| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[leverage]

It is such a horrible feeling

when you look forward to something all day

and when it comes time for it all to come together

and your day to finally be good for a chance?

It all just falls apart.

[kaerou]

She's not my best friend anymore.
I'm just so mad at her for saying that, but I know it's true.
I'm just not ready for life which is what I tell her.
She makes it a big deal and makes me feel horrible.
I honestly have no idea if I can handle it. Ugh

[Lyren]

I was sick Monday and now I'm sick again. I already have to finish a lab for science but if I stay home I have more work and another lab. I won't be able to make it through the day since I have gym, trouble breathing, a sore throat and horrible headaches. Stress doesn't help either. Should I stay home or go to school?

[Uchuujin]

Really scared because I have to schedule a cancer screening tomorrow ; _ ;

Just needed to vent about it somewhere because I'm panicked and my family isn't very supportive so they're not really here for me

[Khrusolophos]

Ugh.
I have no will to stay friends with any of my friends currently.
I already ditched most of them, and the ones I stayed with really disrespect me and throw a bunch of random stuff at me during lunch and make fun of me because I'll take it, but I'm really tired of it now, especially since it's the first year of high school for all of us and they need to grow up and start acting how old they really are.
I've been getting a lot closer with the sophomores and up on the cross country team though, and I recently got close with one person in my grade, who's currently the only person I really feel a friendship with in my grade.
Just ugh.
I'm tired of being everyone's joke.

[Captain Chomp]

I can't stand handle my family.

My mom can't do crap, "oh it's because I have stage 4 lung cancer" no.it's not it's because you started smoking again. Always wants me to stand up for her but it gets taken out on me.

My dad is this ball of hate and frustration. He's so evil. I feel so hated in this household and I have no one. No one but some online friends I can barely talk to due to busy lives and real life friends that never listen to me.

I want to leave. Every night I'm in tears. I'm so angry but there's nothing I can do. Nothing ever helps.

[Emma Swan]

I'm gonna vent... I would like some help,
but it's not necessary.
So... Just over a month ago, my mom had a seizure. Now, this was extremely scary for me and most likely had the worst affect on me out of anybody in my family. I say this because I'm the closest to my mom and I'm the one who found her after just after it occurred. I had just been released from my theatre rehearsal and my mom had texted me telling me she was waiting in the car for me. So, I walked out to the car and opened the door, but my mom was, what I thought originally to be asleep. She then jolted up and looked at me, she looked scared and confused, her eyes all blurry. There was spit all over the middle console, so I started to freak out. I called out for my best guy friend, and she had ZERO idea who that was. My guy friend had to call the ambulance for me because I was having a panic attack.
- Skip Ahead -
My mom is doing better, sure, but there are still days where she doesn't feel well and doesn't remember things. She continues to tell me, "I hate myself right now!" and "I feel so trapped." As a depressed girl myself, I hate hearing my mom say these things because it just worries me more.
But ever since the incident, I haven't been able to sleep properly. I've been getting maybe 3-5 hours of sleep a night, and that is at best. I'm scared to sleep because I feel like something is going to happen to her, but worst of all every time I close my eyes, all I see is the moment I opened the car door to not find my mom, but an empty persona sitting in my car.
- Last Night -
I slept ten minutes last night, TEN minutes... I tried to go to asleep around 11 pm my time, and I did fall asleep. Shortly after though I woke up screaming and crying because I had a nightmare about my mom having another seizure and it ending severely... I spent the rest of the night crying.
I don't know what to do or how to fix this problem... This isn't good at all, and I know that, but I can't fix anything.

[A Random Moustache]

I'm failing my parents' expectations. I'm 100% sure that I will not the first in my class. My parents are more grade conscious than me. I'm so scared. They will endlessly talk to me about it angrily. They will constantly say that I am a dissapointment. They will take all of my gadgets and remove the wi-fi (because they blame everything to me and my phone). They will completely isolate me from all of my escapes and just tell me to study study study. I hate it. I feel...opressed and very sad.

My "friends", well, I feel really left out whenever I'm with them. Whenever we're walking, I'm always the one on the back. Talking? I have to ask what are they talking about. Whenever we sit during lunch, they always take the seats that are not beside me so the chairs beside and infront of me always get taken up last. I'm always the last choice.

My brother is my parents' favorite. He always gets their favor of anything. Anything goes wrong they blame it to me. Why? Is it that I'm older? Is it because he "doesn't know what he's doing yet" even though he is totally capable now? When I was his age (until now), getting 5 mistakes in a test is a mortal sin but when it comes to him getting a fail, it's o-freaking-kay. It's very unfair. And everytime my brother hits me and I (lightly) hit him back in rage (because I was literally doing nothing to him??), I'm always the bad guy. Yes, I know its still a sin that I hit him but you, mom and dad, hitting me too is another sin.

I hate everything.

[malkav,]

why did I ever think to come out at school this is awful
the transphobia I encounter is getting worse and worse
out of my seven teachers. three use the correct name and prounouns. and one of the four who don't have looked me in the eye and said that ill "grow out of it"
and this one boy in particular, who I've had problems with since freshman year, has decided he hates me
I should have just hushed up and dealt with ignorant misgendering. its definitely better than blatant transphobia :-)

[Chemicello]

Really scared because I have to schedule a cancer screening tomorrow ; _ ;

Just needed to vent about it somewhere because I'm panicked and my family isn't very supportive so they're not really here for me

I wish you all the best in it my darling, don't worry you will come through. I know it is scary but you have to be strong, and show everyone that you are bigger than anything life throws at you. I am sorry your family is not more supportive, but honestly there are people out there who will care for you and support you, just look beyond your immediate family. People on cs are here for you, including me, so if you ever want to, talk to me about anything xx