by apollo. » Thu Sep 17, 2015 2:28 pm
@ friendly introvert I'm really glad, I hope things get better for you.
My problems school related too. Last year I actually enjoyed school a lot, I didn't make that many new friends but I had just switched schools so I really enjoyed meeting everyone in my classes, and getting to figure out the way the school worked. I (almost) always did my homework, and I got almost straight A's even when I'm in all AP classes.
This year, it's just boring. I know everyone, and I know the layout and there's nothing interesting in the school anymore. I'm in all ap classes again, I hate every single one, and math feels impossible to keep up with, I don't understand any of it, and we have a good 2 hours of homework every night just in math class. Last night I did almost 4 hours of homework, and still wasn't finished but I was so tired I didn't even bother to finish the rest.
I decided to take computer programming too which is just awful. I don't know what I thought I was doing, I literally just took it because I thought it would be like BB coding and that my dad (who knows a lot about computer programming) could help me through all of it. Apparently the programming language they start us off with is really impractical for the real world so he never learned it and he can't help me at all. And it's nothing like BB coding. I'm not good at it at all, it's like a second math class except we literally get 3 different assignments ever day because the kids in my class are so good at it, and have past knowledge of what to do, they just breeze through whatever she gives then and she thinks the rest of us can just keep up. I can't.
Everything's so hard to concentrate on and I just feel like I can't do this anymore. I try so hard to pay attention in all my classes but I just drift off, and when I'm doing homework sometimes I'll just zone out and be unable to remember how to do the math even if I read the question a bunch of times. This has always happened, but the consequences are getting more and more serious. I honestly feel like I have ADD, because I can't concentrate and I'm always tapping my leg or fingers, and I know that's normal, but I do that for hours and hours and pretty much the whole day. But I'm afraid if I tell my parents they'll think I'm attention seeking or lazy because my dad had super bad ADD as a kid and I feel like he'll compare himself to me, and I've always been able to work somewhat fine.