| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[Chemicello]

I'd love to get a PM to vent to someone, I have some things going on and I need to get them off of my chest !

Pming

[Thalassic]

why is everything always my fault? i talk about being upset and i guess that's just my own problem. not like anyone bothers to ask how i'm doing ever anyway.

It's not your fault

[M00N]

I really wish I could find a voice. I'm so cowardly, I know what I have to say is good, that it'd help us out, and that it'd work, but I'm so afraid of rejection/embarrassment...

[[deleted user 39490]]

Why is my life so horrible right now?
The last year of living with my dad was TERRIBLE, so much pressure and anger in the whole family
First the whole custody thing that spent up my entire summer
Then the nightmares about my dog dying in my arms and staring with petrified eyes, murdered by my other dog
Then my dad hating me for living with my mother EVEN THOUGH I HAD NO CHOICE IN THE MATTER
Getting diagnosed with depression
And now I have to get surgery because my flipping knees are screwed up! Something formed under one kneecap, and my stupid body made me screw up my walking so that I messed up the other knee. We had to run a mile in P.E. today, and I refused to say anything because I didn't want to be weak. It buckled halfway through the run, and I couldn't get up. I blacked out from the pain. We brought me in again, and they said I may need surgery. Why me?
It's because I'm so stupid, and so stubborn. If I had spoke up about my knee issues earlier, they could have fixed it.
I mean, I did speak up about it, but my dad always told me it was nothing, and to shut up about it. And I did. I just powered through the pain, and now it's too late to fix it without the surgery.
I thought that after a bunch of bad stuff, you were supposed to get a break!
It's been a year, and I haven't had a single break. Everything just keeps getting worse.
Why me?
I know that I don't have the worst life, not even close to the worst.
There are people with worse lives than me.
But why is mine so bad?

Now I feel selfish for saying that... why am I so stupid, and selfish...
The world doesn't revolve around me, and yet I complain.

I'm sorry.

[chooch]

_>

[chooch]

I can't focus at all. my head hurts so bad. I can feel it pounding. I feel like I am about to cry. my nose feels like its being suffocated. I can't focus on my school work because I feel so awful. my friends are hardly talking to me. I feel like they have ditched me. and I did nothing. i can feel food coming up my throat and I just keep swallowing it down and my stomach hurts so bad.
all my classrooms are so hot I think I might have a stroke..
I feel awful.

edit: I feel my stomach swishing

[Appreciate]

I hate my life

[anathema]

no matter how hard i try in math, i continue to fail.
i thought i was good at geometry but i got a 68 on my last quiz.
please don't say "just keep studying! ask for help!", because neither of those work anymore.

[starry palms]

the homophobia in school is absolutely suffocating

[BrainOnSka]

Not urgent, just need to let this loose.. It's been a long day.. 0800-11:50 for classes, a one hour break, then a 1:00-2:00 class.. Then a 3:00 Bio lab that lasted til 4:50, and a Calculus class from 5:00-6:00... Thankfully the professor for Calc let us off early, but still.. I'm a zombie.. I still need to take a shower and put on a happy face for Church at 9:00.. yes.. 9:00 at night. And I get to get up at 8:00 again tomorrow morning.. Yaay. I didn't drink coffee until I got into school.. you wonder why it made me a coffee drinker.. I'm just exhausted. Wanna go home this weekend, take a looong hot bath, and some other comforts of home, but I'm going home next weekend, can't go home two weeks in a row, mainly because my parents cant afford the gas to come up and get me. oh well. hopefully I'll have my roommate around this weekend to talk to and hang out with...