just playing a game, and you hear your mother saying hurtful things JUST loud enough that you can hear them. "I swear, all she does is sit on that computer." "Why doesn't she have friends? I guess that people don't like her." "God. She left this can out? She's such a slob. No more snacks for her." I don't know. It hurts so bad.

She said that when we changed custody to her, things would be better. That it wouldn't be a tyrannical rule like with my father. My father, who didn't give us any free time and believed that school was your only life. At least he let us eat after school. At least he laughed at jokes and listened. At least he would look at things I wanted to show him. My mom? No snacks anymore. Going 7 hours without food wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't that I had P.E. and a 30 minute walk home after school lunch. She puts everything on times now. She's more of a tyrant than he is.

I really don't know what I did. Today was amazing at school. I got everything done, everything turned in, found what I had lost. I answered everything right, had down time, and the jerk-guys didn't bug me. I was so happy when I got home, only for my mom to ignore me. What a surprise. I tried to tell her something funny at school, and she ignored me. I said, "Mom?" and she looked at me and asked if I had said something. Then my brother came in and she wanted to hear all about his day.

It's eating me up, and really hurting me. I want to cry so bad. My self esteem is even lower than it was before. I already have zero self esteem, and now I see nothing good in me. I suck at art, as she said, I'm ugly, like she said, I have no friends, like she said, I'm not very smart, like she said, and I'm a horrible, mean, petty person. Like she said. I get bullied at school, and now at home. I used to look forward to going home, but now I don't. I don't look forward to school, I don't look forward to home. I only look forward to the walk between the two. Where I'm alone, and where I can take a few steps without an insult being thrown my way.

I don't know what to do. I don't want to give up. I'm only in high school, and have so much more time to go on. But waiting for those years until I can get into college and leave this heck-hole, I don't know if I can do it. I can't cry it out because if my mom sees that I cried, she'll act all sad and apologize. And I believe her, which is my flaw. I TRUST TOO MUCH. Then once I think that she'll finally pay attention to me again, that she won't glare, she goes back to normal. Her only "nice" time with me is when she thinks that I'll tell someone.

I hate myself, and I hate life.

I don't know what to do.