| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[Irusu]

I dont want today to end
i dont want them to call me that
They hurt me
math teacher dosent give a crap
same with geography teacher
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and im worrier about looks
and people are hurting me
no friends
just wanna stay home
no bus

I know the feeling of dread when you know that Monday is coming, but you can't let people hold you back. You just have to face the future with a brave face and I can promise you that it will get better. Whoever is insulting you is obviously a bully and you need to not let them make you dread school or the bus because of them. If you've tried talking to a teacher about it and they ignore you, you should try talking to your parents or someone with more authority than them, such as a principal. Don't worry about looks. I'm sure that you have someone who would love to be your friend and even if you don't, just walk over to someone who seems to be approachable and try talking to them. I know that making friends is a lot of work, but it's possible and you seem like an awesome person, so I'm sure that it's possible. (Trust me, if I can make friends then anyone can! C:) I wish you the best of luck!

[leverage]

I wish I could make someone understand how much I need them.
I know they're busy, I really do. But right now I'm struggling so much just to get through each day without breaking down.
I miss their friendship, their companionship. Often it was all I had.
And now...they don't seem to want to bother with me any more.
I know that I'm not all that special or exciting.
But I'm hurt and alone and afraid, so afraid...
I just don't know if I'll make it through anymore.
And I miss you.

[[deleted user 39490]]

I can't take this anymore. I've tried so hard. I've done everything in my power to deal with it. The Custody Case ruined everything. My relationship with my father and stepmother, my mother, where I live, how often I get to see everyone, everything. I can't take anymore of anything. Now my mother is trying to do this new system where she takes over our lives. "You can only do this from this time to this time." "Oh no, you can't do that." All the time. I finally settled in, and my life is upside down again. I know that I'm supposed to be strong because I'm a military kid. I've moved more times than I can count on one hand, and am still moving around. But I can't adapt. Every move takes a little more from me.

Now I'm done. It's not the moving, it's not just the Case, it's everything. I hate myself. Not just insecurities, I LOATH myself. I hate me. I'm so stupid that I can't even remember basic German that I've been taking for THREE years. I'm lazy. I can't even get myself to make one of my own adoptables, and I won't even do the coding I'm supposed to. I'm just... no. I hate me. I can't even keep my own stupid mind. I'm too easily pushed, I can't say no, I spend my life pleasing others. Don't say, "You don't have to!" because I do. It's mental. What always goes through my mind is, "What if they hate me for this! Did I do something wrong?" I'm too easily hurt too. I take EVERYTHING personally and break down internally. I seem strong but once I'm alone, I cry. I weep. I can't handle it. I want to help others but I'm too shy. Everything I do is wrong, and I always screw up. My mom said she trusted me completely, and now she's putting limits. I don't know what I did! I did everything to please her. I have perfect grades, I do everything. I don't know what I did wrong and it's killing me. The best is knowing that I'm an accidental child. That I don't even belong here. I'm all screwed up in the mind with ADD, OCD, Depression, and Anxiety Disorder. If my mom is gone for five minutes longer than she says she will be, I break down, and can't calm down. Deep breaths don't work, my mind goes to the worst case scenario. I can't trust myself.

I don't know what to do anymore. There are so many things I want to vent, but I'm too LAZY BECAUSE I'M SO STUPID. I just don't know what to do. I don't want someone to say, "It's gonna be fine!" or, "You're awesome!" because I've heard it so many times... I just... I just need to get this out... I just want this all to end. I want someone in real life to be here, to hug me so tight that everything broken goes back into place. I want someone that I can cry into and hold and tell everything, but I don't have anyone. Not my mother, as she'll bombard me with stories about her own life, my father isn't that kind of person, my step mother uses it against me, I barely talk to my step father, and I have BROTHERS and a four year old sister. My friends are all in a different state, and I don't have any new ones because I'm so shy and stupid. I'm alone here.

I don't want to deal with this anymore.

[incandescence,]

I really just need to talk. I have so many insecurities.

[❝Agateophobia❞]

Hey guys... I just need a little bit of advice.
I have this friend, and she likes almost every single thing I like. Which is okay, but she annoys me so much sometimes. I'm thinking about just not really talking to her as much, but I don't know why I feel like this. It's wonderful to find someone who likes what I like, but I honestly sorta hate her for it. Please help maybe? <3
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If anyone needs help/advice, PM me! <3

[abxy]

Oh yes.
Because I have the desirable appearance I'm beautiful.
Haha no I'm not
I can't enjoy this.
I feel like I'm not human.
I want more physical 'flaws'.
I want freckles
I want a chubbier build
I want glasses
Sure I like being curvy but that's about it.

[fear the normal~]

Stop telling me you hate me.
I heard you the first ten times.
I don't want to hear why.
You kept telling me that I'm rude.
That I'm immature.
That you hate my existence in itself.
All these things you call me are the exact opposite of what my friends call me.
Are my friends lying?
Do they think I'm just an annoying little girl who hasn't had her growth spurt yet?
Why aren't we friends anymore?
We used to be.
You're popular and I'm a science fiction nerd.
So what?
While you're on Instagram I'm reading AVP comics.
You were always ok with that.
We were good friends.
Then you said one day that you hated me.
I don't understand, what happened???
Now all my friends hate you and say mean things about you and you hate me more than ever.
What did I do?
I still want to be friends.

[marmoris]

One of my cats might have another blockage, and one of the others is sick.
I can't do the rest of my homework anymore.
I don't know what to do anymore.

I'm so stressed out. We might be going to an emergency clinic.
Please, can I have some hugs ;-;

[Lyren]

I know it's stupid but this is buggin me. Our school had a health fair. Controlled chaos really. No one told us how log it lasted or when to go to class. But I saw a kid in my music class standing outside the door to class and our teacher walking towards the door ready for class. I mean me and my friends went 2 periods like the announcements said to and the teacher didn't correct me nor did the girl. I'm not marked absent or anything. But for some reason I'm nervous about walking in to class tomorrow and hearing my teacher go '____, why weren't you in class?' I know if I missed the class he'd give me a tough time about that. With the added bonus of already missing the last 2 classes do to a cold. Im afraid if I accidentally skipped my class.

[vval]

I feel really sad and stressed right now and I have no idea how to make myself feel better or get to sleep.