| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[hellebore]

Mom had to pick me up from school, because I couldn't stop myself from crying and I don't even know why.
Now that I've stopped and am feeling better, she's gonna have me go back. That's perfectly understandable, but I know I will start crying uncontrollably again.

There's nothing good for me. I'm a crippled human being. I can't handle the act of going to public school. Being home schooled would make colleges ignore me. I'm too depressed to do anything, anyway. My important SAE project, math packets, English work... I give it all a thought before sleeping them away.
I can't make new friends because of my problems.
I can't go to school because of these problems.
I can't get a job because of these problems.
I can't go to college, get my own place, learn to drive, achieve any of my life goals due to these problems.
These problems are controlling my past, present, and future. It's already on the brink of 'too late'.

The medications don't help. Therapy occasionally helps, but not as drastically as I need it to.
I don't want to be stuck here forever- I don't want to be stuck til it's too late to design the frameworks of my life.
I know what I want to do. I simply cannot do it.

[dudevinci]

i don't know what to do
my friend is going through horrible depression
he tried to.. y'know.. TWICE. the second time landed him in the hospital.
i'm so scared
and

on top of all this
daniel.
why did he do this?!
i'm crushed inside.
even though i never knew him
or watched him that much
i still got sad over this news.

and also
a few days ago i found out i have a mental disorder.
you don't know how horrible it is
to find out that your way of thinking was screwed up for your whole life

i'm trying to stay happy
and strong
but it's hard
very hard.

all i want is a hug.


oh god.
oh god no.
please no..

another one of my friends..
i just found out

she died.

why is this happening to me?!
WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE ALL THIS?!

[blue neighbourhood]

i don't know what to do
my friend is going through horrible depression
he tried to.. y'know.. TWICE. the second time landed him in the hospital.
i'm so scared
and

on top of all this
daniel.
why did he do this?!
i'm crushed inside.
even though i never knew him
or watched him that much
i still got sad over this news.

and also
a few days ago i found out i have a mental disorder.
you don't know how horrible it is
to find out that your way of thinking was screwed up for your whole life

i'm trying to stay happy
and strong
but it's hard
very hard.

all i want is a hug.

*gIVES YOU A HUGE COSY HUG*
okay you know i'm terrible at depression so i have no advice for your first problem ;;
but if you want to talk about it, i'm here <3

i'm nearly as heartbroken as you about daniel
it was such a shock to everyone
but he wouldn't have 'you know what' if he didn't want to...
markimoo will be fine. he's been through hell and back, he'll survive this <3
agaaaain, talk to me about it if you want to <33

seppy, listen to me. you're an amazing person.
whenever someone asks me who my best friend is, i always answer with, "oh, a friend from chicken smoothie", or, "a friend that i've known for a while"
please come online as much as you can
i want to talk to you like 24/7
i love you so much <3

[dudevinci]

i don't know what to do
my friend is going through horrible depression
he tried to.. y'know.. TWICE. the second time landed him in the hospital.
i'm so scared
and

on top of all this
daniel.
why did he do this?!
i'm crushed inside.
even though i never knew him
or watched him that much
i still got sad over this news.

and also
a few days ago i found out i have a mental disorder.
you don't know how horrible it is
to find out that your way of thinking was screwed up for your whole life

i'm trying to stay happy
and strong
but it's hard
very hard.

all i want is a hug.

*gIVES YOU A HUGE COSY HUG*
okay you know i'm terrible at depression so i have no advice for your first problem ;;
but if you want to talk about it, i'm here <3

i'm nearly as heartbroken as you about daniel
it was such a shock to everyone
but he wouldn't have 'you know what' if he didn't want to...
markimoo will be fine. he's been through hell and back, he'll survive this <3
agaaaain, talk to me about it if you want to <33

seppy, listen to me. you're an amazing person.
whenever someone asks me who my best friend is, i always answer with, "oh, a friend from chicken smoothie", or, "a friend that i've known for a while"
please come online as much as you can
i want to talk to you like 24/7
i love you so much <3

fere ;-;
do you know i was SO close to falling into depression a few months ago?
you helped me.
you helped me stay happy, like always ;-;

i know he has but everyone's so sad and uuuughhhhhh
i just want to bury myself in my stuffed animals
and bingewatch everyone all day long
and eat cookies and pizza and icecream and stuff ;-;

i'll try my best to stay the same
but it might be hard

just know that i appreciate you for doing this fere
i know how much you care for me and i care for you a lot too

and you know what?
we put so many "ily"'s in our PMs that my mom genuinely thought i was a lesbian.
i just
i dunno XDD

love you <3

[runnershigh]

im so afraid
that my girlfriend doesnt want me anymore
but she's too scared to tell me

im so afraid
that everyone will leave me
because they never liked me in the first place

im so afraid
that i'll never be able to move out
and get away from this place

im so afraid
that my disorders are ruining my life
and that i'll never actually get better

[Canis2954]

mff. another former online friend blocked me on everything.
i don't know why. i didn't do anything to provoke the long letter of things wrong with me.
tried my best to be a good friend and i guess that's all that matters!

so after 3 hours of crying last night i decided to start a positivism journal
and i'm trying to use those rude words as critique to make myself a better person.

[grim.]

*flips small child* I hate coding so much. I've been trying for like six flippin' hours to code the stupid first post for this stupid Soul Eater rp I'm gonna make, but my coding is absolute trash because I don't know how to do any of this beautiful elaborate stuff I see all over the place, plus whenever I make something I sorta like I end up hating it after five minutes and starting all over again and it's just kinda really depressing that I just can't do it. ;-;

[incandescence,]

Ugh. School.

I have to go and do my work.

It's so hard to stay motivated on Virtual School!

I just stare at the computer all day!

Worse than that, I usually zone out on CS or other sites when when I feel bored

I'm getting behind! I feel horrible that I can't stay on track.

I'm sick of traveling! If my family didn't travel so much, I wouldn't have to do virtual school.

Anyone know any tricks for self-motivation?

[duckymomo412]

i hate school
i hate bullies
band makes me happy but I'm a one of a kind player, because only me and my friend play oboe and alto sax
i really just want someone to talk to privately about life
someone pm me

[Canis2954]

*flips small child* I hate coding so much. I've been trying for like six flippin' hours to code the stupid first post for this stupid Soul Eater rp I'm gonna make, but my coding is absolute trash because I don't know how to do any of this beautiful elaborate stuff I see all over the place, plus whenever I make something I sorta like I end up hating it after five minutes and starting all over again and it's just kinda really depressing that I just can't do it. ;-;

Hey, you know what?
You're getting more and more practice each time you start over, nearing what you want every time!
Even if the final product isn't what you wanted, everyone starts somewhere and you're learning more each time.
See, you're much better at it than you were only a day ago, right? :3
-hugs-