Hakku wrote:I want to quit band and be relieved of everything that has caused me stress
I think mom enjoys my sadness too much to let me do that though.
Anybody know how much college credit I can earn for sitting in a hole and seeing how long it takes me to die?
I'm running out of options.
I'll probably just get sent to the mental place they sent my little sister to.
If there were a button labled 'Do not press or you will cease to exist' I would press it without a second thought.
Can I have a hug?
*huggles* c;
hey, hang in there, okay? sometimes life is going to be tough and its going to be hard to get through the stress of everyday life. especially while we are in the dreaded 'learning years'. i have a class i am desperate to quit and I'm really struggling to do it, so i can really understand what you're going through. and moms, hah. don't even get me started c; you are talented, and it may be in band, or whatever other classes or hobbies you have. and being sad, it just drives us to people we don't want to be. but even if you don't want to exist, i hope you come to realize, you are very, very important, no matter what.
BubbleDragon wrote:I was happy, laughing and having fun, she was laughing but not as happy as I could be.
Strange how it changed so quickly.
Six of them, suddenly screaming to get me, running and destroying the grass in their path.
I was alone, and I ran, but not fast enough, so I collapsed and waited.
They came and pinned me down.
"Who's laughing now?"
My legs and arms yanked carelessly as I was dragged across the field.
I wonder how many people saw without helping.
I struggle, and flail helplessly, they let me go.
I run as fast as my legs carry me, ignoring the bruises and pain in my legs.
"See! I told you she would run away!"
I don't want to see them again.
if they hurt you, immediately tell someone ((like a parent, friend, or adult)) it doesn't matter who they are or who you are. they took advantage of you and that is not okay. if you can't run away, don't let them hurt you. it pains me, as well as other people, to see wonderful people like yourself get hurt. please don't let them hurt you like that. for your benefit. tough as it is, there are lots of bullies in this world, and lots of times its going to be hard to ignore them. but there will always be someone there for you. always. you're going to be okay, remember. c:
♥kittyfaith2210♥ wrote:i am so scared 0-0
I don't know what she's gonna be like now..
it's been only like a year but still, she spread rumors about me
she Hurt me, and now I have to see HER again :C
even if its hard, sometimes we have to cross paths with someone we don't like. but don't let that make you fearful. try to find situations where either you can befriend them, or avoid them. if she begins to hurt you again, do not hesitate to tell someone else. don't go and see her again, and be fearful. be confident, and proud that you want to start over. it may be tough, and you don't even have to take my advice, if you need more time. no matter what you do, do it with confidence, knowing that this is the right thing to do. m'kay?
BeautifulCreatures wrote:A relative just told me that I was a freak that couldn't talk to anyone let alone stand up to them. She's a good relative and a great person and she didn't mean it, but she has no idea how much this hurt me. Just because I told my sister that she should have stood up to someone who was saying bad things about one of our family member. I. AM. SO. SICK. OF. THIS. I just wish that I'd have good luck for once. I just wish that someone in my real life would understand me for once. Nobody gets me when I try to explain my OCD and anxiety to them. No one seems to notice it when I'm depressed. And when I say that I'm depressed or have been depressed? They don't seem to believe me because I try to act happy most of the time. It hurts that the people around me always seem to be too busy to notice anything that goes on with me. I know this sounds selfish, but sometimes I just wish that my friends would just take a second from their own lives to pay attention to me. I'm sick of growing apart my friends. I talked to one of my best friends today and she told me that she thought I hated her because I wasn't talking to her as much and I told her that I didn't and that she should totally message me. She hasn't yet and I'm way too nervous to start a conversation with her. I wish that I'd just get a chance to sit with all of the best friends that I grew apart from and tell them how much they mean to me. But I couldn't put my feelings out there like that because what if they didn't like me anymore and completely rejected my friendship? Is it normal to tell someone who pretty much ended your friendship that you miss talking to them? I feel so needy and dysfunctional. I'm tired of constantly battling my anxiety and having people tell me "just don't be nervous" or " it's New, just get used to it ." I wish that I was my old self and still outgoing. I'm done explaining myself to people. I'm so tired of missing chances because of my nervousness.
hi beautifulcreatures,
ugh, anxiety, friendship problems, just about everything huh? you are going through such a hard time and i want so badly to show you and tell you how much i relate to you. and having problems with your relatives is really something you can't get away from. something really important to have is confidence, and i'm not saying you don't have confidence, but more confidence in yourself, to know you can do these things. because you can. anxiety is such a tough thing ((trust me, i'm going through it)), and it really effects the life around you. but, no matter how much it gets to you, know that not only can others be there for you, but you can be there for you. you are still your old self and outgoing, you're just having a little trouble getting it out there, you'll see. c;
