Annoyed at myself for binging on some really fattening trail mix and it's 4 in the morning to boot. >_< Not to mention I should be focusing on writing my book (planning out characters and overall plot currently), but I'm just messing around. I'm so dumb and I keep making dumb, childish decisions. This is why I work a minimum wage job part time at 25 years old and the only thing I can see myself doing for a career is creative writing (a fictional novel even, ha fat chance) yet it's not even my number one focus apparently. Gonna be bagging groceries for a long time. >__>
Eh, I'm not really into the "everything is alright and we all love you" thing (I really hope I didn't just insult someone), I kinda just really want someone I can relate with atm. Maybe we can help each-other out or something (or maybe someone who used to have relative problems but overcame 'em). Idunno. ;___; *hugs random passerby*
Oh and I've been crushing on a guy who is probably only 19 for over a year now (we work at the same place) and I have 0 chance with him. Dunno why I can't just get over him, we don't even talk anymore. I'm not usually the type to crush on people, I have never even taken any numbers from guys asking me out before. I don't care about dating... unless it's this guy. Maybe I'm focusing too much on the past when he'd go out of his way to make me laugh or do something nice for me -- which I never thanked him for because i'd always shy away but it'd be really weird for me to randomly thank him for it now. Oh and he has a girlfriend now, so I was being serious about the zero percent chance part, lol.
*runs off to bed* I usually type better than this but... kinda in zombie mode atm. I promise I'm good at writing!
