[Zeneka]

I've had this design idea in a my head for like a week now, I'm so happy with how it turned out!

Normal Fur, Long Tail, Half-Flop Ears, Uncommon Multi-Blue Paint.

This will be a mini-Impress Me contest~ I really love this wolf so I want to make sure it's going to a good home ;-;

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You must also include at least 3 extras, such as art, history, a story, likes and dislikes, etc.

Coding/Prettying up your form is allowed but won't really boost your form at all and doesn't count as an extra, I never really care about coding and all that, but it does sometimes help me decide between ties and stuff on occasion so feel free to do so anyway.

Will end September 30th.

[Chimericect]

Nah, I'll save this concept for another wolf uvu
I don't have the time right now q v q

[F0XFANG]

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[tucawt]

marky!

[quietlights]

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[Zuppe]

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Personality:

notes:

- knight of lambdon
- probably also a royal adviser of some kind? maybe intrusted with protecting the prince/queens
- had a daughter at one point, lost her and his mate to a raid
- is stern and a stickler for the rules
- seen a lot in his life

[hypnowave]

watching

[booklover789]

Username:
booklover789

Name:
Lamar

Sex and Gender:
Cisgender Male

Pronouns:
He, Him, His, etc.

Current Romantic and Sexual Orientation:
Lithromantic Lithsexual

Lithromantic - one who experiences romantic attraction but does not want it reciprocated; attraction may fade when it is returned; another term for akoiromantic

Lithsexual - one who experiences sexual attraction but does not want it reciprocated; attraction may fade when it is returned

One Phrase That Describes His Romantic Life:
"And I'll never let myself believe someone really loves me."

Medical Issues:
1. He has three filled cavities from his childhood when he adored sweets and sugary treats like blue raspberry airheads and cotton candy.

A dental restoration or dental filling is a dental restorative material used to restore the function, integrity and morphology of missing tooth structure. The structural loss typically results from caries or external trauma. It is also lost intentionally during tooth preparation to improve the aesthetics or the physical integrity of the intended restorative material. Dental restoration also refers to the replacement of missing tooth structure that is supported by dental implants.

2. He has a dissociative disorder - specifically, depersonalization/derealization disorder.

Depersonalization-derealization disorder occurs when you persistently or repeatedly have the feeling that you're observing yourself from outside your body or you have a sense that things around you aren't real, or both. Feelings of depersonalization and derealization can be very disturbing and may feel like you're living in a dream....Persistent and recurrent episodes of depersonalization or derealization or both cause distress and problems functioning at work or school or in other important areas of your life. During these episodes, you are aware that your sense of detachment is only a feeling, and not reality. The experience and feelings of the disorder can be difficult to describe. Worry about "going crazy" can cause you to become preoccupied with checking that you exist and determining what's actually real....Symptoms of depersonalization include:

• ...Feeling like a robot or that you're not in control of your speech or movements...
• Emotional or physical numbness of your senses or responses to the world around you
• A sense that your memories lack emotion, and that they may or may not be your own memories

....Symptoms of derealization include:

• Feelings of being alienated from or unfamiliar with your surroundings, perhaps like you're living in a movie...
• Surroundings that appear distorted, blurry, colorless, two-dimensional or artificial...
• Distortions in perception of time, such as recent events feeling like distant past
• Distortions of distance and the size and shape of objects

Episodes of depersonalization-derealization disorder may last hours, days, weeks or even months at a time. In some people, these episodes turn into ongoing feelings of depersonalization or derealization that may periodically get better or worse....Episodes of depersonalization or derealization can be frightening. They can cause:

• Difficulty focusing on tasks or remembering things
• Interference with work and other routine activities...

3. He has anxiety attacks and panic attacks.

A panic attack is a rush of intense psychological and physical symptoms. These symptoms of panic can be frightening and happen suddenly, often for no clear reason.
Panic attacks usually last between five and 20 minutes, and although it may feel as though you are in serious trouble, they aren't dangerous and shouldn't cause any physical harm. It is unlikely you will be admitted to hospital if you have a panic attack.
You may feel an overwhelming sense of fear and a sense of unreality, as if you’re detached from the world around you.
As well as psychological symptoms, you may also experience physical symptoms of panic, such as:

• a sensation that your heart is beating irregularly (palpitations)
• sweating
• trembling
• shortness of breath (hyperventilation)...

The physical symptoms of a panic attack are caused by your body going into "fight or flight" mode in response to something you think is a threat.

Phobias and Severity of Each:
(Severe --- Moderate --- Mild)
Moderate - Achluophobia - Fear of darkness.
Moderate - Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or of being in crowded, public places like markets. Fear of leaving a safe place.
Mild - Aichmophobia - Fear of needles.
Severe - Amnesiphobia - Fear of amnesia.
Mild - Astrapophobia - Fear of thunder and lightning.
Moderate - Nyctohylophobia - Fear of dark wooded areas or of forests at night.
Moderate - Pistanthrophobia - Fear of trusting others due to past experiences with relationships gone bad.


Interests:

• Love of water. (Hydrophilia)
• Love of living next to or spending time around water. (Hygrophilia)
• Love of salt or salt-water. (Halophilia)
• Love of ponds or marshes. (Limnophilia)
• Love of living or spending time in running water. (Rheophilia)
• Love of large amounts of rainfall. (Ombrophilia)
• Love of stones. (Lithophilia)
• Love of beds. (Clinophilia)
• Love of work. (Ergophilia)
• Love of pigeons. (Peristerophilia)
• Love of dogs. (Canophilia)
• Love of stars.
• Love of space.

Pets:
"Let me start this off by saying that my parents were extremely nice and gave me a very large house when I told them of my plans to move out. Now, this house is much too large for just myself, so I decided to branch out and start fostering animals. I have a thing for dogs...particularly Dachshunds. I adore the little fuzzballs and I'm currently taking care of nine. There's Lily, Layla, Lulu, Rascal, Petey, Layeesha, Regal, Snakebite, and Tourmalet. There's also a lab mix, Rodger Hemmington; a Papillon, Ella; three corgis, Mara, Dan, and Tam; and the Dalmatian pups, Fred and George. Lastly, there's a foster mutt I'm taking care of that I'm considering adopting named Cheeto. And before you bother asking about their names, no, I did not name the foster pups, as they were from previous owners that had all ready named them. My friend Bellinda is currently out of town, so I am also caring for her two kittens, Angel's Heart and Confectionery.
Now, as for the pets I actually own. I have four pet birds: a dove named Regina, and the other three birds are pigeons named Rubella, Richard, and Odette. I also have three seahorses that I might be getting rid of soon, seeing as I'm running out of room! They are named Trident, Tiny Tim, and Tiana.
In total, I have 26 pets right now that I'm taking care of - normally I would only have 24, as Bellinda's kittens wouldn't be part of the equation...but I don't mind taking care of them for a short while for a friend."

Theme Song:
Iodine - Icon for Hire

Brief Personality Traits:
Good:
Loves Possibilities
Has a High Work Drive
Adventurous
Passionate
Knows Why He Believes What He Believes
Agile
Courageous
Loyal
Honest
Faithful
Good Friend
Values Companionship
Protective
Water-loving
Resilient
Persevering
Embraces Conflict
Embraces the Unknown
Accepting
Tries His Best to Be Happy
Overcame Adversity
Triumphed Over His Trauma
Appreciates the Little Things in Life
Large-Hearted
Kind
Mature

Bad:
Stressed
Filled With Anxiety
Angry
Threatening
Jerky
Skeptical
Cynical
Snaps Easily
Overprotective in Regards to His Stuff
Dependent on Others
Tends to Hold Grudges
Gloomy and Stormy
Depressed
Insecure
Hopeless
Can be a Little Bit Like a Hermit
Is Uncomfortable Outside of His Comfort Zone
Can be Stubborn
Shy Around Strangers
Wallows in Self-Pity
Tends to Self-Depreciate

Neither Good nor Bad:
Highly Tolerant
Relies Upon His Friends for Help
Needs Safety to Feel Secure
Doesn't Back Down From a Challenge
Can be a Loner
Appreciates That His Friends and Family Will Always Be There for Him
Tries His Best to Seize Opportunities

Personality:
Lamar has an odd high tolerance for things. Being able to handle quite a lot until he cracks under pressure, he is used to dealing with stress and anxiety. What he is most used to dealing with are RPWs who simply don't understand him. When he tries to explain that he does, in fact, have medical issues, no matter how normal he may appear on the outside...they just don't seem to listen. He can get very fed up with RPWs like this, and can only tolerate them for so long...though his tolerance levels are abnormally high for an RPW like himself. Once his tolerance levels run out, however, he can get very nasty and mean. Don't be fooled by his sweet appearance - beware his anger and fury. He can become very threatening and act like an absolute jerk to RPWs that refuse to understand what he says in regard to his medical issues, as he absolutely hates having to deal with RPWs like this, and will usually snap and start yelling at them, which is very unlike his normal nature. After someone says something like this to set him off, he'll be very skeptical of that being and will act very cynical whenever that being is mentioned or is in his presence.

Lamar loves to explore possibilities. He loves having different options...though not too many, or he becomes too stressed and easily frustrated with too many options. But, with just the right amount of options, he likes being able to choose what he does and where he goes from where he's at currently. He has a very high work drive, and will work hard to get what he wants. He's very passionate about what he believes in, and will do his absolute best to obtain what he wants. There are moments where he'll be down-in-the-dumps, but other than those few moments, he tries his best to keep his spirits high, look at all of his possibilities, and work hard to get where he wants to be.

Lamar, as much as he may hate change and doesn't like it when he's not in control of something, actually likes adventuring from time to time. He is actually rather agile, and can be courageous when he puts his mind to it. When he gets an inkling to go out somewhere, he'll take a buddy and go either rock-climbing or swimming. He loves water more than anything, as it seems to calm him down and keep him regular and feeling normal...so he'll do this even if he can't get a buddy to go with him. But for something as risky as rock-climbing, he ALWAYS makes sure he can grab a friend's paw and drag him or her along, as he refuses to do this more dangerous activity alone.

Lamar is rather protective of what is his. He hates it when others touch his stuff or rearrange things he's placed without his explicit permission. He will often melt down into an anxiety attack of someone does this to his stuff. Being rather blunt with his close friends and those he knows well, he'll speak up and tell them to buzz off if they start doing this...but with those he doesn't know as well, he's very shy and doesn't like to talk. If they start touching his stuff, he'll slowly start to shrink away and will bottle up his feelings of anxiety until he literally explodes into a full-on meltdown, even worse than if he was just with his friends. In this respect, he feels his friends make him stronger, and that there is definitely strength in numbers. His friends aren't what most would call "normal," though, so he's got some unlikely allies. He tends to rely upon his group of friends for support and help, even though he would prefer to be more independent. He knows that there are times where he needs help, as much as he'd hate to admit it, he isn't strong enough to deal with life on his own just yet. He values loyalty, honesty, and companionship over practically anything else in life, as these are things he tries to show to others, and thus expects to get them in return. If someone betrays him, he will become very vengeful and ridiculously catty towards that being, and he will generally shun them and refuse to speak with them after that point unless they apologize. If they do, then he moves on, but otherwise, he'll hold a grudge for his entire life. This is why his friends are so important to him - he trusts them as they trust him. He is loyal to them as they are loyal to him. He is honest with them, as best as he can be, and they are honest with him. He counts their companionship as extremely important, and he'll never belittle or put down his friends, even if they do something stupid that he disagrees with. He is faithful to his friends and family, and plans on being like this for his entire life. If anybody attacks or is mean to his friends or family members, he will literally fly off the handle and will go all-out sticking up for them. It's almost like his shyness around strangers melts away when confronted by idiots that want to hurt his friends and family. He's very protective of them, and would stick up for them in whatever pickle they may find themselves in, as he knows that they'd do the same for him. He has a rather large heart, and can be kind to his friends and family when he's not wallowing in self-pity or feeling down-in-the-dumps with depression. His friends and family are always there for him, though, whether he's feeling sunny with blue skies or cloudy with grey skies, and for that he's very grateful.

Lamar has a really bad habit of self-depreciation. He has never thought of himself as great or important. He tends to beat himself up in his head, and really repeats a lot of stuff that's negative about himself. He has a very bad view of himself, and has a nasty habit of negative-self-talk. He's been doing his best to stop the negative-self-talk, at least. If he's with his friends, they tend to help him keep a positive view on life...but when he's left by himself, his thoughts generally turn negative. He's been trying his best to do better with this, though, and he seems to be improving.

Lamar knows why he believes what he believes, and is pretty solid in his opinions. However, he does understand that others have different values from himself, and does his best to respect those beings and their beliefs, even if he wholly disagrees with them. Lamar knows why he believes what he believes because of years of study. He taught himself most everything, and hasn't learned much from others. He prefers to know for himself why he knows what he knows and where he got the information from. He prefers to do his own studying, and doesn't tend to listen to others when they try to persuade him that his views are incorrect. He can be stubborn in this regard, but he is open to having his mind changed...if he's given enough proof and is in an agreeable enough mood.

Because of his medical issues, mental problems, and phobias, he doesn't think he's capable of finding true love. It took him a long time to open up enough to accept the fact that he's worthy of having friends, and now that he actually has friends he's very grateful for having them and is happy that he changed his mind. But he still thinks that he'd be more of a burden on his significant other than a loved one, and he doesn't want anyone to have to deal with his issues, so he hasn't gotten up the courage to actually start dating yet. He's completely open to it in the future...but for now, he needs to deal with his own issues by himself or with the occasional help from his friends. He doesn't mind being a loner, as he's been alone for most of his life. While that doesn't make this fact any more sad, Lamar is at least open to changing his mind on this. He doesn't discount the possibility for change in the future, but for now, he's happy as he is: single.

Because of his medical issues, Lamar is used to embracing the unknown. He is also used to embracing conflict, what with his mindset being conflicted the majority of the time. Lamar is resilient, and has persevered through so much in his life. He now does his best to seize opportunities that come his way...even though this can be hard for him to do at certain times due to his high levels of stress and anxiety. He tends to find unlikely situations, but that's just because he has odd situations that he has to deal with on a daily basis. As he's gotten older and has become more mature, he's been able to assess his situation and make correct statements regarding it. He now has a more ready mind to accept and deal with the challenges that are frequently sent his way. Life likes to send him curve balls, but he doesn't back down from a challenge and does his best to wack them with a proverbial bat - even if they don't ever make it out of the park. He basically has realized that he has to accept and embrace everything regarding his medical issues - otherwise, they will overtake and control him. And because he's had to deal with his mental illness and medical issues, he honestly thinks of himself as a better RPW because of it. While he went through many cycles of mourning and having fleeting moments of security and felt hopeless for months at a time...he has persevered and has gotten over that period in his life. He changed so much, and has rebuilt his life based on hope and healing. He's done his best to start a new journey with this mental illness and with his medical issues, and has tried his hardest to keep a positive outlook on life. He has transformed from his old, depressed self into a newer, more happier self. Yes, he still has his bad days where nothing goes right and everything seems wrong and horrible and like it will never be good again...and he still does battle depression and his constant anxiety...but his life is overall much better now than it was previously. He overcame adversity and he triumphed over his traumatic past to be a better RPW today. Lamar does his best to appreciate the little things in life, and he's tried his hardest to find a spiritual path to help him cope with his daily aches and pains. He only wants to be safe, and while this might make him a bit hermit-like at times, when he does go out with his friends he does his best to have fun while still staying in his comfort zone. And if, for some odd reason, he is pulled out of his comfort zone and becomes uncomfortable, he does his best to cope. He actively tries to make a good impression to others, and to keep his appearances up. He wants to have a happy life, and not be so sad and lethargic as he was before. While it's still hard for him to smile a lot, and he can generally be seen with a rather stormy or gloomy look on his face, he's actively trying to be a better RPW and to be a happier being all around.

Relationships:
Richard
(Owned by underfaker.)

A gentleman with a sadistic background. If you've ever read the short story "A Dangerous Game", he's basically Zaroff. (He invites people to his home and offers them a deal; if they can outlast him for three days when he's hunting them down, he'll give them anything [material-wise] they desire.)

Foe
Lamar doesn't like Richard at all. This RPW is too spooky and haunting for Lamar to ever trust him, and after only meeting him once, Lamar wanted nothing to do with him after that point. Lamar doesn't trust this RPW at all, and feels rather wary and leery around him, so he doesn't enjoy being in his presence whatsoever. Lamar will do whatever he can to not hang around this guy, and to be as far away from him as possible.

Seth
(Owned by dave..)

Seth may look like rainbows and butterflies but alas don't let looks deceive you. Don't judge this book by the cover. Sethis a manipulative, cruel heartbreaker on the lose. Why you might ask ? He bribes people towards him with whatever he can, power, fame, natural looks, you name it, and then uses them for the sake of their money....But towards all this mess of a wolf, theres more. He's a very cliched mean wolf but he's also the same wolf fearing for his life and praying that he'll make it through another day. No this isn't a soft side at all, just natural concern for himself. Doesn't usually experience it for others.

Foe
Lamar doesn't like Seth very much. While he can understand this pup's trust issues, he doesn't appreciate how cruel Seth acts around everyone. Lamar doesn't like RPWs who are manipulative, who bribe others to just do what they want them to do. Lamar really doesn't want to be around RPWs that are so mean, so he does his best to stay away from Seth. He doesn't dislike Seth as much as he dislikes Richard, and given the choice between Richard and Seth, he'd choose Seth every time.

Shiya
(Owned by underfaker.)

A little cutie who's kinda girly, but knows her limits and won't hesitate to stick up for herself. She's shy, and prefers clinging to Richard (much to his chagrin).

Acquaintance
While Lamar would love to get to know Shiya better than he does currently, she tends to hang around his foe Richard, so he doesn't have very much interaction with her. Lamar has a feeling that he and Shiya would get along very well...but will never know for certain because of her infatuation with the older, dark RPW that Lamar doesn't wish to be associated with.

Dante
(Owned by underfaker.)

A complete and utter grumpy pants who acts like he hates everyone, but he's really a sweet guy. Hunts "demons" (aka bad guys) for a living (so basically he's a bounty hunter).

Acquaintance
Lamar isn't the largest fan of Dante, which is why he isn't friends with the pup. He isn't quite on "foe" status, but Dante and Lamar don't get along very well. Lamar doesn't like dealing with demons and doesn't believe in ghosts, and he does his best to stay away from bad guys, so these two RPWs really don't have very much in common. Lamar doesn't like to be around grumpy RPWs, either, and while he understands that Dante can be sweet when he wants to be, Lamar doesn't see the happier side of Dante very often, and thus doesn't really enjoy hanging around him.

Reese
(Belongs to Crimoodle)

If sass was a currency, Reese would be rich....Reese is...aspiring demon hunter....He's ridiculously sassy, and the expression 'best taken in small doses' can be applied to Reese. He's super hot headed if you make him mad....Its not that Reese is outright mean: it just happens to be that Reese is in it for the joking. The pranking, the messing around. ...he doesn't get offended if someone doesn't like him....He's not violent, however, and his mouth is clean aside from his sassy remarks. Reese may 'insult', but only on occasion and never about severe problems....never about weight, disease, disability, or the like....Luckily, on terms of being messy, Reese is pretty self sufficient and is quite organized as well as clean....Reese is decently aloof, but is one to also let things fly over his head. Examples would be the fact that he's completely unaware that his own uncle...is actually a demon himself....He isn't a die hard protector and its iffy if he'll even stand up for one of his friends unless he's brought into the situation. He is more of a instigator and antagonist in terms of provoking things, most definitely....Underneath Reese's sassy cover, he's not really insecure like one would expect. But after years of bouncing around, his head has been filled with melancholy....Reese also believes in ghosts and demons...hence why he sometimes leaves the light on in order to 'see ghosts before the come to get him'...
Read his full personality here: viewtopic.php?f=10&t=2774345&p=89759717#p89759699

Acquaintance
Lamar isn't exactly a fan of Reese, but he doesn't hate the pup. The little one just happens to get on Lamar's nerves a lot of the time, what with his pranking and joking and rarely taking things seriously. However, Lamar appreciates that Reese doesn't insult others about stuff that they can't help having, like disabilities and the like. Lamar also likes that Reese is more organized than he himself is. But Lamar doesn't like that Reese isn't a protector, and that he's a little young and immature for Lamar's taste in friends. Lamar can understand the young one's melancholy, suffering with depression himself, but he doesn't agree with Reese about all the ghosts and stuff that he believes in, and thinks them childish notions.

Talib
(Owned by Foxy The Pirate.)

Talib's personality is all over the place and contradicting at times. Talib is very sassy, but doesn't care to be around other sassy wolves. He can be the biggest sass master you know, but can't dish it back at other sassy people. He gets very grumpy if you're sassy with him, and he isn't very likeable when he's grouchy. He gives everyone a headache when he's grouchy, complaining about pretty much everything which i'm sure everyone can agree that gets pretty annoying. Although he is a butt sometimes, he is an optimist in the end. He can see the good in any situation almost all the time. He is also a huge sweetheart to girls, being a natural womanizer. He plans to quit being like that when he finds the true love of his life, which won't be anytime soon. He tends to flirt with everyone, which is just his nature. Talib can't help but flirt even with guys too.

Acquaintance
Lamar doesn't hate Talib in any way shape or form...he just counts this particular RPW as a little immature for his age. He also doesn't like his sassy attitude, as Lamar finds Talib's words to sometimes be unintentionally hurtful. Lamar also rolls his eyes whenever the young one tries to hit on older girls - but he explains it away as just being a little dude and not knowing any better. However, Lamar does understand and like that Talib has a good outlook on life, and tries his best to find the good in every situation. He doesn't really like the pup, but he certainly doesn't hate him, either. This is why Lamar wouldn't call Talib a friend, but he also wouldn't call him a foe.

Afina
(Owned by XRandomCatX.)

Afina is a RPW that likes to stick to the beat of her own drum. She's adventurous, creative, and is very free spirited. She loves to travel to new places. Though she doesn't like staying in one place for very long, Afina makes the effort to visit her closest friends and family once in awhile to share stories of her travels and bring them back souvenirs.

Acquaintance
Lamar doesn't know very much about Afina, and would like to get to know her a little bit better before becoming friends with her...but because she's always on the move, he finds it difficult to get a chance to actually sit down and have a nice chat with her. While he can be adventurous himself, his adventurous moments aren't 24-7, so he has a bit of trouble understanding why Afina must always be on the move. Nonetheless, Lamar hopes one day to get to know her better.

Fiero
(Owned by BrightHeaven.)

Fiero is quite the dreamer. He spends most of his days at home, waiting for Begonia to come back from his travels so his brother can share what he learned with him. Fiero is an introvert and prefers quiet places over loud. He has always been fascinated by anything that is very complex and is always thinking about it. Fiero is also always seen with his nose stuck in a book–but surprisingly he has no glasses.

Acquaintance
Lamar and Fiero don't always get along, but for the most part, he gets along quite well with this quiet RPW. There are times where they will just sit beside each other quietly and count that as a good conversation. Fiero doesn't use a lot of words, which Lamar is perfectly all right with...though at times his silence can be a tad bit unnerving. Lamar likes to read, but he isn't as obsessed with hit as Fiero, so he doesn't understand how the RPW could turn him down several times to go swimming because he'd rather read. And Lamar really doesn't see much of Fiero, considering the pup is almost always at home.

Altair
(Owned by underfaker.)

Altair is a quiet soul, with no flair for the dramatic. In fact, he hates surprises. He likes being alone, or simply writing away in his journal. Or, if he can, both. Altair will socialize, but only if he must.

Acquaintance
Lamar gets along well with Altair. While he isn't as close to him as his other friends, he does like to hang around the little dude. While Altair isn't his friend, nor the being he'd choose first to hang out with, if there's no one else to talk to, Lamar will usually trot over to wherever Altair is and will sit down and have a lovely chat with him.

Zero
(Owned by kingsley..)

Zero is a very kind guy but he can get a little competitive over a lot of thinks. He loves to game and pull pranks ln everyone he sees even strangers! Sometimes when he gets angry he gets very stubborn and you wouldn't want to bother him then but other than that zero is a very sweet kind, and a romantic gentlemen.

Acquaintance
Lamar doesn't always enjoy being around Zero. This RPW has his mean streak, and can be awfully stubborn and angry at times. He's also a prankster, and Lamar doesn't generally hang around RPWs who are pranksters, as he hates being fooled and made to look ridiculous and laughed at. However, when Zero isn't acting like this, Lamar does enjoy his company. The RPW is kind and sweet, even if he does get a little too competitive for Lamar's interests. And while Lamar may shove this RPW over every time he tries to get his romance on, Lamar doesn't hate Zero at all, and would rather hang around Zero than most of his other acquaintances.

Lydia
(Owned by dexter..)

she wants to be kind to others and tries very hard to do just that, but since she had a hard childhood, with horrible parents that used to shout at her whenever she had terrifying hallucinations about bad things that would happen soon after. She tries hard to be kind, but can often come across as snarky or selfish. she cares about her look and appearance a lot, but she does not want to be in a relationship/has no crushes.

Friend
Lamar isn't the closest with Lydia, but he does still consider her to be a friend. He has honestly found companionship with her, seeing as they both had hard childhoods and both have medical issues. He completely understands having to deal with medical issues, particularly those pertaining to the mind, so the fact that she sometimes has horrible hallucinations is something that he's very understanding about. He tries his best to be helpful in those situations, and to make Lydia feel comfortable when she has to deal with them. He knows that while she sometimes seems selfish and vain, she really has a heart filled with kindness. It just takes awhile to actually see that sweet personality underneath the snarkiness.

Sunaarashi
(Owned by underfaker.)

Even though he's based off an Okapi, he's slow and clumsy as all heck. In no way graceful or fast. He's also a bit of a lame-o, and likes cats. Like, seriously. His house reeks of feline.

Friend
While Lamar won't voluntarily head over to Sunaarashi's house on any given day (he's not the largest fan of cats), he does like to hang around this RPW. Sunaarashi takes his time doing things, and while he does tend to be a klutz most of the time, Lamar doesn't mind too much, as he's found a friend in the pup. Sunaarashi seems to be a bit more open to listening to things others would label as "stupid" or "silly" or "lame," so Lamar definitely appreciates that aspect of this RPW.

Elodie
(Belongs to boooklover789.)

Proud - Honest - Energetic - Workaholic - Obsessive - Designer - Hands-on Worker - Determined - Confident - Logical - Trusting - Skeptical With Some - Respectful - Socially-Challenged
Read her full personality here: http://bookiesawesomecharacters.weebly.com/elodie.html

Friend
Lamar doesn't always stay around his socially-challenged friends, but Elodie is one that he does like being around. Even though she needs her space sometimes, when she's not being a workaholic, Lamar will often drop by and see what she's working on. She's very respectful of what he needs or what he'd like to talk about, and when she's not feeling so awkward, she'll try to make conversation with him. While their relationship might be confusing to those not hanging around them, if you ever see the two together, you won't hesitate to think that they're quite good friends.

Atlas
(Owned by underfaker.)

A total flirt who's very respectful of personal boundaries and comfort zones. He's a gentleman who loves everyone.

Friend
Lamar is definitely a friend of Atlas. While Lamar can get a little annoyed by Atlas's constant flirting, he does understand and appreciate that Atlas is respectful of other's personal boundaries. He never has to worry about Atlas crossing any lines that he's drawn, nor does he have to worry about this RPW yanking him out of his comfort zone. He really does love hanging around this guy, and counts him as a close friend.

Bellinda
(Belongs to boooklover789.)

Bellinda is a very loving canine and will often go out of her way to help others. She is extremely kind-hearted and not at all strict or mean. She often worries about hurting others feelings and will make sure that she's not offended anyone by anything she says - and she does this by constantly apologizing to everyone she meets.
Read her full personality here: http://bookiesawesomecharacters.weebly. ... linda.html

Friend
Lamar is a friend to Bellinda. Bellinda's caring, loving, and kind attitude is appealing to Lamar, and he does enjoy hanging around her. Because she's so cautious about not offending anyone, she never hurts Lamar's feelings or makes him feel inferior. She does her absolute best to be kind to everyone, but particularly RPWs like Lamar. She only wants to see her friends happy, so this RPW is one that Lamar always enjoys being around.

Thalassa
(Belongs to boooklover789.)

Resilient - Resourceful - Explorer - Tranquil - Graceful - Agile - Fluid - Listener - Silent - Watcher - Persevering - Courageous - Honest - Loyal - Independent - Superstitious - Elusive
Read his full personality here: http://bookiesawesomecharacters.weebly. ... lassa.html

Good Friend
Lamar and Thalassa share similar interests, particularly in reference to swimming. When Lamar isn't feeling depressed and would like to hang out with his friends, but none of them want to go swimming with him, he'll jump in the water, knowing Thalassa will most likely be there. Thalassa almost entirely lives in the water. He loves to swim and dive, and Lamar will often join him on his quest to find a perfectly preserved shark's tooth somewhere in the ocean. He loves to look for seashells and hang around his buddy. Most of the time, Lamar can be found around Thalassa, as he's very close to this RPW.

Q&A

• Which is worse, failing or never trying? Never trying, because if you don't try, you'll never know if you can do it.
  
• What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? The acceptance of those with mental and medical issues. I'd appreciate it if others were just more understanding, and weren't so cruel or mean to those born with mental and medical issues.
  
• If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich? Making children in hospitals and orphanages smile...so I suppose being a comedian would make you rich.
  
• Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing? Right now I'm not really doing anything but answering these questions, so...I don't know what you're referring to.
  
• Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? Doing things right, because I generally do the right things.
  
• You’re having lunch with three beings you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do? I first tell them that she's my friend. If they still don't back off, I'll get nasty and start yelling at them. I might even leave them if they refuse to listen - why waste my time around such insulting beings, no matter how much I looked up to them previously?
  
• Would you break the law to save a loved one? Of course!
  
• Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity? Yup, all the time! In history, for instance, with Einstein. In current times, well, with myself! Where I once thought I was going crazy, I can now accept that I just have what others would call a "disability," and can actually be creative and do whatever it is I set my mind on doing.
  
• What’s something you know you do differently than most RPWs? Um...well...most RPWs don't have to use grounding techniques to keep them thinking properly. I have to do those on a daily basis.
  
• How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy? Because other beings aren't me. We're all different, so the things that make us happy are different.
  
• What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back? Um...get a girlfriend, I guess. I mean, I don't think I'm ready to have one, but I would like one nonetheless. What's holding me back? Well...I don't feel like I deserve a girlfriend, and that no RPW in her own right mind would want me, honestly. I'm a basket-case.
  
• Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster? No...even if I'm stressed I don't. I know it's just a machine, and it will eventually get to where I'm at if I wait long enough. And if I get tired of waiting, I might push it once more...but I usually just take the stairs in the case that the elevator is too slow.
  
• What are you most grateful for? My friends and family. And my pets. They keep me grounded when I don't think it physically is possible to be grounded. They have been there for me throughout my entire life, so I'm just really appreciative.
  
• What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special? My mother picking me up and spinning me around in circles. It was happy because it was the first moment of my life where I felt like I could fly...which oddly wasn't frightening. I trusted my mother to hold me, and she did - she never let me fall.
  
• If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job? No - I love working too much. Well, I might take a break and invest some of the money and spend it, but I'd eventually go back to work, definitely.
  
• Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing? More work I enjoy doing.
  
• When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in? Um...fairly recently, actually - right before I made the friends I currently have, I felt really alone.
  
• If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today? Everyone I care about. I don't care about a lot of RPWs I know - I have enemies, you know.
  
• Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous? Nope. Fame and good looks don't really matter to me.
  
• If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? Because it's been drilled into our minds that when we make mistakes, we're stupid or bad...even though the opposite is true. If you make a mistake, you end up learning from it. If no one made mistakes, we wouldn't have anything to learn or improve upon. Our society is to blame for this idea that if we make mistakes we are "stupid." If you make mistakes, then that's perfectly okay - you'll learn something from it, guaranteed!
  
• In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
  Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
  
• If you had god-like powers for one day, what would you do with them? I would help those more unfortunate than myself. I'd help all those little pups in the burn units in the hospitals. I'd help the RPWs not blest with work to find jobs. I'd help the RPWs who don't have any homes to at least find shelter and a reliable place to find food. There are always RPWs out there who are worse off than me, and I really feel compassion to help them. If I could do so, I'd do as much as I could in that one day that I had enough power to actually make an impact on their lives.
  
• What's worse and why: having expectations that are too high or having no expectations at all? Having no expectations at all. If you have too high expectations, you have the chance to lower them. If you have no expectations, well, it's harder to get some all of a sudden than just change the ones you had previously.
  
• If you were stranded on a desert island and could only bring 3 things, what would you choose to bring? My family, my friends, and toiletries.
  
• If you could only eat 4 different foods for the remainder of your life, what foods would you choose? Bread, Pasta, Potatoes, and Ice Cream.
  
• What is your favorite snack food? I love Bugles.
  
• What is the most embarrassing song or CD in your collection? What is the most embarrassing movie/DVD/Blu-ray in your collection? Most embarrassing song in my collection? Are You Gonna Eat That? And as for the most embarrassing movie I own...that would be The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh. Heh. I guess I have weird taste, right?
  
• What are your favorite television shows? I enjoy two BBC programs, Doctor Who and Sherlock - though I'm more partial to Doctor Who. That's about it.
  
• What is your favorite movie of all time? I actually really enjoy Stargate. I know, I know, it's a geeky movie - but I do actually enjoy it. Now, is it my favorite? Not really - but it IS the movie I can always notice something new in every single time I watch it.
  
• Who, if anyone, was your biggest childhood hero? *cough* Iron Man.
  
• What is your earliest memory? I can remember sitting underneath a tree, staring up at the leaves and the sunlight streaming through them. I remember my mother calling me to come in from playing outdoors...and I didn't know if I was dreaming or not. I couldn't figure it out. When I ran towards the house, I stumbled and fell, not seeing a rock in my path. When my chin got skinned on the rough ground, I knew without a doubt that I was awake. It was first a lovely memory, of the leaves and sunlight and my mother calling me...and then it became a horrible memory, the first real time I can remember that I wasn't sure what was real and what wasn't.
  
• What is your favorite book or story? My favorite book has to be Leven Thumps and the Whispered Secret by Obert Skye, because I love fantasy, action, adventure, and mystery books. My favorite story is Cinderella, because it was the first story I was ever told as a child.
  
• What are your hobbies? I enjoy caring for my animals, both the ones I own and the ones I foster. I also enjoy hanging out with my friends, swimming, and star-gazing.
  
• What is the most embarrassing thing you have ever done? I had just met this really cool RPW, and had finished speaking with him and turned to walk away. I hadn't noticed I was as close to a wall as I was, so when I turned and took two steps forward, I slammed into the wall and wacked my head. It stung a bit, but wasn't horribly painful. It was more humiliating than anything, honestly.
  
• What is your deepest fear? Amnesiphobia - Fear of amnesia. Because my mental issues revolve around exactly what you'd think they would - the mind - I fear getting amnesia more than almost anything in the world. I don't want to literally go crazy and forget all of my memories, no matter how gruesome they may be. Bad memories make us who we are, and if I had the chance to remove my bad memories, I wouldn't choose to do it. While I'd prefer to remember more good than bad stuff, my brain is mainly made up of bad memories...but without both these good and bad memories, I wouldn't be who I am today.
  
• Which, if any, childhood dreams never came true for you? Well, I dreamed I could fly. That hasn't really happened yet.
  
• What is your biggest regret? Not getting diagnosed with my illnesses earlier on in my life. If I would have known the name of what I was dealing with as a child, I wouldn't have had to go through what I had to go through as a child. As it was, I found out about my "disabilities" in my early teen years, and that was late enough.
  
• What is your opinion about the term 'disabled'? Personally, I use it only in quotes, as while the world may call me 'disabled,' what I deal with is my every day 'normal.' I don't always feel normal, or correct, or right...but that doesn't mean that what I deal with makes me 'disabled.' Like...why does the world want to focus on what I can't do, or what's wrong with me? Why can't they accept that I have my faults, but I try my best to be a good RPW? Yes, I have 'disabilities.' Does that mean I'm stupid? Does that mean I'm crazy and unloving and unable to live a happy life? No. It just means its a little bit harder for me to do so than the average RPW. Please, look at what I CAN do - not what I CAN'T. Look at what I can do that's cool - not what's wrong with me.
  
• What is your biggest triumph? I once spent four days painting this amazing picture, entirely in shades of blue...took me HOURS and DAYS of work, but when I finished it, I felt quite proud of myself.
  
• If someone gave you too much change at a store, would you keep it or give it back? I'd give it back. It's not honest to steal from others knowingly. Now, if I didn't notice it and walked all the way home, then I wouldn't bother walking all the way back and giving it back. But if I notice it in the store, I will definitely give it back.

Extra Art:

Pleased
By me (booklover789)


Mesmerized
By me (booklover789)


*sigh*
By me (booklover789)


Annoyed
By me (booklover789)


Angered
By me (booklover789)


Frightened
By me (booklover789)


Saddened
By me (booklover789)


Tail Dripping With Paint
By me (booklover789)


His Gorgeous Eyes
By me (booklover789)


Two Halves of the Same Whole
By me (booklover789)

Notes:

• I have phobias myself, and have had an anxiety/panic attack. I know perfectly well what it is like to experience both of these things. I also have traits of depersonalization/derealization disorder, even though I have not been clinically evaluated and labelled with such a term. However, I know for certain that I have experienced derealization and depersonalization, and can completely relate to and understand what it feels like to have to deal with these issues.
  
• I have permission from underfaker, Foxy The Pirate, kingsley., Crimoodle, BrightHeaven, dexter., dave., and XRandomCatX to use their RPWs in my form. The other RPWs - Thalassa, Bellinda, and Elodie - in this form belong to me (booklover789).

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For more information about depersonalization/derealization disorder, please check out the articles, websites, and books below. (Every article, website, and/or book that is below should be free to read.)

http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-cond ... n-20033401
http://psychnews.psychiatryonline.org/d ... 38.16.0018
http://www.who.int/classifications/icd/en/GRNBOOK.pdf
http://neuro.psychiatryonline.org/doi/a ... p.14.2.141
http://apps.who.int/classifications/icd ... /en#/F48.1
http://www.nature.com/npp/journal/v25/n ... 5731a.html
http://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/10.1 ... 98E.f01t03
http://jnnp.bmj.com/content/72/4/530.short

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