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[hellebore]

My eyes hurt now.

I was looking forward to it. I'd finally be able to let out all I wanted to say- but it didn't happen. I was never given the chance. Not one thing. That's why the bottle broke.
I'm somehow more alone. I just don't want it to bottle up to the point of breaking in, say, English class in front of all those strangers.
I can't even express how much it hurts. Crying is not my equivalent of 'getting out the emotions'. Also, I don't want to talk about the stuff to anyone on CS, because it just doesn't work that way.
When I'm not crying, I'm wasting away with a blank existence.
I'm lost and afraid and lonely and sad and helpless and nothingness.

[Atomic Samurai]

I love my parents. I love them so. So. SO. SO. Much.

Oh yeah go ahead sign me up for "Martial Arts" teach the person with anger issues and anti social habits how to break things with her limbs. I don't have enough patience for that crap, never have, never will. And oh yeah that thing that have to wear ( It's called a gei or something, right? ) that's not gonna happen. So go ahead teach me how to break someone's nose. And then lecture me about how lazy I am and how you're trying to help me. It's all crap, not worth my time, I don't even care about this. And here you are, trying to make me. Just go, pack up your things and leave. I wouldn't miss you. I wouldn't miss how Mom always thinks I'm against her and how mad my Dad can get. Their constant lecture about how I have a "tone", you want a "tone"? I bet you'll hear my tone when I finally snap and start yelling.
I don't respect you. I don't like you. I don't want to live with you.

I'm not even the type for that "Honorable" fighting. I've got no honor on my belt, I'm the street rogue type, y'know quick and skillful attacks. Not swinging my leg to kick a board out of some dude's hands. That's just not me.

[Guest]

My best friend, who is someone I know online, deleted her account without warning. We'd known each other for such a long time, and I was able to tell her things I didn't trust to tell anyone else. She's gone and I have no way of contacting her. I miss her so freaking much. ;A;

[Totty]

no one believes me anymore

my senpai will never notice me

my siblings start trouble and after I tell my mother how they mistreat me they lie about it and she believes them and guess what? haha, yup, they continue to do it and there's nothing I can do anymore because when I fight back I get in trouble.

;.;

[0000007]

how do I stay motivated?? why should I care anymore?
my grades are sinking like the titanic and I'm just letting it happen
my mom thinks I'm doing fine in school, but in truth I am failing a class and the others are going down too. its not that its hard, other than English sometimes, I just don't turn in stuff or do the work. I'm fine when I'm in class, but on my own I just slack. and I should do something about it, but I don't.. I don't feel like it.. I can't stay motivated or focused
what am I supposed to do

[leverage]

I've been horrible sick the past two days. Cycling in and out of a fever. I can hardly think straight, either.
Luckily there were no classes the past two days, but they start up again tomorrow.
I can't possible make it through the day feeling like I do know, much less through marching band practice after school.
I am terrified of missing classes- I'm in too many APs to miss. I'm supposed to have a test in my only non-AP academic class and right now I can hardly process enough to type this.
Furthermore, since it's a 3-day week, chances are my band director won't let me march in the field show this Friday if I miss so much as a day. So I'd have to stand on the sidelines at attention while everyone else marches... Which would be so embarrassing.
Basically everything is crap right now. I am bored to death but too sick to do a thing but watch my show House MD for literally hours and hours the past two days, and sleep.
I know my brain isn't working well because I feel like I'm watching everything happen, like I'm on autopilot and can't process much of anything. Today I choked out a few hours of physics homework because, if by some miracle I feel better tomorrow, I won't have time to do it then and it's due Thursday morning. But the homework took likely an hour or two longer than it should have and there were some questions I couldn't make heads or tails of.
So, I'll likely be missing school tomorrow...and that is stressing me out so much...
I hate getting sick.

[[deleted user 39490]]

I know this doesn't seem very bad compared to the other posts on here, but I just really feel the need to get my feelings out on here and maybe if I could get some advice from an older person who has already finished high school or is in their late years, I would really appreciate it because I have no one else to go to for this kind of advice.

I'm extremely inactive on this site nowadays. I can't even remember the last time I made a post. This is because i've decided to rid myself of all distractions from school and my real life. That being said, i've started my first year of high school a little less than 3 weeks ago (this will have been the third week) and all my classes are great. I'm in Algebra 2, which is 2 classes higher than most kids of my grade are in and i'm a straight A student. I've also taken all honors courses every year, throughout middle school and this year i've selected all available honors courses. I can handle it. I've been doing well so far and while it is a much heavier work load, i've been doing well i'd say.

I selected Honors World History and from the start I knew it would be a rough class. Last Friday, we took a quiz based on a textbook reading that was assigned to us by our teacher. Something I noticed from the start is that we were given an AP textbook. (AP stands for Advanced Placement which is basically a college course, for those from other countries) I did everything I could to study for it, I read it multiple times over and over again, I took notes, I made questions out of the notes I took and made flashcards, etc etc. We had a week to read the pages and prepare for the test. We were assigned 7 pages from this textbook which has really tiny font about this big, I would say and little-to-no pictures/diagrams and anything like that. All words. So as you can imagine me and a lot of other students are having a lot of trouble with it, but like I mentioned, I took a week to study well for hours a night, and I felt pretty confident on Friday.

Now comes the part I actually came here for. Today we got the results of the test, and I failed. I didn't get a C or a D, I failed. I got an F. I know it doesn't seem like a big deal to some people and you might be rolling your eyes at me right about now but we have these textbook reading tests every single week. from now on. I can't imagine what horrible grades every week is going to do to my GPA, which i'm fully aware colleges look at. I'd say a good 90% of my class didn't get above a C, and my class is full of smart kids. I'd also say at least 1/3 of the kids who have my teacher have decided to drop out of the class and take non-honors because they must've also done horribly on the test. I need to consider this too, but the problem is I only have this week to decide if I want to drop out or find another way to improve on these tests. The thought of taking a non-honors class really isn't easy for me because I know I won't feel like I belong. I do have a lot to consider, whether staying in a high college-prep class is worth letting my GPA drop, and I really don't think it is. But on the other hand taking a non-honors course and getting a good grade isn't much of an achievement either.

Now comes my next problem. My mother is a strict disciplinarian. She's a kind sweet angel and I love her to pieces, but she expects a lot from me. She expects nothing less than an A, and like other students I don't know how to break the news to my mother, but my biggest problem is that she expects so much of me. She's always bragging about how smart I am to other people and I am that one kid in the family that has the best grades and all. That's kinda my thing, if that makes any sense. It's something i'm good at and something I pride myself in. I know my mom won't get mad at me for failing, she'll probably try and convince me it's not a big deal and talk to me about dropping out and all that, but that's not the point. I just know once I tell her what happened i'm going to let her down and that's my nightmare.

I guess I just need someone who's been through a similar experience as me and guide me in the right direction, maybe a bit of advice on what to do and whether I should drop out or try extra hard. Thanks for reading if you got this far, and sorry for rambling on.

I'm so sorry... I know how that can feel. I'm one of those kids who takes all honors, and my mom is one of those who expects no less than an A.
Trust me, it's not much. I know you've heard it before, and I know that it's an F on a test, but it really doesn't matter right now. I'm assuming it's your first grading period, the period that is a little rocky for everyone. I went through the exact same thing this year when I started school.
You will have more grades this period, you will have more chances to bring it up. Don't be disappointed in yourself, from what I've heard, you really tried your best.
Here's a few tips.
Don't study for hours in a row. That may sound odd, but trust me. They've done studies. The most effective way is to study for about half an hour to an hour at a time, get a ten minute break where you relax, and then redo the cycle. I tried this, and it really does work.
Don't second judge yourself. You can do this, you know the answers. If you don't really know, go with your "gut". It may sound odd, but your mind knows everything that you studied subconsciously. If you go back over and see that it IS the wrong answer though, clearly change it!
Don't be down on yourself. From what I've read, you're really smart. I know that you got an F, but that shouldn't deter you. I'm an all honors, A student as well, and I know how it feels to get an F... It's stressful, it's shocking, and it feels bad. But don't be down for it. Pick your head up, and think about what you did that you may need to change for the next time. Don't tell yourself that you're stupid, or that you can't do it.
I'm sure that your mom will understand. You're not less smart for that F. If you studied for it, and you failed, at least you tried. Now you know what you might need to change.
Don't do what I did, which was tell myself that I'm stupid. You're not.

I'm sorry if this didn't help, I'm not the best at this, but I know what you're going through. If you ever want to talk, you can PM me.

[abxy]

i need help with phobias.
uhh, I have a massive fear of fire, even more so after a van caught fire outside my house a few weeks ago, some of you may remember that.
but now I'm losing sleep because I'm constantly awake worrying if a fire's going to break out in the house, I'm losing concentration in class work because I'm worrying if there's going to be a fire somewhere in the building sometime, I'm constantly on edge for the fire alarm.
please, it's getting really bad. any advice..?

As stupid as it seems, create an imaginary friend based off of your fears. I did this and it actually works to just talk to them in your head to occupy your thoughts. The reason I wasn't afraid one time was actually one of my imaginary friends. It really helps.

[GIGABITE]

computer got a virus
after the stress of the day, i'm seething at this
finally managed to sorta clear it up but it's still there and getting rid of it will be tedious
i just want to lay down..

[♥kittyfaith2210♥]

I am crying
Because pets of mine were taken
Now I'm running low
And I'm hurting really bad to add on top of it
I wish I didn't have this bump on my head, where it hurts so much to move...